How are you coping today? #6

I got out today which was good. I didn't have too much anxiety. I was hangry though. I was at a stop light and I ate fries in front of a homless guy which maybe was kinda rude. He gave me the evil eye, but its like we all have our own issues and we don't know why each other does them. I don't know why he mentioned he was getting social secuirty on his sign and he didn't know that I just wasn't paying attention when I was eating the french fries, I was just super hangry from dealing with my own stuff. I wasn't trying to be rude.

I just have a lot to deal with and I'm doing the best I can.

I'm playing games.

I'm nauseated because of medical reasons and anxious about the medical issues and everything is just kinda feeding off each other and making me feel pretty crappy.

Your mom is insightful sometimes. Like, more than "even a blind squirrel finds a nut" sometimes.

In the article i googled re the heart attack stuff, it said that transdermal t was not as problematic as shots. But i dont know if that means a patch or a roll-on.

Coping by laying down and trying to shut my mind off. I don't want to deal with the world.

My doctor mentioned a gel that you rub on your chest every day. He says he can try to get it for me but insurance normally won't cover it and he made it sound like it was really expensive. Although my insurance has for sure suprised me before.

I've been doing ok today. I don't know if theres an idiom for it but its just one thing after another and it doesn't even really affect me anymore. Or else I'm just numb from it all. But today I just watched Top Model and I didn't stress about much. I think I remember doing something for Memorial Day twice when I was somewhere between the ages of 7 and 9. Maybe I had a cookout at my house in 2016? I don't remember. I get Memorial Day and 4th Of July confused when we did do a number of big BBQs each year. I just remember going to a parade in my grandmas town when I was a kid at least one year but not doing much else the other years. But today I was in my AC house all day which was fine with me.

I got in the backyard and bathed in the sun’s rays. It started raining though so I couldn’t go for a second turn

My Mom took me to a couple stores.

Forgot about that mental health ‘clubhouse’.

Started getting acquainted with my iPad and iPhone. Isolation is dying. Wait until I call my sister or text her. It would be a “once in my life, finally”.

In my insurance, the dr has to write a letter explaining that the first med doesnt work for whatever reason, and then they usually approve a more expensive one. Since the first med is giving you kinda harsh side effects, they should approve it. Doesnt hurt to try. They probably have already for other people.

Its been a frustrating day again. I think I'm mainly just tired from not sleeping good last night so its making everything else seem like a bigger deal then it actually is. When I sleep good I'm better at letting things go. Today every little thing seemed to get to me.

I think I coped pretty good most of today.

I’m doing better today after a very busy couple of days which exhausted me, feeling more positive about everything coming up over next few weeks medically.

I'm coping and feeling a ton better mental health wise then I was yesterday. Whatever the hell is going on physically is kicking my *** right now though. I heard some weird noise in my wall just now that sounded like a woodpecker. That may explain the strange noise. Although having a critter in the house, especially in my wall isn't really good.... but **** do I feel like **** right now and I don't know what to do about it. I know what my doctor wants me to do but I told him no.

Not coping well at all. Obsessing and anxious.

I guess I've been coping better. I think I'm using some better self talk here & there.

Bad, once again I wish I wasn’t here, I just want everything to stop. I want to stop feeling so sad and lonely and so desperate, I have no hope, there’s nothing I can hold to and feel better

Today has been good. I've found lately that I can discard staid, tired old ways of thinking and change tracks a little bit. It's a relief to realize this, and it's been helpful for getting more things done.

I'm coping pretty good today. Eating anything still sets my stomach off but I do feel quite a bit better then I did these last few days and last night.

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Originally Posted by Ilnterrupted Girl Bad, once again I wish I wasn’t here, I just want everything to stop. I want to stop feeling so sad and lonely and so desperate, I have no hope, there’s nothing I can hold to and feel better

Ilnterrupted Girl I am sorry you are feeling really low. That is a heart rending feeling. Have you considered talking to a professional about your situation?

I always felt like there was something wrong with me because I only felt good for a little while and mostly was sad and anxious. I tried to get more good times and push away the yucky feelings. It did not work.

What helped was me to create a project so at the end of the day I could say I did something. At first small things like take a shower or do the dishes. it felt good to do those things despite the way I felt.

Fast forward and I am trying to find bigger projects that are within my reach. Sometimes a journal page is all I can manage or a drawing or painting or a photo. It does not seem to matter what I do but that I try something.

Lately I am walking and exercising online. I was skipping meals and felt worse. Now I try to eat healthier and take care of my body better. My brain is even working better when I eat healthy food.

Hope you get the support you are looking for
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To be honest... today hasn't been great? Like my attitude has been fine which I guess is all that matters, but my package never got to my uncles in time. So I'll have to wait until July to get it. It actually still hasn't gotten to his house and its making me a bit nervous. Also I missed a call from my doctor wanting to set up my biopsy for next Friday and that could have eased a lot of my anxiety during the weekend. Things have worked out though like taking my very last valium just as the refill was ready at the pharamacy. I don't know. Maybe I'm just being a negative nancy, but things have seemed to be going the wrong way all day today.

I think my attitude has been pretty good a lot of the time lately. I've been reading interesting articles, playing games here, & listening to some good music, which
brings my mood up most of the time.

I haven't been feeling very good today but I've been coping well. I'm getting my laundry done. My moods are under control. My anxiety was a bit rough until I ate something. I feel somewhat better painwise after taking tylenol. I'm just nervous about next Friday I guess.

I'm coping by trying to use the computer instead of the phone. Adjustments are being made. We also went shopping today, but I did not shop online. I am so glad that they had to give me more money! The money will go far.

Not well. Talking to and about my parents has been triggering. I have been crying most of the day.