still difficult

my posts here are starting to get repetative...

I'm just still having so much trouble coping and it is getting harder and harder. I am starting to dislike going to support groups and it has been harder and harder to drag myself out to them.

I still can't get out of bed early and it is harder and harder to stay out of bed during the day (I've been giving in because it is just so difficult)

i'm even less motivated now to take care of things. my bills are still sliding, and even though i am worried about them i can not translate that worry into action over them. when i started on this depression i was at least able to do a little toward my bills as they became overdue. not i just don't want to deal with them at all.

i've been isolating myself again even though that has been the one area that i made by far the most progress over the past few months. i've become so disallutioned and unwilling on getting hurt again that i just can't keep making the effort. it does bother me that other people won't pick up some of the slack but that is not their problem, i should be able to initiate contact. i think there are only two people now that i trust and remain in contact with.

i have been talking about this with my T and it has been helping. i just feel as if things are getting worse faster than any improvement i'm making. i've been putting a HUGE amount of effort into this. i really have been trying to "do the work" to get past this. I'm getting really exhausted from all the effort it takes. I want some emotional rest.

that is all for now

-- The world is what we make of it --
-- Dave
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Wish I could offer some words of comfort, but the best I could say now is to "please hang in there", we care about you.
I can't remember if you are one of the members that do not like hugs, but can I send some out to you?

(((((((((((((((((((( dexter ))))))))))))))))

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

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Take care,
Fuzzy

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Dexter}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} It doesn't sound right and at times it can make the person hearing or reading it angry or hurt, but know that you are where you need to be at this moment. You will move forward, you will come out on the other side. I've said it before and I'll say it again; give yourself permission to just "Be." Stop beating yourself up because you aren't were you used to be a few years ago. You're on a journey. Right now you're in a valley... soon you will be climbing green hills.

Hi Dexter

Your post just reflected perfectly the way I have been feeling. Just devastated and hopeless. I just started back on meds the last 3 weeks and seem to be coming up. Before this, I just didn't know what was going to happen to me, I was so tired and weak, my mind just wouldn't work either. It was an effort to do just the smallest thing, so I believe the meds are helping. Of course meds and therapy are a stronger boost up. You said you saw your therapist and you felt a little bit better. Hang on to it.

I just wish I could do something to help. You feel in pain yourself but when you see others in pain you really want to do something.

It is good that you post so frequently. I find it kind of hard to do. I guess sometimes I feel like "who in their right mind wants to listen to my grim tale." I know that's not so because I see all the kind and caring people who post here and support you.

I like what September Morn says, you are in the place where you are supposed to be and you will come out of it. I surely want to believe this. Some other member on this board replied to one of my posts "tie a knot in a rope and hang on."

I hope you will keep posting, daily if possible, and let us know of any progress no matter how small.

Love

KK

September Morn

HI HI

I like what you posted. Sounds like you are coming from some kind of experience. Can you share it with us?

By the way, what does "It doesn't sound right........" mean? Had you made another post regarding this?

Love

KK