I'm broke and broken

Can things get any worse?? My husband and I have been married since May of 2003. Our relationship has been through hell. We have already had so much to deal with in our marriage. We moved to a new town in April and now I'm regreting it. He hasn't been able to find a job here and keep it. He keeps getting laid off. We are sooooo broke it's unreal. Come Tuesday morning we will have no power. We have been getting food frim local charities. We just got our phone turned back on after about 4 months. It is probably going to be cut off again soon. I was injured in a car accident in Feburary of 2001 and I still have severe neck problems from it. I am in the process of a lawsuit about that. I have had 2 court dates but they keep getting pushed back. I am sooooo tired of dealing with it. The latest news is that it has beed scheduled for March 23,2004. On top of the neck injury I recieved there, I have other health problems that I am unable to take care of. I am trying to get on disability but it is taking soooo long. I applied in January and I am now at a point where they said it could take up to 13 1/2 months. What am I supposed to do in the meantime. Go to work anyway and screw up my chances of ever getting my disability, not to mention being in pain everyday to the point where I am in tears. I haven't worked in more than a year. Mainly because of knee problems. I had surgery in January on one knee but now I need it on the other knee. I have such bad migraines from the neck injury I can hardly stand it. Plus I have severe panic attacks, to the point where I am afraid to leave my home alone, much less drive. I also have Mitral Valve Prolapse. That isn't so bad alone, but pair it with the panic attacks and it sucks. Then on top of that I also have blood sugar problems. Most of the time it doesn't bother me but I am so scared of teh times when it does. I am always scared I am going to get caught out and have my sugar drop. I'm sorry to babble on and on but I really need to get things off my chest. I have been crying all morning and I can't stop. Trust me I've tried but I can't seem to stop. I just don't understand why all this stuff happens to me. I have all the family health problems. (my brother and sister didn't get any) My husband and I have been struggling for 7 months and we can't get caught up. Just when we think we are starting to dig our ways out, something else happens. We are neglecting alot of things just so we can get the basic bills paid. (rent, utilities,food,gas) My car has been broken down for about 2 months and for me to fix it myself it will only cost about $35. We haven't even had that much money. What can I do about it??Absolutely NOTHING!!! I guess I will quit babbling now. Thank you for listening.

Hey there, sounds like you're having one hell of a time and you have the weight of the world on your shoulders.
I wouldn't worry too much about crying. I think it's good for you, a release. I think it's much worse when you want to cry but you can't.

Someone gave me some advice once which really helps me when I feel overwhelmed. It is simply to take things one step at a time.

To look at each of your problems, one at a time in order of priority. Writing them down and seeing what can be done about them.

Devote time each day to do whatever it is you can to alleviate your problems and when you have done this RELAX AS MUCH AS IS HUMANLY POSSIBLE.

I hope that makes some sense to you and I'm explaining myself properly.

I have panic attacks too and sometimes find it difficult to leave the house. Yoga and deep relaxation helps me A LOT. It really helps focus the mind and stop it spinning around and around.

Can you explain a bit more about Mitral Valve Prolapse? I haven't heard of this before. I hope things look a bit brighter over the next few days.
lots of love
Goggledegook xx

Hi tired,
Welcome to the forums. It sounds like your life has been really tough. I know what it si like to barely survive. I hope a job opportunity comes for your husband soon. These things put such a strain on life. It doesn't help that you are having medical problems too.

Babble away. This is the place for it. I am glad you were able to vent. Sometimes that can help. When I feel overwhelmed I try to look only at what I can do today and not look at the big picture. If I look to far ahead I get paralyzed and cant do anything.
I know it's small words of comfort because I really do know how it feels to be in your spot. I will send you my understanding and a hug.
Hang in there and know that it is ok to cry, even if it's all day.
Best wishes,
Heidu

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.- Alexander Graham Bell

Your story is so similar to mine right now....cept rent and utilities ae part of the neglected bills slist cause when you have nothing...you cant pay anythign either.
I really feel for you and totallyunderstand .
Wish I had somethign psoitive to sya or some advice...but I jsut dotn I cant even find them myself. Just try to be strong and have faith things "have to" get better I guess
many hugs
Serenity