How are you coping today? #6

I'm doing good today. Better then yesterday. Although if I didn't travel for the rest of the year I wouldn't be unhappy. 2 trips in 2 weeks is too much. Man we all wanted to live a normal life 2 years ago and now its too much again. For me at least.

It's been hard but I'm thankful for many things. It will be so nice when I can start improving.

i quit my job today because working with my coworker became unbearable. i tried for three years to get along with her but just can't take it anymore. when i told my boss, she started to cry and said how can you do this to us? (they will be shorthanded) i felt bad and disappointed at the same time. but also relieved that the torture will be over soon. ack.. i only had three hours of sleep last night and that might have something to do with my tolerance level but this has been a long time coming.

I chatted with a crisis counselor. It helped some. Now I am chain smoking.

I’m coping by coming here and reading and posting on the games threads. I’m feeling overwhelmed still and my anxiety is up with work and worrying about the bigger world situation.

I'm still dealing with the whole weight loss/ loss of appetite thing. I'm really struggling with getting calories in so I bought a cookie cake and a pumpkin pie today. I figured if I couldn't eat throughout the day I could at least eat some high calorie items. The trick is actually finishing them before they go bad. I've never finished a package of Oreos by myself so a cookie cake and a pie might be hard too.

Today I was taking some deep breaths and thanking the heavens that I quit smoking.

Good for you, @Brego! Congratulations!

Having a hard time coping with the heat wave in the area where I live. It's been very hard to sleep. I don't use the A/C at my place, just a fan. The fan doesn't seem to be enough to keep cool. I don't need the A/C and fan that much because it's rare that it gets that hot. Feel depressed and anxious enough as it is, and having to deal with excessive heat doesn't help since I'm happier when it's cool or cold. So far this morning it's breezy and the sun is behind clouds. That helps a little bit but still too dang hot!

Work is still short staffed and I’m having to cope best as I can. Today I had a great walk after work with my son though and that helped, and ate a good meal tonight.

I've been listening to musical scores from movies. And I am planning ideas. And I'm reading & posting here.

I had a really bad day yesterday because my niece begins yelling at me even though I was in my own room when she previously told me that I could have the exercise bike that she swears she never saw me used. I was left in tears all days. Even though I had tried to explain to my sister that her daughter is a bully and is stressing me out with her really bad attitude.

I'm still just lethargic today and I don't know why. I took a 2 something hour long nap on the couch this morning and then drank a venti iced coffee from Starbucks. I can barely keep my eyes open now. I don't think I'll be able to meet my therapists calorie goal for me I think I'll be way under. I have no idea whats going on physically, but on the other hand people are noticing a huge difference in my anxiety and I am eager to start working again in mid October after the baby is born. I have a couple stores in mind and by mid October I should have this physical stuff figured out. But I'm excited about starting work again. My sister and her family arent planning on traveling for Thanksgiving so my mom brother and I won't either. So thats another thing that I won't have to deal with when interviewing for jobs.

The cookie cake and pie remained untouched by me. My family ate a lot of the cookie cake yesterday though. So that plan failed. Today I'm trying to get enough calories from wow butter and home made soup.

Much better. Moving right along in putting the pain of my former relationship behind me. Sometimes we get stuck and don’t know where to turn and then the Universe comes through with answers. Those times are sublime.

I'm still a lethargic mess today. I thought maybe it was a delayed reaction to my new med. My anxiety and moods were ok for most of the day. Now I'm wondering if I'm getting slightly sick since my throat hurts. I ate today but not enough and it will probably piss off some people. I have therapy in the morning and I don't know what to expect. In general I did what I could do with how I was feeling.

I still haven't slept well because of the heat outside. It's nice having a fan going for a while but it gets on my nerves after two or three hours. It's so hot that the fan has to stay on all night. That doesn't happen often. With a combination of heat and not sleeping well, my anxiety and depression intensifies more. I guess heat has a way of triggering me, because it seemed like bad things have happened in the past during hot spells.

I think I'm doing a poor job of coping recently. The best I seem to be able to do right now is tell myself it will be better somewhere around the corner..

My Mom broke her arm and I guess I've been getting through this by remaining calm and confident in my ability to make a difference for her.

I'm doing pretty good so far today.

This throat issue is driving me insane. I told my therapist about it and she believes me. I just currently feel like I'm going to lose my mind. Overall the day was decent I guess. I couldn't make it to the SS office but I got my haircut. Therapy was good. Food wise things sucked as usual.

I’m doing my best, and even though the next week is going to be very difficult at work I’ll continue to do my best. That’s all I can do.

Another day of this hot and uncomfortable weather. Today will be much the same, though it looks like rain. The air is still, muggy, and hot. Once again I didn't sleep well because it was uncomfortable. This morning I noticed some bumps and itching along with the bumps. I wonder if I got some bug bites overnight? This is why I hate this time of year.

Tomorrow is supposed to be the hottest day of the year. After tomorrow and into next week we're supposed to have gradual cooling. At least that can be good news. Other than the weather I'm having depression and anxiety because of having to make a decision about moving in the future and other matters. It would be so nice to feel settled and at home within myself. I don't know if that's ever going to happen.

@will19, I also have bumps/rash. I think it's stress & the body manifesting/acting out its stress.

I feel tired, I did so much overtime this week, and some stuff around the house too as we’re having renovations done.

I feel sad about the Queen too, I’m not a monarchist at all so that’s strange, but I think she represented a form of Britishness which is gone now.

I'm concerned about my mom. Her diabetes is acting up and she's put on weight according to her doctor this morning. Meanwhile I'm still struggling with getting enough calories in and not losing anymore weight so I don't piss people off. My allergy test won't be back for about another 2 weeks. So I just eat what I feel like I am able to. Its been hard. Today I don't feel sick but I have had a bit too much coffee. I think its been the heat mainly. I wish it were cooler outside for my physical and mental health.