Originally Posted by Trace14

I get head fog from Trazadone, so I stopped taking them. It would finally lift late afternoon, but it was too late then. Lunesta works best for me.
Hope you get to feeling better.

Lunesta makes me irritable. I started a sleep thread, hoping to help sort sleep issues out. I read here that someone regulated their sleep issues, so I was hoping people could add information about that. Glad you have something that works for you. I wonder if taking these kind of drugs long term makes sleep worse since they do in fact disrupt sleep architecture, which causes more problems in the long run.

I ended up taking an ambien and slept 5 hours. I feel better but the day is shot, so I got off track. Instead of being hard on myself or worrying, I'm watching a good movie. giving myself a break. There's a lot of passion/intense emotion in it and it's directed well, so it has my attention. Robert Redford is in it, I love him and the characters he plays. It's called "the Discovery". It's on Netflix.

I cooked some healthy foods for the next few days. Made several salads. Cooked salmon, broccoli and a sweet potato for dinner.

Have some things to do to get back on track. Wanted to work at least 4 hours today so I don't have to work 8 hours tomorrow. I hardly even get weekends, usually working 6 days a week, sometimes 7. I want to do get some work done after the movie so I don't procrastinate tomorrow when I wake up, spending needless worrying about getting work done as i am overwhelmed with stuff to do outside of work too.

Slipping off track but will get back on track soon hopefully. My hip is out of place right now so I can't go to the gym. I was doing stretches and it made it worse.

Well, I'm getting back to my movie. Just wanted to talk about getting back on track. It's quiet here, so I suppose I can encourage myself at the moment.

Hope you are doing ok Trace.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by Skies

Lunesta makes me irritable. I started a sleep thread, hoping to help sort sleep issues out. I read here that someone regulated their sleep issues, so I was hoping people could add information about that. Glad you have something that works for you. I wonder if taking these kind of drugs long term makes sleep worse since they do in fact disrupt sleep architecture, which causes more problems in the long run.

I ended up taking an ambien and slept 5 hours. I feel better but the day is shot, so I got off track. Instead of being hard on myself or worrying, I'm watching a good movie. giving myself a break. There's a lot of passion/intense emotion in it and it's directed well, so it has my attention. Robert Redford is in it, I love him and the characters he plays. It's called "the Discovery". It's on Netflix.

I cooked some healthy foods for the next few days. Made several salads. Cooked salmon, broccoli and a sweet potato for dinner.

Have some things to do to get back on track. Wanted to work at least 4 hours today so I don't have to work 8 hours tomorrow. I hardly even get weekends, usually working 6 days a week, sometimes 7. I want to do get some work done after the movie so I don't procrastinate tomorrow when I wake up, spending needless worrying about getting work done as i am overwhelmed with stuff to do outside of work too.

It has been a little quiet in here. Maybe people are getting out in the nice weather and enjoying it. I hope so. I'm waiting for all the pollen to settle before being out too much.

Slipping off track but will get back on track soon hopefully. My hip is out of place right now so I can't go to the gym. I was doing stretches and it made it worse.

Well, I'm getting back to my movie. Just wanted to talk about getting back on track. It's quiet here, so I suppose I can encourage myself at the moment.

Hope you are doing ok Trace.

Hey there. I'm doing okay just a lot going on that's stressful. Just part of the dealing with CPTSD and all it's glory I'm really proud of you for understanding that we do get off track, we do have bad days, and not to be hard on ourselves for those days. Love your idea about watching a good movie and just taking it easy. Love your positive attitude

Sorry about the hip. Are you going to have a replacement at some point? A friend of mine had one and she's doing well with it. There are still some things she can't do and she's constantly having to do stretches to keep the hip working right, but all in all she's doing good. We both get a good laugh when I tell her "there goes your pole dancing career"

Glad you have a friend you can laugh with. No, i never had a problem with my hip before, but i just twisted it or something. Its not moving right when i walk.

Sorry you have a lot going on, adding to the stress. Even with all that, you were able to be kind and encouraging when you came to post here. You have some good things going for you-your personality, for one.

Ill be here tomorrow if you want to talk about anything.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by Skies

Glad you have a friend you can laugh with. No, i never had a problem with my hip before, but i just twisted it or something. Its not moving right when i walk.

Sorry you have a lot going on, adding to the stress. Even with all that, you were able to be kind and encouraging when you came to post here. You have some good things going for you-your personality, for one.

Ill be here tomorrow if you want to talk about anything.

That's very sweet. I try not to bring me emotions in the forum. Everyone is dealing with their own stuff. I've always had a knack for shutting myself down to help others. Helping others is the core of my being, even as a child. Always had a strong connection to older people too. Mom said no matter where we were I would end up approaching older people to talk with them

If that's what works for you...it sounds sort of like a coping technique too, as it distracts from your feelings. Or am I wrong?
I'm not going to assume you meant me when you say 'older people'. I'm not old yet.

Feeling so alone, just trying to get through the week. Although it just started, it's not going so good.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by Skies

If that's what works for you...it sounds sort of like a coping technique too, as it distracts from your feelings. Or am I wrong?
I'm not going to assume you meant me when you say 'older people'. I'm not old yet.

Feeling so alone, just trying to get through the week. Although it just started, it's not going so good.

Yes, probably is a form of avoidance really.
Older people meaning elders for my age. But when I was a child it was usually people in 70's-80's

[SoupDragon]

I've been gradually decreasing my meds. Down from 40mg to 10mg, but doing ok. At the point in T where we're on the edge of talk8ng about tough stuff after a few years of working on my overwhelm. I want to talk about it med free if I can. I want to feel that stuff, the fear, anger and sadness as I think it might be helpful in my recovery. I am scared if going back to those dark places though.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by SoupDragon

I've been gradually decreasing my meds. Down from 40mg to 10mg, but doing ok. At the point in T where we're on the edge of talk8ng about tough stuff after a few years of working on my overwhelm. I want to talk about it med free if I can. I want to feel that stuff, the fear, anger and sadness as I think it might be helpful in my recovery. I am scared if going back to those dark places though.

I understand and I asked my T the same thing about wouldn't it be better to address these issues while not being medicated. She said yes, but didn't suggest me going off the meds. I want to taper mine as well , I hate being on any type of medication. You know we are here for you, please reach out if you feel you are going to a place you don't want to be.