[dazedandonfused]

I’ve never talked about this kind of stuff with anyone before but I'm at my breaking point. I'm not really sure where to turn and I can't seem to find my way out. I feel so alone ... I go to work every day and feel like a zombie, like I’m not even here. I'm so tired no matter how much sleep I get it’s never enough. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and can't even get ready for work. My appetite has slipped tremendously in the past few months. I try to eat but I feel sick and honestly don't even want to. I have found myself praying to god to take me from this place, sometimes even begging him. I’m not happy!!!!! Not that I’m not grateful for what I have I just can’t seem to snap out of it.

Someone please help me……..

[Mike_J]

Are you seeing a psychiatrist, or a therapist?

You are not alone, you just need help, a good team of mental health professionals is a great start.

[layla11]

Hi Dazedandconfused, So glad you shared this, I would go see a doctor. I have a phyciatrist and am on a couple med and have helped me. It sounds like you are depressed and I can relate.

[Tiger_Lily]

Sounds like you're really depressed. My work slipped a lot when I felt that way and I felt like I was hanging on by a thread, and not sure I wanted to. Getting help right now is the best thing you can do. I still feel depressed at times, but I'm not in the severe state you seem to be. Call your pdoc! If you don't have one, find another support.

[dailyhealing]

Thanks so much for posting, I'm glad you are here! It takes a lot of courage to ask for help. The above advice and thoughts are great, I have nothing to add. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing and how we can help.

[dazedandonfused]

Thank you all for your kind words. I have never seen a therapist or a psychiatrist before. I'm not on any medication and never have been. I'm too scared to admit my faults to anyone. I don't want to end up in the hospital or something like that. I don't know what to say or how to even start this process and I don't think I can. I’m just so tired I think it’s just too late. I called out of work today and I’m all alone. My Fiancé is at work until late tonight. I guess we’ll see what happens.

[Sadnlonleytoo]

I wish I could help.

[dailyhealing]

I don't think it's ever too late to make progress! Being here and sharing your difficulties is a really great start!

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by dazedandonfused

Thank you all for your kind words. I have never seen a therapist or a psychiatrist before. I'm not on any medication and never have been. I'm too scared to admit my faults to anyone. I don't want to end up in the hospital or something like that. I don't know what to say or how to even start this process and I don't think I can. I’m just so tired I think it’s just too late. I called out of work today and I’m all alone. My Fiancé is at work until late tonight. I guess we’ll see what happens.

Hi dazed....So sorry you're hurting, and so glad you've joined us. I hope you will find some comfort from posting here in the Forums. I'm a little confused about why you might feel that it's "too late", because if you're still breathing, it's not A few thoughts for you. First of all, PLEASE, try to erase that word "faults" from your mind. Whatever you are dealing with, whether it be depression, anxiety, both, or any mood disorder.....it is such a mistake to think of things that way, although if you are suffering from depression it's a common way to feel. I'm sure you are a worthy person, deserving of feeling good, and if you have a mood disorder then you are a victim of an ILLNESS....nothing to be ashamed of any more than if you had osteoporosis. Of course it is easy to feel overwhelmed by thoughts and fears of the future when all of this may be so foreign to you. I'd like to suggest perhaps you could take a few deep breaths and then try and take things one step at a time. If you feel it might help, and you are wondering whether you might be depressed, one idea would be to purchase a book about depression and familiarize yourself with the basics (it is always important to try and inform yourself if you feel scared of the unknown, as most of us are). I would like to (very gently) give you a bit of advice. If you suspect that you may be suffering from depression, or another undiagnosed problem, the first step is most often to see a physician, as he ~she is the one who will be in charge of a diagnosis, and any treatment plan for the future, including (possibly) some day taking medication to help you and ~or talk therapy. But remember, you can just start with that one simple step....when you go to this appointment it's not like you're signing your life away and giving up all rights to make choices as things go along.....step by step. You are not going to be forced to do ANYTHING. I say this only because you seem to be worrying about things that may just be adding to your bad feelings, like being hospitalized, seeing a therapist, or taking meds.....when in fact you don't know if in fact any of these will be a part of your life. I know this was a bit long, but if by chance you're still reading, I pray that you don't let fears of the unfamiliar keep you from seeking ways to feel better. You are a precious spirit and deserve all the best that life has to offer ps....And whatever else happens, we'll be here for you

[dazedandonfused]

I called my insurance company to see if I was covered for a therapist and much to my surprise I'm fully covered with a $20.00 copay. I called two different providers but both of them are saying they aren't accepting new patients at this time. So I will have to wait and see I guess. Thanks for all of your help. I'm feeling more relieved now knowing that I may be able to feel better. I'm trying really hard to keep my head up and breathe.

[Sadnlonleytoo]

That first phone call for help is a major step even if they aren't taking new patients. My advice would be to keep looking. Talking really does help even though it is often very difficult.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by dazedandonfused

I called my insurance company to see if I was covered for a therapist and much to my surprise I'm fully covered with a $20.00 copay. I called two different providers but both of them are saying they aren't accepting new patients at this time. So I will have to wait and see I guess. Thanks for all of your help. I'm feeling more relieved now knowing that I may be able to feel better. I'm trying really hard to keep my head up and breathe.

Hi dazed.....I think it's great that you're reaching out to see a therapist, and I hope one becomes available to you soon. A caring person to talk to can certainly be a wonderful thing. I do hope that sometime in the future you might also see a physician (MD). While a psychologist can certainly listen to you and there is much they can do....including to help figure out that you are possibly dealing with depression, to get the most clear diagnosis, and therefore increase your options for treatment, it is necessary to have a medical doctor on your team. As someone who has been fighting this demon for many, many years, I'd just hate to think of you limiting your access to all the options out there, which you would be if you only saw a therapist. Only an MD can order lab work to evaluate your brain chemicals (neurotransmitters), or prescribe medications (if appropriate) that may help to correct possible imbalances and hopefully help you to feel better.....

[dazedandonfused]

I'm not feeling to good right now. I called my pdoc to see if I could get some type of antidepresent. She said that I needed to make an appointment with a psychiatrist and that she couldn't prescribe anything for me. I asked if she could do something temporary due to my current sittuation and she said that I needed to go to the ER. I feel like screaming!!

I'm checking out now.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by dazedandonfused

I'm not feeling to good right now. I called my pdoc to see if I could get some type of antidepresent. She said that I needed to make an appointment with a psychiatrist and that she couldn't prescribe anything for me. I asked if she could do something temporary due to my current sittuation and she said that I needed to go to the ER. I feel like screaming!!

I'm checking out now.

Hello dazed.....I'm so confused. I'm wondering if I've been completely misunderstanding your situation. Is the doctor who you called someone who has been treating you for depression? Have you actually been diagnosed with depression and ~or anxiety?? Are they an MD? Because if they are, and if you have, why did they not try antidepressants before? Maybe there are reasons that they didn't, that I know nothing about, but this is really a confusing scenario. And btw, although psychiatrists ARE the state-of-the-art when it comes to antidepressants, they are absolutely NOT the only ones who can prescribe them....any medical doctor (MD) can. But of course if you have not ever discussed this with your doctor, it would be completely irresponsible of them to just prescribe something with no diagnosis. And one more thing, which I hate to mention....and maybe you already know this, but if a specific antidepressant might work for you, it can take weeks to even get an idea about this (some quicker than others, but it always takes time.) Sorry, but that's just a part of this whole crappy mood disorder thing. All that being said, perhaps the ER would be a good idea. Only you know how desperate things are feeling to you. But whatever else, I pray that you will call a psychiatrist....or another medical doctor TODAY to get things moving forward. Heart goes out to you.....

[wpony]

Hey Dazed have been right where you bare before and not that long ago my MD perscribed some meds for me and they do take awhile to work but just coming on here and posting and reading other peoples posts real helped me to know that I am not alone even though I still feel that way alot I just come on here and read and it seems to help just keep coming here and talk to the people here and hopefully it will help you atleast till you can get in to a therapist. alot of times people around you there might not understand what your going through and actually make things worse thats what happened to me thank goodness for this board and the fine people on here I hope you are doing better now and just try and hang in there and take 1 day at a time . hope to talk to you again George

[dazedandonfused]

Hi Whimsy,

No I have never taken an antidepresent or anything like that before. Today was the first time I have ever talked to anyone about how I was feeling . She said that given my current state that she wanted me to see a psychiatrist becuase antidepresents can make you feel worse. Which I also don't understand? I told her that I was thinking a lot about the big S and she said that I need to go to the ER but I don't undertand why?? I do understand that it can take awhile for the meds to kick in but atleast it's something.

I guess it will be on her if something happens and I tried to reach out.

-dazed

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by dazedandonfused

Hi Whimsy,

No I have never taken an antidepresent or anything like that before. Today was the first time I have ever talked to anyone about how I was feeling . She said that given my current state that she wanted me to see a psychiatrist becuase antidepresents can make you feel worse. Which I also don't understand? I told her that I was thinking a lot about the big S and she said that I need to go to the ER but I don't undertand why?? I do understand that it can take awhile for the meds to kick in but atleast it's something.

I guess it will be on her if something happens and I tried to reach out.

-dazed

dazed......Yes of course, I agree, even if the meds don't make a difference immediately, at least you'd know that you were doing something positive for yourself, and that in itself might help your state-of-being a little. Then if they help in the long run.....even better! And I'm sorry, maybe I'm missing something, but that thing they said about psychiatrists and meds making things worse.....HUH??!! Not that you asked, but I will say that if I was you I would look to someone else for help. Just my humble opinion. Sending good thoughts..... ps....Oh and one more thng, have you considered calling Suicide Prevention? They are very kind and supportive people

[whimsygirl]

Doesn't mean you have to use this, but just so you have it handy...... It really is an awesome organization. http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

[dailyhealing]

The way your doctor talked to you doesn't entirely make sense to me... I was prescribed medication through my general doctor for many years, and only recently sought the help of a psychiatrist... As for you doctor telling you to go to the ER, she is mandated I'm sure to say that if you tell her you are considering Su. But I tend to agree with whimsygirl, I would seek help from a different doctor possibly?

It is unfortunate that you are reaching out for help and not getting it yet. Please don't give up, you are taking the right steps! I don't really know what your diagnosis is as I can't diagnose people. But it does sound like you have some issues going on with depression, and depression is very treatable. Medication helps alleviate symptoms for most people who take them. And therapy can also help. Both of those things have done wonders for me!

If you ever need to talk please don't hesitate to send me a message! Hang in there, you are moving in the right direction!