[silver_moon]

Hi, I'm new here... here for many reasons. I'm suffering from depression and anxiety. I'm also lonely and this has all stemmed mainly from the fact that I've been ill for a couple of years and although I've had many different tests I haven't been diagnosed yet. It has affected me academically... had to drop out of my second year of college (in UK... I'm now re-sitting it but have lost all my friends I used to socialise with so I feel very lost and isolated. The illness is still affecting my school work and life.)
Is anyone here in a similar boat? Or do you all know why your pain is caused?
All I know is that mine is more than likely gynecological and extremely interfering.
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[mrsmoggles]

Welcom to PC. I too have depression and anxiety and a few others...I too have been in pain for years and cannot work (going to school is out of question though I would have liked to) My doctors, finally got a new one who has said fibro, but that depends on which dr you ask...I don't go out much and therefore lonely and alone a lot. Recently pain has worsened and so....Glad you found us. Do you have a doctor? Are you on meds? All the tests I usually have come back normal...but the pain is real.
melanie

[CedarS]

Welcome!

I deal with chronic pain too so I know how much it can affect our lives. Mine is caused by fibromyalgia and migraines.

Have you looked through any of the good health sites to see if you can get more ideas on the cause of your pain? You mentioned gynecological - does chronic pelvic pain fit?

[silver_moon]

Thank you for your welcomes.
I've been seen by two specialists and at the moment I'm seeing a gynecologist, in fact I have an appointment with him later today and I'm really scared about going. I've had endless tests and, like you Melanie, they have all come back normal. At the moment I'm on medication for PMDD, although it isn't working so I don't think it's that. The next step I think is an operation to see if I have endometriosis. I won't be looking forward to that... I'm not good at all with hospitals and operations and things and the whole idea of it being through my naval really makes me quiver.
I know what you mean when you say "All the tests I usually have come back normal...but the pain is real." I'm sure my GP thinks that it's all in my head or that it was caused by my depression... and I know it's not. It's definitely real.

Thank you CedarS, chronic pelvic pain does fit, although my pain is in that region but goes around my back sometimes too. It also gets unbearable around the time of my period and I can not do a thing.

I'm just getting fed up of having to take painkillers constantly and not knowing the cause of the pain.

Again, thank you for your warm welcomes,

Molly

[mrsmoggles]

good luck with your appointment today!!

oh getting checked for endo..been there and done that...it was not too bad, if they do invasive it is slight, 1/2 inch cut in belly button. sometimes they try doing a sonogram. i have slight endo and before my periods, i HURT and usually curl up with heat pad and take 1600mg of ibuprofin. i am getting run around for pain meds now. I hate having to practically beg for codiene wen it doesnt work..i have asked for soemthing else but the doc's are letting me stay in pain and now I am barely functioning. I mean i have stopped moving for most part...i suck, my body sucks, my brain sucks, and i am a failure...oh well, thats me...i have an appt today too but with a p-doc for intake. i don't wanna go, i know i am a depressive person, but my hubby thinks this is most important. i dunno why i should be in happy mood if pain is going to sour it...oh well i am ranting, sorry. ~ melanie

[silver_moon]

Thanks... appointment didn't go too well. I was very depressed and anxious and the gynae saw me like that and decided that I was overacting and the pain isn't as bad as I'm saying. I felt like screaming at her saying you try and cope with it then.
I have codeine on prescription and it doesn't work for me either... just takes the edge off. I take it with Mefanamic Acid but the gynae thinks I should just take ibuprofin, but I know it has hardly any effect on me.
Basically... I have to go 6months just taking Cerazette (progesterone only pill) 'cause they think I have PMDD and if it has no affect I go back then and theyll consider the op to see if I have endo... but she said they don't want to do that because of my age there is little chance I have it. (I'm 19)

I know how you feel... the pain always dampens my moods and it's just like a routine now... 'you're in pain, therefore feel sorry for yourself and be unhappy'. I know we all feel like pap, but we've got to help each other
and you're not a failure because you're doing your best to get rid of the pain and depression

by p-doc I'm assuming you mean like a councilor? I've been messed about so much with them, I don't see one at the moment. But, on Monday I have an appointment to get my name back on the list.

I just feel like I'm in so many viscous circles I'm never going to get out of them.

Anyway..... hope your appointment went ok,
Molly

[mrsmoggles]

I hate the vicious circles, and the pain, I have horribly painful periods and some days it is grin and bare it because 'you shouldn't be hurting that bad put a heat pad on it...'. blah blah blah. I had periods fromn age 12 and I had them so bad I would have to miss a couple of days of school each month, like doubled over unable to move pain. I have 'light' endo one dr said...like that means much when pain is pain and it is intolerable. They can't tell me what MY pain is supposed to feel like or how it shouldn't bother me, but they do...

i am sorry doctors are the same the world over and I guess we just have to keep plugging away until we find a doctor that DOES something other than dismiss it or explain it then ignore it.

I have to go see a therapist too...and the p-doc(psychologist) told me to wean off wellbutrin and start on cymbalta...so we go for another round and see what happens. In the meantime, I am still in pain, my muscles still twitching, my feet still burning, etc etc...guess I shouldn't think about it then it will go away huh??:P oh well, we shall suffer together, hey???

melanie

[silver_moon]

I've had a horrible week depression-wise (hence not being online) I'm so lonely and it's really getting to me at the moment.
Wow that's a long time to deal with pain... and it's never got any better?
The thing about most doctors is they think they know what you're going through when really they don't. So it's easy for them to say "oh just take some painkillers and deal with it". Every time I get told that my various test results are normal my heart sinks 'cause it seems like this is never going to end. I'm only young and I feel like I'm loosing what are meant to be the best years of my life.

My appointment with the councillor got moved so I only saw her yesterday... she wasn't a great help but she's put me back on the waiting list to see a therapist. So I can hope.

Hope you had a good week last week?

molly

[mrsmoggles]

i am sorry you feel that your best years are being wasted on pain...it sucks. i dunno about last week...i kinda try to live hour by hour and don't make any plans. today i am going to try the gym...not really looking forward to it in some ways, but other ways i am cause i need to get my strength back up. so, 6 of one half dozen of the other...i hope you are feeling a bit better melanie