I don't know how to handle life as I know it anymore!!!!

I don't even know which smily face to put in front. I feel so many different emotions at this moment. I am overwhelmed with how I feel.
I am disabled and seem to get worse daily.. well yesterday was a total loss, as by 10am I was down with a migraine I slept until 5 am this morning. not all the way through but never awake for too long a time.
Today I woke up feeling like I could do it all (mentally anyhow) I know I have my limits but I constantly push and push and push myself and that is where I am now. It is 4pm and I have to think about starting dinner soon and I havent done 1/4 of what I had hoped to do today.............
I am so frustrated that I am having a really hard time controlling my anger. I am trying to move some things in my computer room in order to put in a dresser/desk along the one wall. I started moving some stuff and tied up the garbage and felt so exhausted that I just sat here and cried. I refuse to ask my hubby to do it, stubborn me I guess, still wanting to do it all by myself. But now I sit here crying like a friggin' baby. I am so tired and so angry with myself. I can't stand the mess my house is, and there is so much to do and I just can't. I managed to get laundry done and folded but I still have to put it away, I have to finish cleaning the kitchen so I can make dinner, I have to get this stuff out of computer room to make room for dresser, the clean the area it will go and then help hubby get it in here (which I pray is possible) it isn't a small thing. Then I have to figure out where everything is going to go..........I am at my end here and don't know how to stop it.... any ideas, taking a deep breath has not helped.....

(((((((((walks))))))))))

My new friend... I hear you loud and clear! Try to think of it like this... If I'm tired... not feeling good... will I feel better if I force myself to do a lot of stuff? Is your home going to go under? No! Try taking it bit by bit... in your own pace. I know... it's easier said than done! But YOU are more important than a lot of stuff you feel you just HAVE to do... right! Stubborn... hmmm... who is it I know that I got reminded of now??? Ohhh.... silly... it's ME of course! Be stubborn in life but not in every part... let your hubby help out more! You're in this together, ok?!

Here for you, just so you know that!

((((((((((((((( walkswithspiritbear/Linda )))))))))))))))))))

I tend to get very overwhelmed very quickly too. Right now I have so much work to do and I am on-line instead!

Please try to reward yourself for every tiny task you complete. You deserve that. And I agree with Nina ... let your husband help you even though you feel proud.

I hope you are feeling a little better today!

Yes, be gentle with yourself. You can't do eveything at once... especially if you are feeling overwhelmed. And just thinking about what needs doing will trigger a state of frustration/anxiety etc.

Just tell yourself you'll do *one* thing, do it, and give yourself a break. Make a list if it helps of what you will do for the day (just 1 or 2 things), pioritise and let the rest go. And take care.

Thank you all of you, your kind words have soothed the beast in me... Last night hubby offered to help with what I wanted to do.... took him ten minutes which would have taken me all day to do.. Can you believe that. Then as we are finishing up we realize that the ant problem we had was much worse than we knew..... tiny little things all over the place now I have to contend with that also....Nothing like looking at my hard wood floors and seeing things moving and knowing it isn't all my drugs is pretty weird... Again I can not thank you all for your support and kindness. I hope to return it tenfold. Thank y ou, Linda

I am pleased that your hubby not only offered to help but that you let him!! Well done. Just remember, one small thing at a time (and I know I need to follow my own advice too!)

((((((((((((((SABRINA)))))))))) thanks for the kindness. I hope I can someday repay in like in need be... I am glad I let him do it too, but now I have to wait for the ants ((ewwww) to start leaving... have putout stuff for them have noticed living room is better but not htis one oh no...... ew i hate these little buggers.. Thanks again

You're welcome!!! And you have repaid .... just by being you!

thats exactly how im feeling right now, i want to do things, progress with guitar and stuff and keep away from SI but i cant help but sipral down, never the less ive kept myself away from SI, dosent always feel right but over all its better.

(((((Walkswithspiritbear)))))

linda....sorry that i didn't see your posting sooner but everyone gave you wonderful advice.......i hope by now that the ant problem is almost solved......and please....take things a little easier.....your health is most important......love you