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I am now convinced that there is not a medication that can help me. I have a wonderful T who is kind and concerned about her clients. I talk and talk and I never feel better for very long. I thought I was strong but I am really weak. I want some relief but I get none... I have a family that I don't deserve. They have done everything right in their lives. But I don't feel that I have helped them. I think that they were raised by some one else. It surley wasn't me . I am so depressed i can't stand myself. At this point i hate myself more than words can express. I am tired but can't sleep, I am eating everything in site. I know that is wrong but I can't stop myself. My diabetes is out of control it was 375 when I just checked it. I don't want to take my injection of insulin because it does not work....... I think I am just crazy now........Altheia

I am SORRY!! -

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

YES, there is medicine out there that can and will help you.... I used to feel the exact same way, for I have been mental (at least feeling like it) since I was around 12 years and I have been fighting that feeling for about 30 years now.... and now I can see the Sun shining again and the Beauty of the Rainbow is mine to hold.

If I may - do you find that these feelings of yours are more intense during your monthly cycle? When you become upset in the present? Do you have unresolved issues from your past? Are you presently seeking counseling for your wounds?

If not then you must work on all of the above before your Healing with return.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Hi LILITH

You're not crazy. You're a good person, even if its hard to see it right now.

Take care of yourself and sending some good vibes your way.

Lilith, I have seen a lot of strength in your posts. I think you are a wonderful person - and having said that - I could do nothing but totally relate to your post. As I read your pain, I thought, this is me!

I am completely medication free because of my strong belief that meds do not help (me that is). I am seeing some light at the end of this long tunnel, but lately days and incidents have brought me down.

I am sorry you are suffering - I just wanted you to know that I do understand, and even if I don't know you, I do care.

My thoughts are with you.

I have been there. except i isolate my feelings from my family and I stopped going to MD's except for pain management. believe me a diabetic coma is not a better place to go. i have a sleeping mask with magnets is seems to make a miniscule difference. thinking if getting stronger magnets and using my tens unit in lue of ECT. Best I can say to do is distract yourself or ride it out. thinking gets you into sad places.

Hi Rhapsody...... I am feeling a bit lighter today.... I am able to take deep breaths..... I am just going to ride this wave out.... What other chocies do I have...
Thanks Rhapsody.....

Hi Canders, Thank you for your support.... It means a lot to me...... Maybe I just don't have the right combo yet....

Hello Sabrina..... I know you from your posts.... I read a lot of them but don't have anything to offer..... But I thank you from the bottom of my heart.....you care and that means a lot to me. I am going to ride this wave... I hope it will end soon...this aweful feeling.....

Dear Fires
Thank you for caring.... I do isolate....but that is not the real me....I have to get a grip on my diabetes..... take care Fires...

Hi Lilith,
Please, take your insulin. It scared me when I read that you didn't want to take it. Talk to your doctor if you feel it's not helping you. That is very serious. Please, be careful.
I hope you realize you have such a beautiful family because you DID raise them and you have helped them probably in more ways then you will ever realize but that's probably all apart of your beauty. You do kind things for people without even realizing it and without marking a "you owe me card" so you forget about all the things you do and now you're not giving yourself credit for it.
I hope you feel better.

((((((((((((((( Lilith )))))))))))))))

Dear Jaxx, your response was really nice... I am happy you responded to my post.... it made me feel better.... Thanks for caring...