How are you coping today? #4

I feel kinda *****y today because I’m dealing with PMS and I don’t have anything to relieve it. I’ve already taken extra Xanax. If I take my Geodon now I’ll be exhausted. I’m using TV to distract myself. It works great when I’m watching it. But once I turn off the TV then things and feelings come back. Which is why you shouldn’t be using distraction in the first place to mask your feelings. I’m just not sure what to do. I do see my therapist tomorrow evening.

I have been talking to myself a lot & keep pushing myself toward the things I'm wishing for.

I'm struggling today. I felt overwhelmed this morning and now I'm depressed. I might do a meditation.

Thanks, BD. I think you are right. In a dysfunctional family everyone plays a part. Thanks to all the info I’ve found about the subject, the truth has come out. I’m at peace with it and feel love for all of them. I choose to look at all the good which truly was more than the bad.

The first email I read this morning was that the egift card that I sent two weeks ago with phone minutes has not been opened. I have been unsuccessful at reaching them for a week and lately their phone instantly goes to the leave a voice message. In the past, this meant the phone was lost (it's a person who is even more skilled than I am at losing things). I have not been able to reach them for a week and am worried about them. My work project is ending today so I might drive by where they live today. I can't help it.

If you are concerned then definitely go check out what’s up.

We still pay for the phone for married son. It comforts me to see minutes are being used. Proof of life.

I am soldiering through.

Big hugs to everyone doing their best in difficult circumstances.

I am coping well today, I feel regular yoga and better diet (mostly!)is really helping me. My anxious thoughts are less.

Right now I'm coping by reading what you all are saying. Thank you.

I'm not coping well. I relied on some addictive behaviors that only made matters worse. I'm stressed about everything. I want to do art but I don't have the energy to clean off my kitchen table so I can do it. Everything little thing I do hurts.

I am feeling very frustrated. today I got banned from a website by someone who I thought was a genuin person and liked having me around- in fact he was constantly talking about how I'm such a valued contributor and a valued person

well: clearly not since he can just bann my account without me doing anything, and without a second thought or a message telling me why

oh well: he lost a valued contributor today, and I tink his site is going to go down here from here on out.

I also have a headache. not a bad one, but bad enough to notice it..

I'm scolding myself right now.

I got knocked down this morning. I got up again during the afternoon. Now I’m just trying to ignore my usual Saturday night blues. I need to ask my therapist why Saturday nights specifically are so hard for me. I assume it’s just a hormone thing since I get my shots Saturday mornings. But I also know I do have legit things to be concerned and preoccupied with and it’s been like this for 15 months.

But yeah just another Saturday night of feeling down.

Some people are just weird assholes. They are so nice and supportive for a long time. Then one minor thing happens, often not even having anything to do with them but with another member who doesn’t give a care with what you said. Then this person changes their entire view of you and your just done according to them.

Black and white thinking much?

Yeah I know I’m being oddly specific in my post.

Don't listen to the negative voices! (You probably know this and it can be challenging to do I know ). You are a wonderful person. Thanks for making PC a wonderful place to be.

He finally sent an email to me yesterday. As I suspected, he lost his phone. His sister and I are going to see him after I go to church today.

I feel my relationship challenges are trying to teach me to be ‘Mother Theresa’, the most enormously kind, gracious, patient person to tolerate horrifically triggering behavior.

Still tired despite taking a nap. I feel drained. Well, my man is coming over this week so I have something to look forward to doing. I thought I had covid-19 but no cough or fever. So, I think it is a combo of my hormones changing with the side effect of my med. I feel so exhausted! But, I am doing ok. I am dragging myself everywhere and pushing myself. I am not so tired to do stuff but feel drained while doing nothing. As long as I don't think about it, I'm fine. Hormonal change while aging is troublesome. I look young but feel old. But, life is ok for now.

I have a lot to do today. So I made a to-do list. I'm slowly working on it. I hope I get it all done this morning. Then I will relax.

I'm very tired. I spent a lot of time with my family today and that included running around with my 3 and 5 year old cousins. The 5 year old told me that I am now her best friend.


I also...I'd been enrolled in an online college class, which I dropped today. Just the prep work for it the week before was a lot of work. I was feeling a lot of stress, overwhelm, insecurity, uncertainty. In the end it just felt like I was taking on too much. Part of me wishes that I could have stuck with it. But maybe I can do it in the Fall or Spring, when the semesters are longer, and after I've found a job. It did make me realize that I need to be busier than I usually am. It's a helpful skill, in my case, busyness. And at least now I know a little more about what I need to put into it.

I could have coped better this morning. While it was not intentional there was a bit of disordered behavior/thinking that led up to it. The rest of the day I was fine. I took my usual 3 Xanax but not any visteril. My moods and anxiety were controlled both inside and outside. I was a tiny bit crabby this morning though.

I have apparently been coping better today. I fulfilled some goals, which did lift my spirits. And I'm looking forward to tomorrow.

I was down, coped fairly well though, then bounced back with my tail between my legs once again. I must learn to not set myself up for the triggers that cause this back/forth!

Up too early this morning (got about 6 hours of sleep, usually get 7-8 instead lately). Formulated a to do list in my head which I am looking forward to.

Up too early this morning (got about 6 hours of sleep, usually get 7-8 instead lately so hope this is not a new trend). Formulated a to do list in my head which I am looking forward to.