[iamspecial]

I dont know how to cope anymore with how i feel. Its like im coming to the end of what i cant take. I feel like im being crushed all the time by people and they dont even care! I have no idea why this wont pass, i wish it would, i really do My doctor isnt any help really and my CBT isnt doing anything for me i just dont know how much more i can take. Im not at all in a good mind right now but im trying to get out of it but i cant seem too Its so horrible, time is running out i think. I really have no more ideas of what i can do to help this pass. i really hate me right now and i wish i hadnt changed my name now, i think notspecial is right for me, not this name

[princejustaprince1]

Hey i am new to this website i dont know how to use it, can you help me...Hey i am sorry for what you're talking about, we can chat !

[Christina86]

You are special. I smiled when you asked for the name change, because it made me happy to know that someone else realized they had worth as a person. You still do (have worth), even if you feel like crap. Feelings aren't constant and permanent, they're fluid and can change. What would the CBT you're learning now say about your current state of mind - do you know of any tips to help you out of this mindset?

Or call your doctor maybe?

Take care of your body

,exercise,nutrition,rest,avoid unprescribed drugs,alcohol,caffeine.As there are side effects which compromise our emotional health.Drinking enough water is essential as well as our bodies require water for brain function and its health.

Make time for yourself.

No matter how busy you are,an empty cup cannot refill another cup.That means putting yourself first for a bit of time every day.

Cultivate good friendships

...even one or two friends can make a difference in your daily experience.Tend them like a garden.

Practice meditation.

Just a few minutes a day,following a simple set of instructions.I'd send a link,but idk how.Google meditation.

Befriend your thoughts.

Cultivate good thoughts.Again ...like a garden.Use bad thoughts as as threads of inquiry into old constructs that constrict you,and need to be disassembled skillfully.

Enlist help from a guide.

A spiritual teacher,a book of wise sayings,a therapist,....find someone you can trust,who can help you grow,and help you learn how to improve your peace.

Live each day as if it were your last.

What would you wish you'd done,said,where you'd have gone.This may assist perspective.

Don't take life too seriously.

Cut yourself ,and others,some slack.Make room for your perceived slights.Deep breath,laugh.

Cultivate gratitude.

Notice all that is given you...be it,a job,shelter,an aquaintance,food,weather,freedom....whatever it may be.Say thanks inside for these.

Engage your creativity.

You can play,sing,cook,make a collage,paint,dance,quilt,woodwork,program,garden,learn a language etc.

Monitor your self talk.

Try to be an internal mother to yourself.Be a voice within of soothing,grace,encouragement,approval....ect.

Try to be emotionally aware.

It is vital to know what you feel.This helps when you are out of touch with your feelings.Times when it's difficult to understand what's happening within you.(This is a useful log to carry to therapist if you can even write a 4 word sentence 2 or more times per day.)

Once you understand your feelings,its important to be able to accept them.

When you feel angry about things,do you beat yourself up about it?Or while emotionally needy do you belittle your self?Do try to be accepting of these feelings.

Scents/essences can cultivate feelings within

....explore this and find things that elicit certain feelings from you.

Rest is very much essential.

If you have issues with sleeping,don't insist that you sleep....simply be in a place where you may hear soft music,perhaps full silence,a soothing amount of lighting,and try to daydream of an event you would love to attend...watching para sailing,viewing the ocean,hiking.or walk your self through an event or a time which brought comfort to you within....let go of the day.....try to focus on those thoughts.it's YOUR quiet time.

Try to receive a medical and dental checkup

to rule out possible health issues which could become problematic.

Somehow...interrupt this thinking

by intervening with another task or activity.


Hope this helps......Wolf

Hello, iamspecial. If treatment is not working for you, please let your treatment team know. You might want to print your post for them. In any event, changes are in order.

Good luck.

[lavieenrose]

Great ideas, Wolfsong. I'll have to print out your post as a reminder. I hope that you feel better soon, Iamspecial. Nothing stays the same for long.

[CalypsoRose]

Awww everyone is special honey.
Maybe if the CBT isn't working you could try DBT.
It's not just for us borderlines anymore, because it helps teach wonderful coping skills.
Like mindfullness.

Don't give up. Where would the world be without you? A very sad place, I bet.

[lonegael]

But you are special! If you go, then no one else will replace you because no one can! You know, the DBT isn't a bad idea, but remember, all therapy can hit a dry place. People can be tough without meaning to be, and when you feel horrible, everything hurts, hon. But hang on, because it feels like forever, but it's not. The one who wins hangs on five seconds longer than the enemy. remember that. That's all it takes, dear.You can do it. We can help you, and you have the stength. HUGGGGGSSSSSS!

[disguise123]

find someone who is ment to be helping u (p doc or whoever) and stamp ur feet and tell them exactly whats happening and what you need. Repeat until they listen!

[iamspecial]

Thank you all for your posts.....means alot really it does and my CBT knows its not working and is trying to find something that will but till then i am working with her. thank you all again

[Crew]

write down on paper and put around YOUR living areas and places you look at that is in your eye's view and start by writing down things you like to see in you or others and write down like for instance "Even though I don't feel beautiful right now, I will feel better about myself as I say "I am beautiful right now just the way that I am." It does not matter if you believe it right now you will eventually believe it, if you can read POSITIVE things about YOU or things you would like to be able to do.
This seemed silly at the time and thought how could this work but then as I read them more and more I not only believed I was beautiful in other ways and I now don't care what people think of me. Took a long time yet it was worth the journey.... Good Luck on yours (((iamspecial)))) right there your screen name is a great one, you are special and you deserve to feel fully special all the time in my humble opinion..... Crew

[iamspecial]

Thank you crew for your post....i will try that but i dont think it will work...i have tryed telling myself nice things but they never stay and it turns into negative and make me feel worse....thank you i will give it another go ((((crew))))