I feel so lonely

I feel so lonely but I have no energy to be bothered getting out and seeing people. I'm scared too. I hate losing people. Why bother trying to communicate with people because one day they will leave anyway? They always do. I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone.

((((( estee1 )))))

Why bother trying to communicate with people because one day they will leave anyway?

I struggle with this as well. I've often said I'm surrounded by people yet I stand alone.

I hear you. Hang in...

are we twins perhaps? (((((((( Estee1 ))))))))

I'm so sorry, my friend! I've been away on a trip as you know... I wish I'd been here for you. I'm not leaving you behind- ever!

((((((((((((Estee1))))))))))))))

Estee, I can relate completely. I find myself being so lonely but even the presence of other people doesn't make it any better...they actually make it worse. And it's like the ones you want to stick around always seem to leave you behind in some way.

Actually the only time I do not feel alone is when I'm in nature with animals. I don't know how much sense that makes...

I wish I had some truly comforting words for you right now...but I don't.

Please know that you are not alone.

Cool Fuzzybear. I would love to have a twin. Being lonely is no fun.

I really love animals. I feel so good when I'm around animals. But I can't have animals where I live. I thought of getting some goldfish but I have this wonderful gift of killing them. The first goldfish I ever got was so cute but he died and I buried him in a matchbox. After that they went down the loo. One of my fish jumped out of the tank and when I got home my fish was gone. I found it behind the cupboard. It must have been dying to get away from me. Lol.

Thanks you guys. Love the cat Nina. He he.

(((((estee)))) I know what you mean.

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I understand this SO well at the mo Estee. My nurse is on at me every week to join different groups and go out and do different things, just to meet ppl and have something to do. She suggested even going into the lounge at the local mental health day centre (where I go to the gym) after a session and talk with ppl but I am too scared to. It is hard enuf getting out of the house in the 1st place. I did have a break thru last week tho- I went to a music and mvmt session with my no2. I used to attend with no1 and it WAS nice to be back, altho I knew no-one. All the songs were familiar tho and all the parents were friendly.

It is just so hard to break this cycle of depression by getting out of the house and getting involved in things, when these things have become such a huge ordeal and an obstacle that appears unable to be overcome.

Just to let you know that i fully understand how you must be feeling, and that I hope that as says go by things can get better, and that bit by bit you can find the courage and motivation to go out that front door again and overcome your loneliness and despair.
xxx irish

Thanks. Life is hell at the moment. But I'm faking my way through work and other responsibilities. I laugh and make jokes but underneath I am dying.I feel like such a liar and a fake. None of these people know that last night I was into harming myself and feeling so bad I don't think I can face another day of life.

Estee -

I'm sorry you're feeling down.

How can I help?

Hugs,

EJ

Estee1, my dear friend... I wish I could take away all your pain! I wish I could hold you in my arms and keep you safe!
I'm that joker too... it aint funny at all! Behind that laughing face there's another face... crying.

I hear you! I'm here for you- always! You've helped me in so many ways. My friend I hope this will soon end and for you to feel happy with yourself!

(((((((((((((((((((Estee1)))))))))))))))))))))

I know that feeling Estee. I don´t bother anymore to find friends because the always leaves me. I give them all my time and my complete confidence and what do they give me back?
In the beginning it's fun, but later on....they just dump you like a heartless monster.

Hugs for you /Karolina!

Thanks so much EJ. Umm, how could you help? Hug me for a few years. Lol. I love hugs.

Sometimes I get tricked and I think that people have left me or that they are going to leave me, but they haven't left. I get so caught up believing that I am not good enough for anyone. But now and then I can see through this lie. Other times I just believe it because it feels so true and I am not sure. I doubt so many things.
((((((((Karolinjam)))))))) You're special!

I like to laugh. But I would rather laugh because I am happy, not because I am scared to death.