Angry

Why can't they just shut up???????? I beg them and plead, I pretend everything is ok. Its not their fault. I get so upset, I feel my face heat up, my heart race. I can't hardly control it. I find something, anything to calm down but, it only lasts for so long. They start whining and crying and I keep trying to control myself. They whine and cry right now as I try to type this message. I am trying so hard, so hard, so hard, so hard. All 3 at one time. I afeel like I am losing my mind. Please, please, please, please, please, please, please.

and of course, its all my fault, always my fault, everything my fault, has always been, will always be.

i calm down, no yelling this time. its a miracle, they are not talking now.

my 3 beautiful children, I love them so much. its not their fault. i made it through this time with out yelling.

and now they start again. i have no will power to even try to figure out why they are so upset, i know its about the tv. it has to get better...hanging on till i make that phone call and maybe get some help.

the odd thing i just noticed, I feel two emotions 90 percent of the time, anger and sadness. when i;m not feeling angry, i feel like i want to cry.

i'm sorry that you're having a hard time right now. do you have any help with the children? what are their ages? any games that you can settle down with them to play?

it's hard to have time for oneself when you have little ones. i used to collapse after getting them into bed and quiet. perhaps you can read and relax a bit.........xoxoxo pat

((((Charla)))) I'm so sorry, i know how you feel, but Hon, you need to get soembody to help you on this.
Please ask for help, you need it right now.
Hang in there~ PM me if you need anything.

I am sorry you are having such a rough time! Please take care of yourself. I hope things get better for you soon!! *hugs*

Vent out all the bad. (((Charlajustin))) hugs to last you forever whenever you need them.

I called for help last night and again this morning. I posted what happened in the general section of the forums.

thank you all for the support.

Are you raising the children alone? It sounds like you have no help. I am so sorry. Just try and breathe deep and slow whenever it becomes overwhelming.
I hope you can find help soon.
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
Sending you gentle hugs,
Linda

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