I don't know what to do anymore....

I have alot of issues. I'm scared to be alone and of commitment, my best friend yells at me alot, and i don't eat right. I have been to a Dr. and i have meds that are supposed to make me happy, but I don't think they work. i'll just tell u guys some of the stuff and maybe u can help me.....

as far as the commitment problems. every relationship i'm in ends badly. i get so scared to fall in love, but then i'm so scared to be along. so one day i'm really clingy and the next day i'm like Watch Out.... independance..it doesn't make things very easy. i want to keep people in my life, but i seem to scare them alot.

the best friend is a HUGE issue with me. she loves me i know, but she is always yelling. we fight all the time and she tells me that she is sick of me being depressed all the time and that she can not take being a support wall all the time. i don't blame her, like i said i'm clingy. she hurts me so much when she yells and i cry alot because of it, which in turn makes her mad that i'm crying. she's been there for alot of things and i need her in my life, but i can't take the yelling?

my eating habits are horrid. if i eat once a day it's a miracle. i loose weight really rapidly and am dizzy alot. i don't think i'm anorexic, but it's like a power thing with me. i let myself get so upset about the things in my life that, i convince myself eating is useless. i have a super sensitive stomach and alot of food i do not like, so i seem to vomit alot, not purposly, but because my stomach is so sensitve and i get so worked up. i need help!

i'm sorry this is so long, but i'm praying someone helps.....even if it's just w/ one issue...i'd be go greatful

I just found this forum last night and probably have no business offering any advice since I'm very depressed myself, but I will anyway. It seems to me that this friend who knows how depressed you've been doesn't know how to be a friend at this point. If she did, she wouldn't be yelling at you - you don't deserve that. I have a friend who kept saying "cheer up, smile, what can you possibly have anything to be upset about, etc.". I distanced myself from this person. I know she didn't say those things out of lack of caring, it was lack of knowing HOW to care that made her say insensitive things. I think you need to give this friendship some space so that you can heal without this person bringing you even further down than you already are.

Take care.

Cabin,

It is precisely because you are suffering (just like the rest of us!) that you deserve to post here.

Additionally, I think you are absolutely right. When I was depressed, I had a few well-meaning (but ultimately ignorant) friends who thought I just needed to "cheer up". They weren't rude, uncaring people - they just had never dealt with something like this before and were trying to make me feel better the best way they knew how.

Dave (Dexter on the board) wrote a wonderful paper on understanding depression for friends and family.

Dave, could you post that link up here for us again? Thanks!

Anna

some of it's magic
some of it's tragic
but i had a good life all the way......
~jimmy buffett

Welcome {purple] Linds -and Cabin! You will find most all of us here have issues... and we come here for help and to help each other.

I agree with Cabin -- need to distance yourself from these type of ppl at least for a while... catch your breath and clear you head (the best you can.)

You need to find a professional sounding board... someone who doesn't allow you just lean, but gives you true support to help you begin to stand.

Come back, and post often...

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Dave, could you post that link up here for us again? Thanks!

Just thinking of that reading through this thread.

It is at http://www.idexter.com

Hi,

I just want to say Hi, and welcome. I suffer from alot of the same issues, and know how difficult it is. I agree with the others concerning your friend, and the need for space and her lack of understanding depression. I do hope you may start to feel better soon.

Peace~ CHRIS

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!