What about jobs is it?

Always after working 2 weeks I get really depressed. Then I cry a lot. It doesn't matter what shift. I just want to be home. Same with school. I am absent free for 2 weeks, then all the sudden I start skipping.

Now I am a stay at home mom. I'm still depressed, but not nearly as bad.

I have had a LOT of things happen to me. But why when I go to work/school does it get like this?

so sorry rachel.. Perhaps its the stress? Dealing with people? Perhaps its just some depression that that needs to be dealt with. I hope you find a therapist who can help you. Take care of yourself!

I think it helps if one is able to work somewhere they love, or do something they're really enjoying. It would be great if all our hobbies were immensely profitable and actually worked towards the betterment of ourselves or society in general.

I know a lot of my job-related stress is because I'm not doing something I want to do - I'm doing something I have to do for the money & the insurance. My job is very soul-less. I manipulate numbers for the benefit of others. More than half of what I do, I don't even know why it needs to be done - I don't question it, I just do it.

Everyone keeps telling me 'If your job sucks so bad, why don't you quit?' It's just not that easy. It's not like I can just quit my job & run off to the rainforests of the Pacific Northwest to discover a cure for mankind's woes or something

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i'm alot the same way. i can push myself for periods of time (i.e. your two weeks), then i crash. being someone i can't be can only last so long.

i'm on s.s.d. and have been for 5 yrs. i still working though when on the s.s.d. somehow that took alot of the weight off of it for me. however, i only worked part time. i always get good jobs as i have great experience and a small degree behind me. i just could never maintain it full time. is part time a possibility? that was easier to bear for me.

i was so afraid that work would find out how messed up i was and that the facade would be over with public pie in my face.

gl. i wish you well.

kd

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i was so afraid that work would find out how messed up i was and that the facade would be over with public pie in my face.

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Hi Rachel,

I'll second Kimmy's post - that 'public pie' scared me away a few times.

Another angle is the energy levels. When our energy is very low we get irritable, forgetful, it's just hopeless trying to keep up with the pack. That's how it was for me.

IMHO the secret is to live within your own limits, there's no other way. It's fatal to compare yourself to the mainstream, that just brings you down.

Good thoughts, M

I have worked part time, and college only an hour a day. Not at the same time of course. I didn't mind the work, I just wanted to be home. I am an artist. I would like to go to art school but w/o all the english/science/math crap ya know?.