How are you coping today? #7

I talked to my therapist today working on my anger.

Good. Accepted a job offer. And will be starting Tuesday. Might be terrible. Might work out.

Had a cat-dog convention on our front lawn today.

It takes time.

Running out of thread to hang on by.

Laughing

Using anger iceberg volcano iceberg to help manage my emotions

finally let go of my guilt after 18 years and began reconnecting with old friends and making new ones. even began listening to music again too and that's been absolutely wonderful. no words. it's great to finally have a social life again but yet for some reason i don't feel happy sometimes. i know my friends care about me but they don't really know what i have gone through. i haven't shared my pain because i don't think anyone would be interested. i don't even know how to bring it up. some friends talk about themselves a lot and i feel emotionally drained after spending time with them. i guess i just want to be understood. i have let go of a friend that my gut told me was not worth keeping. the one good thing to come out of being depressed for so long is that i reach out to people more now because one never knows what someone is going through.

I wish that I knew how to let go

Better. Busy week coming up, but it should all go well if I take one step at a time.

it took me a long time to finally do it. gradually i began to think that i had suffered enough, that i didn't deserve to be so miserable so maybe time helped? don't give up. wishing you the happiness that is due you.

typical low anxiety going out to shop on my electric kit bicycle. Other that that feeling fine

It’s been a stressful week but everything is finally okay, I feel a bit flat now.

I’m staying home today. Usually on Saturday I run a few errands, but today is an annual festival in our town and I don’t do crowds. I don’t know what I’m going to do to keep myself constructively occupied though… Read, of course. Probably play my games. Look at the internet (hopefully not too much.) It would be great if I played in my art journal! Cleaning/decluttering would also help me feel good about myself and the day… I don’t know.

Thank you

Yesterday was a really bad day I found out :sadhug that no one who takes my insurance that does the Adaptive Vineland exam 3 cost a fortune. I was very hurt

Keeping busy but feel defeated
Wish I could go back and did things properly when I could

I’m working on hidden anger :grouphug and trying to let go

this was started by the comments of someone else. of course i can't say anything back, so ...

i'm never gonna be 'good enough'. no matter what i do or don't do, who i am or who i'm not, or whatever you think you see/ know - it will never 'please' you.

sorry

Don’t be too hard on yourself

After I finish work today and I finally get some free time I'll try to go on a run. Helps me take my mind off things

I was lied too this afternoon, and if there's one thing I can't tolerate, it's lies

absolutely no need for it- especially, because, in this case, I know she's lying (she basically said she'd done something when she hadon't even attempted it)

I’ve been tricked into thinking that I would be going out :sadhug to celebrate when there we’re never any official plans

Finding it hard to keep up with unsolved old issues/regrets
Can't believe i am still here unsolved

Also i don't want the autumn to arrive. Autumn is for the youngs

I am trying to figure out how to deal with :hug being ignored all the time