[jean17]

Does it ever end? I can't cope if life is going to be like this forever. It doesn't seem to matter what I do or what drugs I take, I am forever descending into the black pit of despair. What do I do? I have a good mental health team working with me. I've been in hospital once and really don't want to go back. What else can I do? Why won't it go away? I just want to be left in peace, but the demons won't leave me alone. Can anyone help me?

[adam_k]

Sometimes it is unbearable. Depression robs us of hope and makes us feel like we don't matter what and everything is pointless. You have to stay strong and keep hanging in there. Keep working with your doctors. I try and soround myself with people that love and care about me. That way even when I feel miserable and I can't seem to go on, I know there are people that care and love me. I find strength in that. I hope you start to feel better soon.

[allimsaying]

I think as far as ending its an individual thing. Some depressions might be lifelong depending on the causes. For me the causes were environmental so after I changed my environment it was more possible for me to heal but it still took a long time and I did it mostly on my own, spending time with the negative thinking and working through the puzzles of life. In the beginning I waited for it to clear on its own but I had no idea that it would be more than 30 years! I slowed the process down a lot by self medicating and working against myself. One thing I think was really important was to retrain myself in the language I used when self communicating. Negative statements only reinforced the negative cycle I was stuck in. Learning to feel genuine gratitude for the good things in my life slowly began to turn my momentum in a new direction but it still took a surprising amount of time to begin to feel confident that things could still turn out ok. I know how painful and lonely it can feel after a relationship breakup. Try not to overthink it if you can, make sure you spend a little time each day thinking about something positive, something simple, like the beauty of flowers or the cuteness of kittens, anything that might make you smile just a little inside. I know its hard but if you stick to it and give it time the table might start to turn. Again, it depends on the causes of your depression.

[redbandit]

Originally Posted by jean17

Does it ever end? I can't cope if life is going to be like this forever. It doesn't seem to matter what I do or what drugs I take, I am forever descending into the black pit of despair. What do I do? I have a good mental health team working with me. I've been in hospital once and really don't want to go back. What else can I do? Why won't it go away? I just want to be left in peace, but the demons won't leave me alone. Can anyone help me?

I feel ya there. Nothing seems to help me either, I've tried so many dif meds and have been hospitalized twice. I'm not sure what type of hospital you went to (well none are fun) but the psychiatric hospital I was at was like jail. They literally locked us in, and every activity was closely reigimined.

[GreyThinker]

Hi, i would love to have some words of comfort for you but i am in not too good a place myself right now. i know how ypu feel. I am told by others that things will get better and because i can tell i am not thinking straight right now i am using their words as a lifeline. I have to lean on the hope of others since i myself have so little hope ..and that includes what people say here because i dont have many people in real life that i can share my darkess with. Can you do that too?

[RJ78]

Hey Jean,

Boy, do I know those feelings. It's great that you have a mental health support team. When I was in an acute crisis last October, I set out to set up a support network of pros and friends/family, and it was a huge part of my recovery. I'm glad to hear you've had the courage to go down this route as well.

I'm sorry I can't offer more advice, but please let us know how you're doing, ok?

RJ