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Hello Everyone,
I am not sure where else I am going to post for support on this issue. But since it is causing depression issues I figured this might be the place. First things first, I have been checked out, I am not seeing things. In short, I am being attacked by two spirits. I had a two person investigator group come in and both of them experienced being touched by the ghosts. And as of recently was able to take picture of a face next to my bed. So a little back story then I will get into why I am feeling so depressed right now. I have been able to feel spirits around me since I was a child. As of 4 years ago the last of 3 of my best friends died and I moved into the this place. It was all I could afford short notice as the person renting gave me the first month rent free and no secrity deposit or anything. Everything was fine for the first two month. Soon there I began feeling something moving my bed as if there was someone under my bed with a broom stick pushing up on my mattress on different spots. I started out as just when I was in bed. Over the months any spot I sat began being gentle pushed up and let back down. Not much scares me so I really didn't mind what I thought was a playful ghost. About a year after it all started the spirit began tugging at my clothing which progressed to tuggin on my pants and finally began getting sexual in nature. First it was fondling and then turned into what I can only describe as rape. I can clearly feel something similar to a penis being inserted and can feel the spirit pushing in and out. It started out once every few days but is now 2-4 times a day. If that isn't bad enough, it's turned leathal. When I have faught and tried to prevent the rapes I have been attacked in painful ways. Such as feeling something being pushed into my ear to the point of causing severe pain in my ear drum. I have had the two spirits mess with my teeth causing toothache type pain. As of of late I can feel something being pushed in my nose cavity and feel it go down the back of my throat blocking my air way. And also have felt their hand inside my chest grabbing my heart causing it to flutter and cause chest pain. It's QUITE scary. Today all I wanted to do was cry. It keeps me from sleeping with the touching. And as I said, resisting can be painful or down right life threatening. I don't know if they would mess with my heart to the point of death, but I don't want to find out. I have been searching for help for the last 4 years this has been going on. I made the mistake of mentioning it to a therapist who had me admitted for seeing things. They tried me on several drugs trying to make them go away thinking it was all in my head. In the end, the only reason I was allowed to go home is because I said they ghosts have gone away. If the ghosts truely were a product of my mind the several anti-psychotics would have made at least SOME difference in activity. And honestly, if the meds did have a effect I would be on them like yesturday. But they meds don't work since the ghosts are not a product of my mind but real. As I said the paranormal group I finally got to come help, both of them experienced being touched as well. But they although they could say there was a ghost here, they couldn't tell me what to do to get rid of them. I have tried everything. I have tries asking the spirits to leave me alone, demanding to be left alone, salt along door ways, crystals, holy water, crosses, tried doing sage, looked into paying for a medium but they are hundreds of dollars per hour. I tried to have the house blessed but the priest was afraid of having something happen to him so he refused. I am out of idea's. I would say move, which I am still willing to try if I can find a option. But I doubt it will work. Last year I was in the hospital for a bipolar episode, the hospital was 150 miles south as my county doesn't have a hospital of their own so they rent beds at a hospital in another area. Anyway, I was down at the hospital for 12 days. The spirit was in the car with me on the way down, stayed with me the full 12 days and came back home with me in the car. So the spirit isn't bound to my apartments location, it seems like it's bound to me some how. So I don't even know if moving will have a effect. All I know is I just want my life back. I want to be able to go to bed and not fear being raped or worry about having my heart stopped for refusing to let the rape happen. I am just so mentally sick from the constant attacks. I just don't know what to do. As I said, I just want to have a huge cry I am so frustrated. Well, let me stop here for now. Thank you all for listening. Don't worry if you don't know what to say, I know I am not writing about a simple problem. I just need a place I can talk about it. I feel so alone with this and just can't handle it alone anymore. It's just too much. Thank you all. -Stanley
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This is all exceptionally frightening. How much sleep are you actually getting?
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Hello Rohag,
I can say most spirits who visit are not scary at all. But there is that 1% like the two spirits here bothing me that could care less about respecting the living. With these two spirits, ineed it is frightening. As for how much sleep, on average of 3-4 hours a night. Last night I got about 3 hours. Not all at once either, it was on and off. I even took one of my anxiety meds hoping it would make me tired and I would pass out. Didn't work as good as I had hoped. But what can you do? How to you push away or otherwise fight something you can't see or touch but that can see and touch you? God how I wish these ghosts were just a hallucination that I could take something for and be done with it. -Stanley
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What about a shaman?
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Stanley I have no experience in this area however what you're experiencing sounds quite scary. (Just in time for Halloween!)
In all seriousness do you have any other means for financial support? -family that could help pay for some type of exercisum sp.? I have a friend who's friends with the woman who went to the amittyville sp? house. Her and her husband are known across the world in this type of work (paranormal). Her husband has passed but perhaps you could contact her and see what suggestions she has? Also have you tried getting holly water on your own and using it? I would think there is someone out there willing to take on a case pro bono. Not sure where you live but the paranormal person that's famous lives in CT/New England.
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Hi Stanley
You are way outside of anything I can give advice on, but you asked for support and that I can do. I am sorry it is (insert favorite expletive here) awful. I hope you find some relief soon. I am sending lots of love and good thoughts your way |
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Perhaps addressing the sleep aspect of the problem might help. I'm thinking advice or treatment offered to people with "night terrors" could be of value. ![]()
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OP, is this something that might be possible? |
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I see and hear things and can imagine a bit of what is happening. Your case sounds so severe. I wish you the best and hope you find answers soon.
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Hello Everyone,
No, it's not night terrors. It happens all hours of the day and night, not just in bed. I can be sitting at my computer wide awake and will suddenly feel my privates being fondled or feel my bottom being touched and such. So I know it isn't something I am dreaming, or waking up half asleep. With sleeping, it's not just the ghosts making it hard. I also have PTSD. So if it isn't the ghost, it's a nightmare of waking me up. But today I am hoping for some good news. I finally got into contact with a medium 4 hours drive from me, but she happens to come to my town from time to time. Her assistant got in contact with me yesterday saying the medium read my letter and knows exactly what's attacking me and how to get rid of it. The problem is her rates. $300.00 a hour. I explained I was on disability and would need several months to save up that kind of money. She writes back saying she's going to give me a call today. Part of me is hoping because the attacks are life threatening cutting off my airway and effecting my heart that she will give a special rate. At the very least I hope she can tell me what the spirit is. I figure at least then I can do research on that type of spirit. I am 90% sure she's going to tell me it's a succubus. A entity that gets energy from having sex with humans. Some I read about online are quite violent. One woman said one attacked her by physically holding her down to the bed, grabbing her breasts, kissing her and rape. Similar to mine, but that mine doesn't physical hold me down to the bed. Although it clearly has the ability. Yesterday morning around 2am was a scary attack. Not because of the rape, but because of the level of power. The entity had the power to depress the mattress down to the support bar. As if someone was putting their knee on the mattress between my legs that weights 400 or so pounds. It was quite scary to feel the mattress be pressed down to such a far degree to hit the support bar. Which means the springs in the hospital bed were stretched WAY out to be able to touch the support bar. So what worries me is if it can depress the mattress down so far, then it makes me wonder just what it can do to me if I really pissed it off in some way. But I think it doesn't want to kill me out right because they it couldn't rape me. In the end, I am hoping the medium calls today and is able to be of some help. I would gladly save up the 300 if it meant that I could be rid of this entity. The other spirit is different. It's gentle and caring. During my nap yesterday he laid on the left side of the bed and was holding my arm stroking up and down my arm from my elbow to my shoulder part of my arm. He laid there for a good almost 2 hours. Then I felt him get up and leave. Him I wouldn't mine hanging around, he doesn't harm me. But the other one does. I just want to go back to being able to be left alone. To lay down and be able to go to sleep without fear of being touched and stuff. I know you all don't know how to help, or even can relate. But I thank you for the support. -Stanley
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Stanley I'm glad you found someone who can help you. How did you find them?
Do you have any family/relatives/friends that would lend you the money? The $300 an hour. Is that billable from the time she gets in her car to drive 4 hours to your place? Or is the $300 only billed when she gets to your home? - if so the cost makes sense as that's a lot of travel time. Keep us posted!
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Just looked up the term and found this link: http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Incubus
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Hi
Have you found the help you are looking for? Have you tried the Sylvia Browne Corporation. I think its based in California. I hope you find someone to help you soon.
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Hello All,
I found the woman by looking up mediums in ReddingCalifornia. Her information came up. I know most are expensive. I was hoping with the attacks being life threatening that they could give a reduced rate. But sadly some are only about making money. 300 a hour IS pretty up there. While I have yet to speak to a medium, I got a tip from a TV show that's been helpful. I was watching a episode of the scariest places on earth. It was about a bar that used to be a man's house in like the 1900's. The man and his daughter who died still haunt the place. The now owner of the bar said a medium told him to get a candle, one for each of the spirits haunting the place and to light them each day. He said it helped. So I tried it. I got a white candle meaning peace, and then a candle for each of the two spirits haunting me. It's knocked down the attacks to about half. Accept for today. I was laying on my stomach. He got on me and raped me while rubbing my butt cheeks. The attack lasted 10 minutes. The other spirit I call “top hat guy” (because he is wearing a top hat in the picture of him I captured) is different. He seems to think of me as his boyfriend or something. Although he rapes me too, he’s more touchy feely. The other night he laid next to me in bed for two hours. He was holding my arm and was stroking/rubbing my arm from the shoulder to the elbow kind of area. After about two hours he vanished. He’s also held me like a child. Putting his hand under my back, and legs as if I was a baby. I won’t lie, it was comforting being that one of my hobbies is as a adult baby role playing as a toddler. But still disturbing to be held by someone you can’t see. About the suggestion about family loaning me the money, only 1 person out of my family even talks to me. And that relationship is already strained as she was responsible for MUCH of the child abuse growing up. Not that she would loan me money anyway. Nor do I want to be in a situation to owe her anything even if she would loan it. I hate being in such a position with her as she will use it later. “You have to do this or that because you owe me, remember when I did this or that?”. Yea. And don’t have any credit cards either. So just have to wait till I can save up enough to do it. And for the price, the price is per hour. I am only charged for the time we talk, not travel time too. She has a office here in Redding, so the appointment would be for one of the days she’s here in town. Till then I just have to hope the candles help and keeping the attacks to a reduced rate. About anyone else, I have tried everywhere. I even wrote the Long Island Medium show. They never replied. I did once get a paranormal group from here in ShastaCounty to come. Had to explain my odd furniture, but they still took the case. It was a husband/wife team. They stayed from 8pm until 2am. They set up multiple camera’s and some audio recorders. In the end, nothing was caught on tape. But both of them had a experience being touched. The husband was sitting next to me and could feel the sofa cushions being lifted and let down. Just not to a high enough degree to be caught by the camera. And the wife was holding a handi-cam when she was touched. One of the ghosts grabbed her hand with a decent amount of force that she jumped back and screamed. But again, wasn’t caught on tape. So in the end, although they experienced the activity, they said nothing could be done since none of it was caught on tape and thus unable to have physical PROOF. Nothing else has been of help thus far. I am just going to have to keep dealing with the attacks and wait until I have the money to pay for the session so I can find out what to do to make the attacks stop once and for all. Thanks for the suggestions though everyone. And for the supportive messages. ![]() -Stanley
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