Having a hard time.....

I been suffering from depression for 10+ years more like 13 years.
I have been on medication for quite sometime; but recently my emotions feel out of control. To the point I feel out of touch with the world around me. I do my best not to focus on the negative parts of my life but sometimes I lose my focus. I actually consider myself a very strong person, I have been a single Mom most of my adult life and my son is now 20. I have been separated for almost 2 years now.... 1 year into being separated I had a relationship to someone who I was very close to- but he decided to try to work things out with his ex-wife. Friends that him and I were both close to I don't see or talk to anymore. I guess you could say I feel like I have lost any support I have. It bottles up inside me until I breakdown and cry. I saw the Doctor who increased my meds to the maximum dosage in hopes that this will help me. I just have a lot going on right now in my brain that I find myself not being able to stay focused on most tasks and find my mind drifting all over the place. With all that is going on in my Life I am concerned because I have lost the will to want to get anything done. I have lost 20 lbs because most of the time I don't eat, I wake up in the middle of the night(feeling restless), not sure who else to turn to. I feel very alone and feel like I have used up all my coping skills and feel fearful of my emotions. Any replies I am hoping will be helpful and thank you in advance foryour support.

Bless your heart ~ I remember a time when I felt just as you do. I felt like I was losing touch with reality. I was afraid I was going to just plain lose it!! I talked to my doctor, who in turn referred me to a psychiatrist -- who recommended that I voluntarily commit myself to the mental ward of a hospital. I did so for 2 weeks, and that was the best thing i could have done!! I WAS having a nervous breakdown - and this way I could have it in the care of people who knew what they were doing. LOL I had daily sessions with the psychiatrist, as well as group therapy, occupational therapy, and all other kinds of stuff. They put me back on track - and gave me back my coping skills.

I think if I were you I'd seek out a counselor - you need someone to talk to who is trained in this area. After my stay in the hospital, I had counseling off and on for many years. It has helped me immensely. Perhaps it will you too -- I hope so! Best of luck and God bless. Let us know how you do. Hugs, Lee

Hey LostandLonely41,
From how little we've spoken I know you are a strong woman. We all lose heart from time to time and it feels like the world is pulling us under, sucking us into a quicksand of mental turmoil that feels endless. But I just want you to know that the support here is fantastic and anytime you need to talk about something we'll be ready with open ears.

Sorry to hear you are going through a rough patch. I have been divorced twice before and know how it is to split up with someone. You lose most of your social circle and your world is turned upside down. It's especially hard if you don't really want the break-up. Things CAN get better--do trust that they will. Take things a day at a time for now. Be kind to yourself. I agree with Leed--a counselor might be helpful for you too. Take care!

My third anniversary for my divorce is coming up, and with my ex rubbing his new wife, life and upcoming child in my face, I understand how you feel.

But the thing is, we're stronger than we all think we are. I think counseling will help you get your life back on track. And we're here for you, too.

You are a strong woman who is going through a very tough time right now. Starting over is tough, and can really suck sometimes. Believe me, I know! I just hope you know that you are cared about, your feelings matter, and you don't need to beat yourself up about what happened.

Hello, lostandlonely41. Is professional help an option for you?