How are you coping today? #4

We removed all the wallpaper ourselves and decided not to paint the room. It looks white and fine. A buyer will want to paint it the color they choose anyway. Packing up my stuff, slowly, carefully, but without knowing where I’m going. . I think, slow baby steps will eventually get me out the door. Or ?

I'm not feeling well, I can't seem to sleep and I need a visit with the psychiatrist but he's still in the covid bubble, phone only.

I coped well but today was a headache. Like I literally have a headache right now. I had to figure out some online stuff and then I tried getting my second Covid vaccine set up but in order to get a second one at a different location you have to actually go to the pharmacy and talk with them. But I’m all set up on the 19th and my brother is set up for his first one. I ordered groceries for an online pickup for Sunday because I just can’t concentrate when I’m in a store but when I’m at home I know exactly what I need.

Speaking my mind

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I had anxious thoughts yesterday, I disabled Facebook which helped.

Last night I made myself do yoga and the difference afterwards was marked. Much calmer in my mind.

Today I went for a walk by the river and the view calmed me too. I ate a healthy nutritious lunch and now I feel calm and centred.

Hugs to you all - thanks for the support we all give each other.

I want to go back to work. I feel like I’m ready now. But my surgery is on the 4th of June and then I have to recover for who knows how long. So it will still be awhile before I can start applying. I’m hoping to get back into my old company but I have a few other alternatives if that doesn’t work.

But if I want to go back to work after not working for a year because I was scared, then that’s very good.

I'm coping by trying to think good thoughts.

My emotions have been rapidly going back and forth, and I honestly feel fine about it. I’m feeling calm and content atm.

I am not doing well and haven't been for some time. Just keeps getting worse.

[Some help is no help at all.
Therapist suggested I check out some groups to see how others handled some of the issues I'm dealing with. Attended two groups in two days and came away angry and more depressed. Either people were more depressed than I am or got angry at what they were being made to do threw. Nobody seemed to have concrete ideas. Just hang on it gets better. Sure!! If your arms don't give out first

My feelings are hurt from the family rift that none of them care to repair. But, knowing my calling to see to see my dad for his birthday, was the right thing to do. I realize that even during the times I thought were good, they never actually invited me, rather they told me my sister was coming. I took it upon myself to invite myself and go running, even always picking up their dinner checks. So, probably their ambivalence is unchanged since our rift, and it’s only me wishing they would extend an olive branch and care about me. But they don’t care about me. My sister actually said, “I care nothing about you!” That was three years ago. She meant it. I’m fine because I know I have done the right thing and have no regrets about my actions.

feeling very lost today. so much undercovered anger is in me, i am in constant fight or flight mode and dont know what to do. i dont want to go to work tomorrow, my chef is a total asshole and a bully. terrible situation

I’m coping decently. My mom says I’m coping great. We haven’t had any TV since Tuesday. So there’s not much to do in the house. I don’t have my second shot yet so there’s not much I can do outside of the house. I guess I’m just anticipating next week when I see my therapist and get my second shot.

Today my plans were made impossible so I got some other things done instead. I also read some uplifting quotes.

My hopes and dreams have been dashed. So I've been coping with music.

Not feeling especially talkative (like posting ) but I do read this thread and a few others. I think one of the reasons I post less now is that when I have a negative thought about something--I acknowledge it and consider what I can do about it (for instance, I occasionally skip taking one of my meds because of the side effects but if I am a having negative thoughts, for me, it is a chemical type of depression because my meds are so effective.) Also, I am trying to speak less about the negative things in my life and focus on the good. For me, sometimes talking about bad things makes it worse for me and takes away time from the good. Not that there aren't appropriate times to speak about the bad. There is a season for everything.

I pray for many of you on this thread. (not always consistent but when I read about how so many of us struggle from depression, anxiety, and all the rest of the afflictions of our mind--it reminds me). Hoping everyone on this thread has a peaceful and wonderful week.

I've been reading about mindfulness and trying to practice where I can, it seems to help.

I'm feeling well today and happy even though its probably due to rain.

Namaste!

I'm coping well. I have an appointment today. I just realized that I had zero anxiety. That is unusual for me. I think my meds are helping. Plus, my mom is taking me there so I don't have to struggle with walking.

I'm a very tiny bit better today. Rather than the 2 out of 10 days I've been having, today has been 4 out of 10. Still not great, or even good, but I'm happy that it's not so dark. I've been trying to stay busy.

Things are a lot better. I’m steadily working toward a goal and am optimistic about it. That’s because we are finally on the same page.

Eh besides the medication issue I’m coping fine. I feel comfortable going out of my house and shopping and I don’t know if it’s because Covid has gotten better or if it’s just because I won’t run into anyone I know here.

Two online classes this morning then I will be scoring for a while. H and I have been taking our walks in the late afternoon. I do not do any scoring after 4 PM (usually I quit much earlier than that--it depends on how many interruptions I had in the morning such as the availability of online work and medical appointments and I take time out to prepare meals)--worked 4 hours yesterday but hope to score for 5 hours today., I have learned it is important to stop working in the afternoon in order to give myself time to wind down. I like working but If I get too focused on work, it effects my sleep and my mood in a negative way. When this company had an office located in my town that I commuted to, I would sometimes work over 50 hours a week for them. I have figured out what to focus on before going to sleep (the books and audio that are helpful for me). I have been getting good quality sleep for a while and am so grateful for this because I have had insomnia for most of my life.

I’m going easy on myself. I am hurt and angry at how I’ve been treated. It’s my own faulty thinking that they would care how I feel and have my back. It’s not illogical or unreasonable thinking. It’s the kind of behavior I have seen other people do in society and in media all the time. But, some of the people closest to me do not treat me that way at all. So, my faulty thinking is that THEY would treat me how I want to be treated by having my back, but THEY do not. For some reason G-d surrounded me with people who lack the trait of this behavior toward me and gave me a huge chip on my shoulder (trigger) about it. So I will learn to be stronger and take care of myself rather than expecting anything from others, is the take-away message I get.

I did take care of myself without their help. Not too well, though. I cried over these A-holes for way too long. Now I do what I want. And, if they should need me to have their backs, I will treat them as they have me.

I've had a good day, I'm so relieved things are gradually opening up here again. I had a good day at work and a nice walk with my husband this afternoon. Tomorrow I'm seeing a friend and then my parents - indoors at their house! I'm baking a spiced apple cake right now to take around and it smells nice.

Hugs to everyone whatever kind of day you had.

I coped ok today. The day got away from me and I just now realized how late it was and that I should have taken my afternoon meds awhile ago. I was anxious today but it was to be expected. I get my second Covid shot tomorrow and I’m pretty nervous.