Situational depression

I think I snapped my friend's last nerve telling her about my situation. But for every person who says he or she is too sick to work, all I can think is my work makes me sick. Every day I go to work I am thrust into a situation where I have to pretend the weird, strange behavior of my boss and coworker isn't weird and strange. This is a major trigger for me because I grew up in a household with one parent with raging uncontrolled mental illness and another parent who was absent most of the time. And I had to pretend everything was normal. I'm trying to get another job. But I feel so 'shell-shocked' I'm afraid any job I go to will be even worse. I take an anti-depressant but it barely puts a dent in my depression.

I think you have a pretty crappy work place environment if you ask me. I think getting out of there into another job might be a better bet. I mean, I haven't heard/experienced of any places that have "weird, strange behavior of bosses and coworker" relationship/environments. I don't think you need to be afraid to go to another place. I hope goes well. O_O

I'm glad you haven't experience any places that have weird, strange behavior of bosses and coworkers. I have known some people who have, so I don't feel like I am misrepresenting my situation. And we had a workplace shooting, which got swept under the rug very quickly. I'm tired of trying to do a decent job if I could be an ******* and make the same or more by being one, too.

well, surely wherever you went next couldn't be any worse than where you're at. start putting applications to other places out there. at least you'd feel like you're TRYING to get out and it will distract you a little bit from the b.s. you're currently dealing with. I really feel for you as I've worked in horrible atmospheres before. I'm so much happier now that I'm out of those places.

I'd suggest talking to you p-doc about changing your meds, too!

You probably missed the part where I wrote I was trying to get another job. It's good you are happier now.