[wanting]

ive been on my meds for about 12 weeks now.Last week or the week before my suicidal thoughts where all but a past memory.Ive been planning on going back to work later this week.Ive been goint to lunch with freinds and socialising again,i even met a girl who seems keen on me and that cheerd me up no end,ive been so happy the last few days.
Now however,everything is flooding back with avengence it like its saying "How Dare you think you can escape that easily" I feel as bad as i did right before my last suicide attempt,i havent been able to see therapist yet just my doctor and all he can do is give me more time off work and drugs,i need more than that but i dont know what that is,I felt so good just a couple of days ago what is going on

[Soidhonia]

Hello have you had a physical lately? sometimes the flu or other things medically can cause you to feel bad as well. Possibly you were overdoing things a bit and are tired. I really feel that you should have a physical as well, to make sure that your thyroid is okay, sometimes thyroid problems can lead to the symptoms that you describe as well. Especially since the feeling came on so suddenly. I am going ot leave a hotline number for you to call as well if you need to call and talk to someone in person. 1-800-273-TALK. I hope the best for you try to calm down and do the best that you can. Take care sincerely Soidhonia

Its a natural thing for the body to take a few steps back every so often, but be assured, you are still making progress away from depression. to be able to have that good week or so shows you are able to do it and that it isnt far away.

dont beat yourself up over it, allow yourself to rest for a while, as all the goodness you have been feeling has tired you out. but you will get that happiness back, i promise.

we all have to have down days, its what makes the good days great. and sometimes we need time to reflect on things, so use this down time wisely knowing you will bounce right back up when your body and mind is ready, until then relax, and nurture it any way you can.

you certainly arent falling, you are climbing.

take care

simon

[wanting]

Ive had 5 weeks off work and we are partway through the busiest period of the year.I feel like a complete letdown if i take anymore time off.I also feel scared of going back in and also bored of being at home as there is really nothing else to do,i just lock myself in myroom and listen to music,most of the time.

Being off work and being bored wont help depression at all. because you have so much time on your hands, you are thinking about things more than you would if you were at work. thus making the bad thoughts worse. i would strongly reccomend going back to work, however scary it is, tackle your fears and just go back, this will keep your mind active and wont let you over think everything. it would definately do you good to get out of the house and be around many people.

maybe you could ask your work place if you start going back but only a few days a week, maybe 2 or 3 to begin with, then slowly build it up to the full 5 day week. its worth a try.... but if they say no, then go back normally, i know it will do you good.

simon