Feeling forgotten and unimportant!!

okies. I undersatnd fully .. I trust you that we are both under a great deal of stress right now..

I full am aware that I scared you and I never meant to do that to you.. I am so sorry for that..

KEEP THE APPOINTMENT ON TUESDAY!!!

we understand about dates of a previous suicide. your thoughts about being angry that he got out and you are still here are so normal. we think that of folks we know who have taken their own lives. how come they got out?? why are we stuck here in this miserable disease/disorder?!

we know that thinking well.

thank you for continuing to check in and let us know what is going on for you.

the sorting continues.....

proud you're putting one foot in front of the other when you least feel like it sj.
__zh

yes keep the appt.. I agree with __ZH.. dont let others bring you down..

Keep talking to us..
we are here for you..
ok..

love to you

Please keep the appointment dear sj.....

If I can drag my fuzzy butt to the "doctors" next week after months of procrastination (I dont trust the idiots in the UK who call themselves doctors)........ well then you can as well.

I am so sorry for your pain re your friend.

Please take care,
Fuzzy

I don't want to keep the appt but I know it is not in my better judgement to cancel it.
I am just overly drained and feeling so worthless.
And, I think I expect too much at this point and time from people who can not deliver.
Why does this suck so bad and why do any of us have to go through any of this pain?
Is it punishment for my sins?
Is it an evil curse?
WTF is the reason?

I can relate too much to all that
Your black slime buddy,
Bear

So...now what?

email me k?
other than that, no advice as I am struggling too

Just checking in.
Staying away for the most part to not get triggered and to just sort things out.

Sending you many hugs just to let you know even if I'm not here every day I still care for you!

(((((((((((((((((((((sj)))))))))))))))))))))))))

((((((((((((((((((((sj)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

((((((((((((((((((((sj))))))))))))))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((((((((sj))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

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nightdream

keep the pace and protection you need to sortmistress sj

we'll understand if you're not back on again today but will hope to see you again before Monday latest. no pressure. just a hope we have.

keep taking care and doing what keeps you safe in the moment.

__zh

p.s. KEEP THAT T APPOINTMENT! not an option to not go. ya gotta. we know you don't wanna but it is most important and we know deep down you know that as well. talk all you want about not wanting to go and vent away but PLEASE keep the appt.

I am remaining in control and safe. I had some rough patches last night but got through them.
I am keeping my appointment Tues. because I know it is not an option to not go. And, as much as I feel like crap I do desire to get help...no matter what the cost.

I am glad you are doing ok..
I am sorry you had a rough time last nihgt.

Good to see you posting and that you are staying safe and in control. gl for your appointment on Tuesday.

Fuzzy

i know you are struggling right now.. and for that I am so sorry..

I wish there were more I could do for you..
I am so sorry..

I am hoping your bad night does not tigger you too much.. and have you thougth about making a new therad to tell us about the Bad night so we can all talk about it..
or pming one of us to talk about it so maybe you can talk your way thourgh just the thoughts of it..

Just some options you know you have with all of us on here ok..

Keep us updateed when you can ok..

Hugs to you ok..

love and kisses...

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{sj}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
thinking of you, take care

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I am remaining in control and safe. I had some rough patches last night but got through them.
I am keeping my appointment Tues. because I know it is not an option to not go. And, as much as I feel like crap I do desire to get help...no matter what the cost.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> YES sj!!! That's the stuff needed to get through until Tuesday. You got through the rough patches last night when you probably did not think you would be able to. More proof of the distortions of depressive thinking and how it doesn't always jibe with reality.

You're doing SOOOOO much more than you ever thought you'd be doing to scrape your way to Tuesday's appointment. We're beyond proud you're taking moment to moment.

We'd like to see you get help and feeling better as well. We'll keep checking in through Tuesday's appointment and continue to request the same of you.

kindly and with hope,
__zh

how ever many posts it takes and however many thread it takes to say it: you're worth it and you're going to make it!! we'll keep posting and keep responding to threads.

no pressure as usual if you're not feeling up to checking in because we have your word committing to safety and control.

((sj)) our thoughts keep drifting to you and we hope there are a few better moments in all this darkness. sometimes when depression and ideation come on we lose the ability to find humour in things and cannot laugh. when laughter comes it can be a shock as the body doesn't know what to do with such a strange feeling as lightened mood when it has been stuck in depression for so long.

you're allowed to have smiles and laughter even when it all stinks and feels like all is going down the drain.

we like reading about ppl laughing out loud and particularly fayerody! she scares her animals when chortles and chuckles at the funny stuff. go check out her words on the d'oh moments in the travelers lounge here