Feeling worthless with a meaningless life

I guess something was trigger yesterday, because I'm starting to fall into that mode again. Everything was ok, and and now... I don't know, feeling like ending it. I just don't like this anymore, nothing I do is right, everyone makes fun of me and put me down. I feel so sad and lonely, losing interests again. Wish I had a friend. I had a friend at work years ago and he visited me sometimes and I found out he had a heart attack and died. I wonder what it would feel like to die like that. I think that is how I want to die, afterall, all I eat is fatty food and food that is not good. I think I may have had a minor attack, cause I have had a sharp pain near my heart. I haven't told anyone, because I wish it would happen already. But with my luck, I wont die. That is the way my life is, I have to live in torture and pain.

I know my words will probably seem unrealistically optimistic to you, but I'm going to say what I have to say, anyway. Things will get better, and I don't know when, but if you were ever to give up now you'll never know a lot of pleasent things in life that wait for you down the road. Right now it hurts like hell, I've been there, and so have a lot of other people on this site. No one here knows what you're going through, it's true, but you can be sure that you have people to talk to here. If your physical health is failing, don't sit and do nothing, if nothing else it will just make your life more miserable while you are going through this rough patch.

I really hope that things will get better for you, and I know that they will, it just takes time and effort. The effort part may be the hardest b/c you don't know what to do, but doing nothing to help yourself is the worst thing to do. Even if you don't have the strength to seek help today, try to seek it tomorrow. I have faith that your life will get better, and I hope you can have some, too.

Hello I am sorry that you feel this way at this time. There is a hypoglycemia diet that is on the American Diabetic Association website, that may help you to learn how to eat correctly, and the best thing is that you get to eat less food more often, so that the difference will be lessened, by the fact you will not be overly hungry with the change in eating habits. An exercise program may help you such as walking to help youfeel better about yourself. I am going to leave you acrisis hotline number for someone you can talk to when you need to talk to someone in person 1-800-273-TALK. I am also going to leave you my email address incase you would like to email neohiodbsa@yahoo.com and you mught think about seeing a therapist, that can help you with the issues you are having at thie time. Take care Soidhonia

Thanks for the replies. They mean something to me. I'm still feeling sad and down, but doing better. I wish I had some direction in my life, because I don't know what I want to do.

Can I have some hugs? I could use them!

*hugs* I Hope you feel better soon!!!!

ariesmars... i know at times we feel we don't have a direction but we do we just don't see it and most of us have no idea why we are here or where we are supose to be or what we are supose to be doing but you now what we are where we are suppose to be and when we are supose to be somewhere else the sign will be big enough hang in there people are cruel because they have low self esteem and don't know how to act those are the people we need to be nice to to confuse them even more...

Hang in there...