How are you coping today? #7

I had to cycle to some shops before storm Ciaran broke here and then I took a look at Internal Family Systems therapy stuff online. I made a chart of all my parts and labelled them 'exile' and 'manager' or 'firefighter'. It helped me a lot. I've noticed my anxiety is much worse since I started phoning my mother again but I said I'd do it because my sister is busy. Forgiveness is important but so is protecting our mental health. Tricky to find the balance.

Just about made it through another dark rainy day, although worried about several people close to me.

I took generic Benadryl & name brand advil & stuffed my pockets with cough drops.

Amazing

Doing good to just have showered and brushed my teeth today. That alone is a big accomplishment. I'm deep into a depression for several reasons. A wrist injury is keeping me from being able to work. I was recovering but I had a setback. Yesterday I felt a pop, and today the pain is pretty bad. Fortunately I already had a doctor’s appointment in place. Using voice control to make this post, since typing is a problem for me. Dealing with other issues too, but I don't want this post to get too long.

I'm going to look into IFS.. (internal family systems therapy)

I would be doing good if I had a shower. I absolutely hate showers... I don't want to go into why

Spending too long on here today After hardly being here for over a month.....

1) Trying to surrender to what is

2) Trying not to react to provocation

3) Ranting on about genocide intermittently because I'm only human

Do good actually despite hardly any sleep. Really appreciate what I have here where I live.

I feel like cr*p today... feel like crawling under a rock and staying there.

I hope tomorrow is better for you :-(

@SpaghettiLegs

Thank you so much... Your kind words mean a lot to me.

I am wound so tight and really hope I don't explode

I hope things are going better for you today

Struggling with numerous things ATM - my life is a waiting game right now. Hopefully issues will be resolved by the end of the month.

I’m coping much better now that I’ve woken up and the brain fog has gone. 3 pm and I had an appointment I forgot my phone! But after the appointment I got a smoothie and a bit of a walk in the cold. That aired out my brain.

More stuff happening with my family, I’m feeling strangely calm which I think is because you can only be on high alert for so long.

I’m drinking a second cup of coffee I will probably regret.

It was finally my dad's funeral today which I watched from home with my husband and (adult) son. I just coped by coping I suppose. I'm resting now with Gregorian chants because it was very tiring.

Spent over an hour on the phone with tech support for my new ISP (Internet and TV provider). This was my 7th or 8th call and finally got everything sorted out - hallelujah!!!

I'm crying on the bed listening to Joy Division. I'm overwhelmed trying to pack up for the renovation and my husband is just checking his digital library is organised and saying that we don't have to pack things up (we do). My husband always gets an entitled toddler attitude about things, refusing to cooperate and acting like he's just going to *tell* them which literally NEVER works. So I'm trying to do it a bit and he already started yelling as loud as he could so I just don't know and I'm on the bed feeling confused and defeated.

I’m drinking bailey’s Irish cream in my coffee this morning.

I stayed in all day and did a bit of clearing up for the dreaded renovation work. Mainly I lay on the bed watching TV :-D I have too much anxiety supp I'm trying to take it easy, be kind to myself etc. I came to the realisation that I actually don't care if the builders destroy or remove things my husband is refusing to move. Like, whatever.

I’m glad that you’re back