How are you coping today? #4

I was super annoyed this morning. But I kept it to myself. My doctors appointment went great. But in the waiting room I was with all these pregnant women or women who just had babies and some of their husbands were with them. So I felt self conscious and out of place. But the nurses and doctors were very professional and showed zero judgement. Then I just hurried down the stairs after my appointment and I didn’t see if anyone was looking at me. But I got the answers I wanted and were surprised to get so easily.

Now I’m trying to cope with massive Valium resistant anxiety. I took a zofran and then my 20 Geodon and I ate crackers and I’m trying to rewind. I ate today but I’m still low on calories. But I’m trying.

Things were going fine until I got an email from my therapist. I think that may have jumpstarted my PMS because I’m super down right now and kinda hungry for potato chips which I’m not normally hungry for.

I’m worried about the lack of traffic on this site recently. I don’t mean to be a **** but these last couple days I seem to be the one holding up the site from being shut down. There’s hardly been anyone on and threads that were going strong even a week ago seem to be dying down.

It’s a bit concerning since MSF is the only place I can be really honest.

I just took my nighttime meds. That's how I'm coping. I will go to bed early.

Had friction with h, but went on errand with son. Coping well. The friction now only lasts an hour and is them over, reset, repeat, whatever.

I'm sorry. I might be one of the culprits. I've been depressed & playing more games than posting. I'll try to post more. I wish you well.

I haven't been sleeping enough for a long time & sometimes lately I fall asleep at odd times. Like today, I woke up & realized it was almost noon & I had slept several hours, maybe 4 or 5. I'm still very tired. But I think, over all, I'm coping ok. At least compared to a while ago. Best wishes to everybody.

I've been trying to keep very busy to manage my anxiety and so far it's working well. Sorry I haven't posted as much this week but In okay and sending best wishes to you all.

Spent most of my afternoon sleeping....

I have two days off this week. I slept through most of the day yesterday. Today, I will go out and enjoy myself. Life is not bad. I am still happy. May be, my medication works too well? I don't know but I am doing well and feel great.

I ate out for the last time for at least the next few months. I am happy. I ate a cobb salad and had a chocolate parfait. It was delicious!! Life is good for now! I will try to watch the opening of the Tokyo Olympics and see how it goes without spectators.

Very tired because hardly any sleep. But I seem to be coping ok.

I guess I’m coping ok. I did some online retail shopping though that wasn’t really necessary. I’m eating today I guess. My moods and anxiety are mostly in check. I got out of the house this morning. My mom asked if I was ok and she never asks that. I feel fine just a tiny bit off but it’s most likely injection related and a bit of anxiety about my surgery. The therapy situation isn’t really bothering me today. And I’m honestly really starting to forget my transference T which is slightly annoying because I don’t want to forget her. But it’s like that part of that song I really like that she read the lyrics to. The part that goes “cut my hair and I found me a new girlfriend. Looking for another story I can tell.” I just don’t want to go through this ordeal again with my current therapist when she switches me over in September.

But yeah I’m coping well today but I probably just have injection fatigue right now. I plan on getting it right before I go to bed so I can avoid any hunger since it can make me pretty hungry the night I get it.

I was feeling pretty bad this morning. I didn't want to do anything. But I made myself clean this litter box and fix myself some food. I feel slightly better now.

Why do people feel like they can hurt me so much? Why do people not realize how much their words hurt?

I'm coping pretty good at the moment.

I'm coping okay. I am still really anxious about being on Klonopin even though I know I probably need it for now. It's like my brain fluctuates every once and a while to tell me that I either should be on the Klonopin and then sometimes my brain pings me that I shouldn't be on it. I cannot make up my mind!

I’ve been hanging on today. I lost it a bit this morning but my mom and I agreed to a compromise. The rest of the day I was fine with my visible moods and anxiety. I wasn’t productive though and I’m not really sure how to be productive for the foreseeable future. I can’t go back to work right now which I really want to do and I’m working on my weight issue. The only projects I have to do is I have to hang up pictures in my room. Everything I own is clean and organized. Nothing is a mess. I just can’t find anyway to be productive. The TV shows I watch I should probably save for when I’m recovering. I have a few books but I’m not sure I can concentrate on them.

It’s just tough. I’m not bored I just feel kind of guilty I can’t find anything to do.

Sorry I just saw this now. I think it’s just me. I shouldn’t be blaming anyone else. The last time I remember things being lively on this site was in 2018. I personally think I am too focused and reliant on MSF and I should probably take a break to find myself. Not a month long break like before, but I’ve sometimes spent all day on this site and I don’t think it’s very healthy to be posting nonstop.

@Mountaindewed, I didn't feel like you were blaming anyone. I felt sorry for you & others who are consistently posting while I might be clicking & not saying anything. I got to thinking, these are support forums, & I should participate more, because the support is a two-way street. So thank you for saying what you did. That actually helped me see what I was doing & I really felt sorry. I'm afraid I still won't be as open as others are, but I can at least participate.

I'm just trying to relax as best I can. I have fresh air coming in the house right now. And I'm trying to keep my cats happy. I'm also listening to rain sounds. It's soothing.

Today I’m doing good. Although I’m starting to get tired. I got a lot accomplished today but there’s still so much that needs to be done but everything is now out of my control and the only thing I can do is control my anxiety and feelings about things.

Today turned out to be quite a challenge, but I coped pretty good.

I’m not coping well today. I’m mainly just using meds to cope. I drank too much caffeine early this morning which got me going the entire day.

By playing games and doing a few chores.

I had a good day, I'm feeling more positive about things and less worried about someone close to me. I really enjoyed work today too and my energy levels were good.