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Ok so I have not been around so much of late there are many reasons fopr this but I just wanted to touch base I guess and let you all know I am ok or at least that is what I tell myself.
I have had a lot of pain and hardship in my life as have many of you I am sure why is it that every one needs to know everything about you so they can then use it as a weapon against you a a later date and this includes medical staff members
Is it possible that su***** attemps are just self harming rather then them meaning a more permenet thing????.

Starrina!

Thanks for the update but really sad that you are going through a rough patch!

I have no personal experience exactly of the sterik word, but I know from the experience of a family of my relatives that such attempt has longer effect not only on the attempter but also his/her families. Also it leaves some marks on the body and the soul.

I wish you all the best and I know you will get through these times. Wishes and prayers your way!!!

Good day, Starrina! Good to hear from you.
That's sad, disappointing and frustrating. Ideally, I would hope those committed to your care would use whatever they know of you and your history to improve the quality of their caring.

I'm sorry - I don't have any satisfying answers to your questions.

Starrina....so sorry to hear that you feel like this.

As for your question, well that's a really tough one. It is of course possible that what appears to be a s*** attempt is just SH but only the individual knows what is going on in their own mind. I have had personal experience of both and I am accutely aware of my intentions in both situations. S*** is the biggest decision you can make and it's certainly not a decision that one comes to without thinking about the consequences (not in my case anyway). For me, the two have served very different purposes. SH was a way to enable to me live whereas the other was as a result of feeling completely worthless and unable to cope with another day.

It's difficult to add more without you qualifying the question and I guess, knowing your reasons for asking. I hope you find someone you can trust and open up to so you can discuss these issues. It's so important to be able to speak to someone if you have these questions in your mind.

Try to look after youself and please post to let us know how you are doing.

Sometimes people who are very ambivalent about living have the same approach to 1234356. So some incidents have a kind of "so far but maybe not" flavour to them. when this happens very often, yes, it is a type of self harm, and sometimes (Rarely!!!) has become manipulative. That makes it no less dangerous and this type of thing is NOT CHARACTERISTIC OF ALL 1234356
It has happened that people who self harm have gone too far, or self harmed when taking medicine or in circumstances where the damage was worse than normal. The big difference is that leaving the planet is NOT the intent.
Hope this helps Starina. what's up, hon? HUggs.
(And no, if you don't want to tell, then I don't have to hear it. More important that you feel safe.)

I agree with Lilly. I've experienced/still experience both and I too know the intentions of what I'm doing. Although S*** is the biggest decision you can make, contrary to what Lilly posted, I don't think about the consequences. However - That's just me and obviously everyone is different. SI is a way for me to push myself a little farther, and it relaxes me for a little while (few hours maybe) but then it's right back to where I started. S*** is permanent, SI isn't. Hope you can begin to feel better soon!

I agree with Lilly76. Take care of yourself

((Star))
We miss you so much!
Please let us know you are doing better!