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#401
Sep 19, 2013, 12:46 PM
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I miss him. I still have until October 26th until he returns
 Also, I pulled a muscle in my chest and it hurts.
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#403
Sep 19, 2013, 02:23 PM
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I have endured some ideas put forth in my direction that I was none too sure of and was able to succesfully talk them thru and come to a conclusion about them without feeling intimidated, hurt, depressed or otherwise maligned. DOWNS Finances are going to be crap till the day I die. Oh well. Just gotta deal with it. |
| Bark, lindammarie, tigersassy
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#404
Sep 19, 2013, 03:45 PM
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Another period of misplaced anger and violent thoughts seems to have passed without any major incidents. Still feel a little twitchy.
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Technology and human potential don't have to be adversary positions .. we can use advanced machinery and advanced people. Likewise, the idealists on the right and the idealists on the left would do better for all if they worked on the same team. Get comfortable with combining positions and not choosing sides. -- Jim Channon, LTC. U.S.Army |
| Bark, lindammarie, tigersassy
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#405
Sep 19, 2013, 05:09 PM
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| lindammarie
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#406
Sep 19, 2013, 07:39 PM
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I go out and I'm empty... I come back home and I feel so depressed and alone.
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| Bark, lindammarie, tigersassy
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#407
Sep 19, 2013, 07:42 PM
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I didn't realize just how lonely I really am until I made her mad. Now no one will talk to me and I don't know how to cope with anything.
I can't concentrate on my school work. I can't concentrate on my hobbies. I just want to crawl into a ditch somewhere. I wish I had someone I could talk to. There are no ups. There are never any ups anymore.
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Love is.. OSFED|MDD/PPD|GAD|gender dysphoria|AvPD a baby smiling at you for the first time a dog curling up by your side... and your soulmate kissing your forehead when he thinks you're sound asleep |
| Anonymous100165, Bark, lindammarie, Nammu, tigersassy
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#408
Sep 19, 2013, 09:37 PM
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I don't know what's happened. My facial paralysis has resolved to the point where it's no longer noticeable, and since I've started being able to leave my house and go to school again my life has gradually gotten better and better. The only times I'm unhappy anymore are when I'm drinking. I think I might have beaten this.
 It is possible! |
| bronzeowl, lindammarie, tigersassy
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| angryworld, Bark, Nammu, tigersassy
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#409
Sep 19, 2013, 11:43 PM
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Depressed again. I've been having SI urges all day, haven't had the energy to get out of bed.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
| Bark, bronzeowl, lindammarie, Nammu, tigersassy
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#410
Sep 20, 2013, 02:06 AM
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Forgot to take my med until way past when I should have. I was feeling spaced out... I don't know how to describe it. I thought it might be the heat. Then, it hit me: I always feel like this when I don't take my med. I had it with me in my pocket the whole time! But I keep putting it off—like right now. Looks like it didn't mess with my mood, which is good. Just felt weird and out of it until it kicked in. The nausea was almost about to set in by that point, which would be followed by the shivers and so on. I'm almost glad I experienced it in hospital: I know now what to look out for and that it's impossible for me to go a day without this med.
My mood's been okay, normal. Did feel a bit hyper at my appointment with my psychologist, though. I'm supposed to go every week, but I'm on the waiting list for now. I'm guaranteed an appointment every month, though. Thank goodness for cheap university insurance: I would have owed over $4000 out of pocket by now, money I don't have. |
| lindammarie
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#411
Sep 20, 2013, 04:37 AM
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Up
but annoyed too, yo |
| Bark, lindammarie
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#412
Sep 20, 2013, 07:40 AM
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Really low today. I've figured out that trying to make friends just makes me more depressed.
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| Bark, herethennow, lindammarie
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#413
Sep 20, 2013, 09:53 AM
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I don't feel well today. My sinuses are bothering me and I feel all achey.
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| Bark, gracez, lindammarie
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#414
Sep 20, 2013, 09:57 AM
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Down in the bottom of a deep dark pit
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| Bark, gracez, lindammarie, Nammu, tokiwartooth
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#415
Sep 20, 2013, 10:29 AM
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down. epicly down. and as usual i'm hiding it... and i foresee myself self-destructing soon. i cannot take it anymore. i'm just tired. hospitalisation won't do me any good, i'm still stuck in my own little prison.
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes herethennow: This ward is a prison! dx: recurrent MDD.
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is. |
| Anonymous200125, Anonymous53876, Bark, lindammarie, Nammu, tigersassy, tokiwartooth
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#416
Sep 20, 2013, 10:31 AM
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| Anonymous53876, Bark, herethennow, lindammarie, tigersassy, tokiwartooth
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#418
Sep 20, 2013, 07:30 PM
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Good week. Maybe the changes I've made are good. Things are looking up. For all those that are down. I know it seems so dark, but it will get better.
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PTSD possible bipolar Meds: propranalol 20mg 2x's(blood pressure), lamictal 300mg, seroquel 100mg, effexor 75mg, sprycel 100mg (CML, chronic myeloid leukemia), iron supplement, multivitamin  |
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#419
Sep 20, 2013, 07:37 PM
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UPS
Too many to type DOWNS Having to spend money I set aside for other bills on unexpected bailouts |
| Bark, lindammarie, tigersassy
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#420
Sep 20, 2013, 08:23 PM
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I'm in that weird limbo. Don't feel bad exactly, just don't feel very good either.
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| Bark, lindammarie, tigersassy
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#421
Sep 21, 2013, 12:11 PM
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Haven't been here in a while. I've been okay, just really busy because of work. I dunno, I'm boring and don't really have much to add. I think I made a new friend, which is rare for me. It's hard for me to really trust people enough to open up to them. I hope everyone else has a good day though.
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| Bark, herethennow, lindammarie, tigersassy
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#422
Sep 21, 2013, 08:13 PM
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I'm in a weird place. Only sleep every other day, but my eyes get so dry and painful. I don't feel depressed, but I can't concentrate on anything nor take interest in anything.....acually most days i don't bother to get dressed. I haven't eaten yet either, part of me acknowledges my stomach growling and I think, I need to go get some food..............................hours later I listen to my stomach and think, I need to get something to eat....... Part of my mind goes though different ways to die but I have no desire to act on it nor to hurt others more than they are already hurt by my silence. I just want this to end. My poor cat is trying his best to get me up, he wants to play and like eating I tell him later....... and later doesn't come. I type things on here then half the time push delete by mistake. Maybe its Freudian because its nearly always posts like this that get deleted. Even when its not I don't have the energy to re post. I want a magic wand to wave my life away.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#423
Sep 21, 2013, 10:42 PM
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Been feeling the blues for most of the day. I was very busy with my domestic stuff and it seemed like it was more busy than ever. The only highlight of the day was that I spoke to a guy I met at a support group.
A couple of things happened today for me that were a little bit unpleasant as I went about with shopping. I went to a dept. store today to pick up a couple of things. When I was going down on an escalator, I was about halfway down when a little boy at the top behind me got tripped up a scraped himself. He was crying hysterically. I thought that it could be something serious with him. And after that I went to a place to have my CD player to be repaired but the waiting was too long and I just gave up. |
| Bark, herethennow, lindammarie
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#424
Sep 22, 2013, 06:55 AM
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Feeling a bit crappy. Not much willpower. Faced with things I need to do, but, ... you know, ... :|
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#425
Sep 22, 2013, 07:43 AM
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Still feel depressed. Going to help my husband with his honey bees today, then a birthday party for him at the house. Hope I can make it through the day without being too tired or starting to go into a fibromyalgia flare (pain and fatigue). I worry too much.
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| Bark, dandylin, herethennow, lindammarie
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