Things going wrong

Everything in my life has gone from bad to wrose, my case For SSI is truning out to be a big mess, My relationship is going no where, I tried writing things down to help me feel better but everything I try to do to help me feel better doesn't,I can't trust and everything I say becomes a be fight, .My life is going the wrong way, Everything I try to do to make things right it truns out be be wrong, I feel like I can't talk to anyone, I hold everything thing inside becuse the people I want to talk to have there own problem to deal with, This world doesn't needed mine on top of it,I just don't know what to do anyomre, The more I try the more I fail at everything.In the past 5 years my life is gone wrong, There is no happyness for me anything, The poeple who made my life fullfilling are now gone and there is nothing left to be happy about. I feel like I have to get out and there is something holding me back, I just don't no anything anymore,I don't where I fit in this life,All my life has been wrong sence the day I talked into it, The pain I feel there is no words for it, The sadness,The hearbrake it is so unreal, I have dealt with some much I wish I would dump it somewhere else. Where is my life going anyway?, Not where I want it to go, I want one thing someone else wants a nother Then want in h... I am doing in this relatioship anyway? I feel there is no hope on getting my SSI and my relationship or anything .Everything I touch is gone ,The more I try to do right it all ways puts me flat on my face,I haven't found anyone I can talk to ,I have qucation no one has the answer for me on many things. I hope I am putting this in the right place. I a depressed on many things, Everything just keeps getting wrose. Now what ? where do I go from here? I know no one has the answer,They don't have the answers for me on my mother's cancer,I feel like there are alot of things that have been hidden from me on that,no one way to tell me why.Everything thing to me is depressing on days, I wish things would start going right for me ,The stress is getting to hight and the tention is unreal I hope everyone can understand this there have been so many things that have gone wrone in my life, I just know what to do with the way I feel and there isn't anyone to listen, I have no friends no happiness,I wish my life would just get back on the right track for once.

Sorry Red Rose..hoping things will get better soon for you..thats alot to deal with for so long..wish I could offer more words of comfort..but I do hope that with all you have been thru and are going thru..that you will be ok and endure until things improve..take care

If anyone would like to help with this mess I would be glad for any help anyone can give me, I wanted to add I will be talking to my doctor about all this and then some hopefully he will be able to figure out what is going on becouse I don't have a clue, I have never been this way befor until all this happen.

I'm sorry that you are feeling so badly, Rose. I hope that things get better for you (they will!) and that your doctor can help you.

I wish I knew more of what to say, it sounds like you have a lot of things going on at once, which of course can be quite overwhelming.

Just know that there are people here who do understand, and want to listen. We may not always know how to help or what to say, but we are here. Take extra good care of yourself and remember that things will get better even if it doesn't seem like it right now.

Love and Best Wishes,
Sujin

I am starting to think I have some disorder going on here, There has been so much truma in my life ,I just don't know where do start sorting it all out.

((((((((((((((red rose)))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that you have had such a hard time. I wish I knew what to say but know that I care. I am here if you need someone to talk to.

If there is anyone that would like to help me in this, has msn or yahoo or google talk and would like to help please let me know through a pm and l'd be please to add you to them.

Rose,
I would love to be able to help you, I just don't feel qualified since I am not a mental health professional. (I don't think highschool psychology classes count ). Do you have a therapist that can help you through all of this? (I know you mentioned a pdoc) It sounds like you have way too much going on to be able to handle it by yourself.

I'm sending good wishes your way, things WILL get better, please don't lose hope.

Love,
Sujin

Rose, I hope your doctor is able to help you out. It sounds like you have more on your plate than anyone here can help you with.

We're all here to listen to you when you need to let it out.

Thanks to all for replying to this post. I guess I was just hoping for something that isn't there.

sorry for your despair and being overwhelmed. would you consider a short hospitalization? it can be scary but treatment is so focused and intense and with med adjustments possible faster, sometimes it is worth it and needed. been there more than once will talk more if you wish. but do take care and hold on one day or one hour at a time what ever it takes

I am not on any meds at this point. who knows what the doctor will do when I go back to my p.c.p.

Just maybe things are going in the right driction for me I have found a nother lawer on my case,She can't belive what the other one did to me, She is going all out on this case just hopefully it will all turn out.

I hope things will start to improve for you soon. I know how awful it is when things are so overwhelming and so piled up.

Sending you warm and loving thoughts.

I'll just have to keep everyone posted on how this all turns out,I don't go back to my doctor till may so hopefully he'll have some answers it to what is going on with me.