I feel bad

I feel like I'm a horrible person, an hypocrite who deserves to be punished.. there are people here who are suffering a lot more than me, and they're a lot stronger, while I'm so weak and can't handle anything bad happening to me.

I just want some support.. some hugs.. some love. But nobody IRL is there to help me. Probably because I don't deserve it

Maybe I don't even belong here on PC..

I'm sure you deserve all that: support, hugs, love and more. I'm sorry there's no one there right now IRL. But you have us here and I'm sure you belong here on PC

You fit right in at PC!!! We are a caring bunch that are way to hard on ourselves. We feel guilty about the committing trivial mistakes and omissions. We tend to be kind and gentle-hearted. All these things are sooo you. You belong here. I have said in the past that you would be a great tour guide, given all the support you always give to all of us when we are down--have you ever considered being a therapist?? You make me feel better all of the time. <<<hugs>>>

Thank you so much Nah, I'd do more bad than good as a therapist.. but I'm glad I make you feel better

You belong here just like everyone else. I see all your positive supportive posts. You give so much to the PC community. Thank you for being here!

Mickey--you are a good listener and very nonjudgemental, so for the type of people who mostly want to be listened to in therapy, you would be great. Plus, when a therapist offers suggestions, sometimes that just isn't as effective as a person realizing things for themselves. People mostly need love and encouragement. You are good at that. So I think you would be fine.

When I said I don't belong here, I meant that people here have to face with real struggles, such as abusive relationships, bad childhoods, serious mental illness. I don't have any of these things.. so I shouldn't complain at all, yet I do

It's healthy for us to vent plus being aware of your feelings is good. I think some of my own self-made trauma could have been prevented if I had taken the time to examine my feelings or at least think through things before acting. From what I have gathered, part of your problem is isolation--that is a very real problem. It hits those of us who crave hugs and social interaction especially hard. And you may have a chemical imbalance that might eventually require medication if you find you are having a hard time functioning/achieving as you should at your age. So, I still REALLY think you belong here or you wouldn't be here all of the time (like I am ).

When your cup of woe overflows, it doesn't matter how big the cup is.

Voicing a complaint is often a cry for the effects of interaction, and I see nothing at all wrong with that since a cry for interaction is much different than merely whining for attention. I also shy away from complaining because others are in greater need than I, but I do still occasionally voice my own cry when the pain is greatest.

it's good to focus on how to be better, and not good to beat yourself up over comparisons to others~ i hope you find peace in your heart and mind~

Everyone has their own limits of how much they can bear. Your's is just as bad for you as mine is for me.

(((hugs)))

Comparing your troubles to other people's is only going to bring you down. Focus on your own healing. You do belong here.

This is very true peace to you

Mickey you are a very kind person... and your absence is felt greatly in chat rooms you are always a nice person to have around who is always considerate of others...

This is what I always tried to do..

But since I'm a "failure" (as judged by a doctor irl not anyone on pc...).... I "failed"

It's been a very long time since I've been in chat, and not for this reason...imo, None of us are perfect...

My point is please don't judge yourself so harshly... there will be plenty in this cruel world who will do that for you

(This is not about anyone on pc)

I agree with you fuzzybear ... We shouldn't judge ourselves harshly... hugs... you know you are not a failure... In your docs eyes you might be one but what is the evidence that his judgement is correct...nothing solid to prove... and even if he comes up with anything what seems failure to him might be success to someone else... so don't you think you are a failure you are beautiful as you are .

Thank you guys. You've all been very kind to me, how can I repay you?

Aw, Mickey. (Hugs)

Look, you were one of the first few people to interact with me here on PC. It meant a lot; still does. And yanno, I too have had that slightly wretched feeling of worrying that I was taking time, attention, and reassurance-energy away from other members who were going thru far more hell than was my alotted portion. My T told me to get over myself, lolol -- which I thought was singularly unhelpful at the time, hah.
Later on we talked about it a bit more, & she told me one of my Aspie-light issues was scolding myself for daring to have the FEELINGS I had... as tho I wasn't entitled to feel/react the way I do (internally; how I behave is a different kettle o'fish, naturally. ).

And she's absolutely right: We feel what we feel; we need what we need; and so long as we're conscious of that and taking steps to cope, it's all good.

Repression & self-blame is bad for the soul.

imo of course .

xo,
Chyia, exreemely glad you're here

Thank you somuch for your kind words.. They help.

Your a wonderful person ok? You definitely belong here, and we all love you here

Thank you, Dax

You always show empathy concern and kind words to me .I would miss you if you left. I feel the same way at times and I wonder why can't my self talk be as helpful to me it's because I don't self talk to myself in a good way.

Aww.. thank you so much I'm sorry you feel the same way