disconnected from people

Hi,

I seem to be doing really badly in a lot of ways just now. When I am with people, even people I really like, I feel so completely disconnected. I hardly know how to describe it. I'm there, I know it's real. I'm just dead inside. It's as if I'm watching myself trying to talk, almost, except that's not the right description of it either. I'm really dead inside. Does this happen to other people?

Take care,
ErinBear

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Kind of like you're watching yourself go thru the motions?

I can feel like an observer of myself and feel nothing at all about the entire situation. It is very odd for me as well.

Has it gone away? No, not on my end. I don't know how to even tap into that and merge the two.

Just know you aren't alone.

Mary Alice

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I'm sorry to hear you've been feeling this too. It sounds like you've been having a really rough time lately. I've sure been thinking of you a lot, for whatever it's worth.

Take care,
ErinBear

I feel like this all the time. I can be lonely in a room full of my closest friends. I can sit through an entire conversation, even engage in it, and never know what I'm saying or remember later what was discussed. I see everything through a filter and find myself wondering why I am so different from all of these people and why I can't feel normal for very long. I suppose this isn't very supportive, but I do understand and you are not alone.

"A wise man leaves the road, and finds the way."
- Lao Tse

Hi, this happens to me sometimes. It's like there's nothing inside me and everyone around seems really distant, it is really hard to explain and a really strange feeling. It is sort of comforting to know I'm/ your not the only one it happens to.

I just wanted to thank everyone for your replies. I am in counseling and have been for almost a year now. I don't know what emotion(s) I could be stuffing although I guess that could be a possibility! It's helpful to know that others have experienced this also, although at the same time - I am sorry to hear that and know that others are troubled by it, so I send you my caring thoughts. Maybe things will get better later.

Take care,
ErinBear

Hello,
I completely understand where you are coming from. Even with people that I feel safe with (which are not very many) I can feel completely disconnected and seperate. It is like standing on the edge of a lake and wanting to go in but not being able to put in the effort to swim out to people. It is the most frustrating thing in the world for me to deal with.
I do not know if it helps to know that you are not alone but you are not.

Stay strong,
jessica

Hi Jessica,

I'm so sorry you've felt this way too! It sure is a hard feeling. I'm afraid I don't have any particular words of wisdom about it either. But as you said, at least we can all commiserate with each other. :-)

take care,
ErinBear