It's okay...I can take it...most people hate me by this time

I feel really hated today. I feel like everyone has given up on me and already percieve me to be a failure, loser, worthless piece of dung. So, I then start to think, maybe it is beyond my control to get better, feel better, be better.
Maybe it is just one huge joke...maybe I am just one huge joke????

((((((((((((((((sj)))))))))))))))))))

your life, nor its pain, is any kind of joke. i know sometimes it feels like people don't care when we're in alot of pain. however, it's usually the place that we're in, or the place that the others in our lives are in. it usually doesn't mean feelings or relationships have changed.

you're being thought about...

KD

(((((sj))))) I don't hate you, not at all! Sorry that you feel this way. Please take care. HUGS

{{{{{{{{{Susan}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Thinking about you and sending you lots of love and positive thoughts.

SJ, it's the illness talking. I know it must hurt to feel that way, but unless someone SPECIFICALLY says it to you, then you've got to fight those feelings. Putting assumptions on other people's feelings is just going to dig you in even deeper. Be nicer to yourself.... please?

Let me clarify....this is my perspective for my entire life..not just here at pc.
Sorry if I confused anyone.
I wasn't specifically meaning one soul. I just feel like people want to leave me...having bad abandonment issues tonight.

I surely don't hate you and don't want you to hurt so much. You are definitely not one big joke! I really do care about you.

It is nice to know I am cared about.
Problem is, I have a difficult time remembering this.
I just start out good and then by mid day realize I am so worthless.
I talked w/ my T today about how it feels so uneasy when I start feeling good and I do stupid things to ruin in.
She said I have to stop sabotaging the good feelings...
Not as easy for me as it sounds!

You must be hurting so much. I'm so sorry.
You are very special person. I know you probably don't feel like you are but the truth is that you are very special. ((((((Sj))))))))

{{{{{{sj}}}}}

You're one of the first people I met here and one of my favorites.

Sending warm thoughts to you, my friend!

SJ I dont hate you, not in the slightest. It seems to me that things are really tough for you at the moment and things are getting mixed up. I know whwere you are coming from with abandonment issues and so on, you just gotta hang in there.

And its true, its very difficult not to snatch defeat from the jaws of sucess.

Im thinking of you and sending you the best from all of us.

atg