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When I'm off my meds I eventually get suicidal. But at first I feel very alive, like I feel things more deeply, more keenly. It feels good.
I've been back on my meds for several months now. No more black holes and feeling suicidal. But no more "feelings" either. I do feel things but it all seems kind of remote and far away. I miss the more intense feelings of "feeling alive." The only intense feeling I have right now is my anxiety going off and on. ![]()
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((((((((((((Pomegranate))))))))))
I can relate. I have been feeling the nothing feeling most of the time for months. I hate it. I often wonder this myself.
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This numbing of feelings is why I went off meds for good.
It's hard, but I want to experience everything, and learn about the deep down low that comes and can be so hard to deal with and so hard to wait for it to get better. There are times I am tempted to go back on the meds, but I know this feeling will pass, change, as all feelings do. I will wait and practice patience, knowing that my suicidal feelings are a definition of the depth of my pain, a quantitative expression of "I feel this bad." or statement of feeling overwhelmed and not knowing what to do. I know now that it means something more, that it is, in a strange way, a statement as much about wanting to live as not wanting to live. It is a reaction to my reality versus my wishes for my reality, to the disparity between what I want and need.. and what I have. |
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After a day or two of not taking my meds, I feel alive. My T mentioned looking less medicated. And that's how I feel, less medicated. I feel apart of the world around me not just "there". Since I've been on meds for so long now I no longer remember how "normal" people feel. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]()
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I now take the lowest dose of my med. It evens out the lows . . . Sometimes I feel joy, and that is cool. I'm not sure that I would have been content with this when I was younger. Youth seems to be a roller-coaster ride of emotions. I like things the way they are right now.
I wonder if the type of med one is talking makes a difference? There have been some that put me to sleep and made me feel as if I was walking through clouds of cotton. But this one (can't remember if we are allowed to mention a med by name, so I won't) works pretty good most of the times. I can understand why you feel the way you do about your med.
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Wants2Fly, it is okay to mention med names and I'm curious what is helping you, if you would like to share.
I sometimes worry that I am too extreme in my view on my taking/not taking meds. |
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![]() I'd rather have a visit, note or pretty picture than an "I'll say a prayer" or a "god bless you." Doesn't make me feel better, no meaning to me for sure. Can't stop you from praying and blessing me, and if that makes you feel better feel free. ![]() But keep it to yourself please, don't tell me. And let's all respect each other's feelings. With kindness, support and "sweet dreamings." ![]() |
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