How are you coping today? #4

Oh, my goodness, I so do relate! I hope it's ok to say God bless you.

Today is a good day! I treasure days like this because I'm miserable most of the time. But today is good. Before going to bed last night I made a to-do list and this morning did 3 out of 6 already, makes me feel accomplished. I rearranged some of my writing/creativity space to be less cluttered and better optimize lighting. I moved posters around, cleared space for new ones I will purchase soon. I'm looking forward to getting some new stuff to look at. I have read that changing your environment is a good way to improve your mental health. What inspires my creativity is in my writing space, the rest will go elsewhere.

For years I was writing on my bed. Therapists told me this is a bad habit. I finally have a desk and workspace and it's awesome. I am thankful for this.

I been listening to music that make me dance just to try to feel better today.

I went to therapy and did ok. We made progress with my anxiety about thanksgiving but then I got a group FB message regarding thanksgiving and now everything is different and I freaked out and I decided to go but to stay at the hotel for the night and my mom is fine with that since things are all upside down now. I didn’t do any chores or go out besides therapy. But my anxiety for the most part and moods were in check all day. I didn’t have any freak outs in real life or online. I wasn’t productive in the house and I didn’t drink enough fluids but I ate enough calorie wise. The quality could have been a bit better but I’ve cut way back on my soda intake which is good. Although I should be drinking more water. I didn’t have any juice or Gatorade today either. I haven’t bought anything online in awhile. My stomach hurts a bit and I’m not sure why. I didn’t do any lifting. It feels like surgery pain although I shouldn’t still be having any.

I'm doing well, I posted on here about something troubling me and the replies I got made me feel better about it.

I'm not coping well. I've been in bed most of the day. I'm up now cause I have therapy in a few minutes, but I prefer to be sleeping instead.

I used to be a soda addict. Like. In a really bad way. Now I only drink it occasionally. I swear it has addictive qualities. There's something about it. I've replaced soda with hot tea. Though there is a need to be mindful about this too. It's healthier.

It sounds like you did your best today and you should be proud of how well you managed it all. I hope that pain gets better.

I took back my creative project. And am doing it in that creative community again. So far, there has been no drama. Not toxicity. No one has been rude to me. I've been making friends. It's a whole different and new experience. I used to be incredibly well-liked and popular and revered. They called me "Famous" on there. When I was gone for 3 weeks, that isn't what I missed. I missed doing my creativity because it feels like home to me. I missed doing what I love. Getting 20-30 likes isn't so important. My happiness is the fact I am doing something that brings me so much joy and passion. And since I am back to doing what I love the most, I am literally so much happier. Like this whole weight was lifted off me. Everything feels okay again.

I'm at high levels of stress and frustration because of my computer. I literally don't know what to do. Because it's been assessed and they said it's old. And they did what they could. And it's SO slow sometimes, lags so much, freezes, programs crash. And it's hard to handle when I'm trying to do things. I'm waiting on a large amount of money so I can buy a new one but there is no telling when it will show up. I feel like I'm going insane and losing my mind dealing with how infuriating and frustrating this computer is. I literally am nearly crying sometimes because of my frustration levels. I just want it to work correctly.

How on earth do you cope with having a computer like this?! When there is nothing you can do except getting a new one. And you can't.

I'm dizzy and feel unwell. The room is slowly spinning while I am sitting. Stress is the cause, I believe. I never had this problem before. I've been keeping rather busy without many breaks. I am not used to being so busy and productive. I'm usually a sloth and do everything at a snail's pace. Now, my head is spinning slowly. I should be happy that I'm productive. I need to work out. I have not been exercising lately since I don't go out. I will exercise today and see how I feel. I hope my heart does not pop. I hope to feel better soon despite all of this. I think the stress is getting to me. Oh well, such is life.

@bpforever1, I'm sorry you're not feeling well. I hope the stress eases up and you can relax. Relaxation is important too. Please take care.

I haven't felt well today but I managed to take care of some important chores. I did a little bit then took a nap. In total, I had 3 naps today. That's how I coped.

I've been doing ok today.

Really sad and crying. Very discouraged.

I'm coping by starting my morning routine early rather than waiting for me to feel overwhelmed and exhausted.

I've been taking it one step at a time so far today.

I'm not coping very well. I've been hurt repeatedly today. I had a simple request. It took 24 hours to do a runaround and finally get rejected. I feel unloved. Uncared for. Worthless. And all alone.

I don’t know ok, now I’m still awake and it’s after one a.m. Kind of hungry for a snack, and maybe will eat ritz crackers and peanut butter.

Today is much better for me. I used REST and self-soothing. I focused on the 5 senses. That helped me to feel better.

I'm distracting, using internal family systems communication, finding social support online here, resting in bed, watching shows, playing logic games, eating, reminding myself that I'm not alone in being lonely on holidays like this, pushing negative and intrusive thoughts away by finding safe things within my reach and recalling what my therapist has said to me and my many parts of self, eating in moderation, using self-affirmation talk to block any negative self-talk, keeping my phone handy in case I need to call the crisis line or in case I get a phone call from anyone I know, keeping my phone on silent so that I can sleep without being interrupted (important callers can leave a message; spam callers will be reported and blocked), and doing other self-care thingies.

I’m trying not to worry too much about my doctors appointment in the morning. I know he’ll most likely want to do blood work. I hate getting blood work done and despite getting it done lately at least once a month but multiple times in the past 16 years I just can’t get used to it and it still freaks me out. Every time the lab person says “I just want you to breathe” I just want to scream with panic.but like why am I still not used to this? Also there’s the worry about the blood work results itself. They didn’t mention my cholesterol, kidney or hemoglobin levels recently. And they gave me the go ahead for 2 surgeries since I moved. One blood work was done at the hospital the day of the surgery and that was ok. The second blood work was done at my preop appointment for my last surgery and that was ok. So I’m hoping that means the levels either aren’t a big deal or are ok now. I know my diet isn’t that perfect but my weight is decent and I am still losing.

I’m just nervous right now. But at least it’s a morning appointment instead of a 1:30-2:30 appointment. I’ve been lucky with getting morning appointments recently.

The room is still spinning very slowly. I feel better though because I walked a lot today. I feel like I'm on a merry-go-round though. The room is going up and down and around. It is not that bad as it sounds since I'm not nauseous, just a bit dizzy. It only bothers me while I'm sitting but not standing also. Weird! I will be ok nevertheless. The weather is nice here and sunny. Life could not be better.

I received confirmation about something I sensed and suspected, about an individual that was toxic in my life. It took me nearly 3 years to walk away from this person. I finally did. I started to laugh and dance around my room. I am finally free and now my life can move forward. The light within me has been dim for months, but now that I severed all ties to the toxic people in my life, my energy, and inner light and happiness are beginning to return.

I'm so glad for you, cinnamonsun!

The room is spinning very slowly. I'm enjoying the ride but feel a little dizzy. Other than this, I'm doing well. My mood is up. I went shopping for food this morning. I bought enough for two to three days. I love my gopher hole and just hole up inside. Life is not bad.

I have to e-meet the director for a volunteer job. I want to write mental health content. I don't know what they want but will find out soon. It should not be too difficult hopefully.

I'm going to write a lay summary of a scientific paper for practice. I wrote a lay summary of a review. I got some corrections back and am happy. I don't expect anybody in class to criticize my lay summary since everybody is too nice to say anything. So, it really is for my own practice.

I am working today again. It's nice to be busy and productive. I like being busy these days.