IM SUCH AN IDIOT!!!...

My parents dont know that my problems from a few months ago are back and I dont want them to know.I did something really stupid last night.I called the suicide hotline,when the thought of suicide was so strong in my mind,I couldnt stand it.The woman said that since im only 14,she had to talk to one of my parents.My parents werent home.She told me to call her back as soon as they got home,and if I didnt she was going to call back herself.I dont want my parents to know about what im going through again.Ive been sitting by the phone since last night so my parents wont answer the phone.I didnt get any sleep last night cause I was so worried about that woman calling back.I dont know why I called that number.It was the only thing I could think of doing.IM SUCH AN IDIOT.I dont want everyone to know about my problems coming back cause the last time I went through this everyone treated me different.They acted like I was crazy.Everyone talked about me and I just cant go through that again.I JUST CANT.Does anyone know what I should do?

I'm sorry you are haveing a problem. I know you do not want to have your parents know of this. And if you are having thoughts about suicide You do have to get some help. I know you do not want to and you will do what you feel you have to do. Please get some help .

If you are thinking about suicide you should definately get help, even if it means your parents finding out. It's your life that is on the line, you should do all you can to fix it!!!

Sweetie, suicide is permanent, your parents need to help you through this, they care and get scared like everyone else

I hear what your saying..I am so sorry.. you must have been put thru allot with your previous episode, as you described, to be so scared of them finding out how much your hurting again...but instead of sitting by the phone afraid some stranger is going to talk to your parents, maybe it would best if you talked to them first, in your own way, in your own words...and not have another person interpeting what your told them over the phone..

Reaching out for help is not something you should punish yourself over, your hurting, and now your hurting and scared..please consider talking to your folks..take gentle care..you are a special light, dont let the darkness win...

Eva

Someone else on here told me about an organisation called the samaritans. You might want to check it out. They help suicidal people by email and so you wouldn't have to phone. I'm realy sorry this is happening to you, and you realy need to get help. I know you're probably realy scared but if she hasn't called back maybe she won't.
I hope everything works out for you and feel free to write.

you re not an idiot, you did the right thing, you prevented any harm from happening, things will be better, hang in there. In todays world we are all tired and we are all worried, we are all sad, we all hurt ,but the most importand thing is to survive, and you just did that , please promise me that you will survive, because it gets better ! i can promise you that. whenever you feel like that pm me i amalways here
Tommy

I just dont think i can tell my parents about everythingbecause,the last time i tried to tell them,they started yelling at me and said it was my own fault for being depressed and for all the other things i go through.They think if someones depressed its that persons fault,but,how could it be MY fault?I didnt ask for this.

it is not your fault, never. Parents dont get it. I wnet through the same stuff with my parents. Hang in there

I know its not my fault,but,why do they think its my fault?I didn't just wake up one morning and decide to be depressed,bi-polar,hear voices,and cut myself.NO I DIDNT.I think they should at least try to talk to me about stuff,but they dont.They dont care.Parents always say that you can talk to them about everything but,when you try to you get yelled at and treated like you're crazy.I just wish I had parents who would talk to me about stuff.