Just blah

I'm fed up. Fed up with feeling this way. Fed up with stinking depression. Sometimes I feel like I might be getting somewhere and then I get reminded that I'm not. I go through so many emotions in a week sometimes. Or just simply in a day. Or an hour. And I am so sick of it. I want to wake up in the morning and know how the day will end up. Because I just don't have a clue. I want to wake up feeling good and stay good. But it just never happens.

I feel invisible.

I am sorry you feel this way. It's not fun not knowing what to expect! I have been feeling this way for awhile but I am just now feeling like my life is getting back on track, so I can say that it does get better with time! I have found some supplements that have helped me a great deal over the last week. I know this is not the place for medicine discussion but if you're open to it and haven't tried it, SAM-e might help. It's done wonders for my depression in only a weeks time.

I hope you feel better! Hang in there.

What is SAM-e?

You sound like yr really having a hard time with this horrible illness. I'm so sorry. I really do understand the ups and downs. I was in a terrible 4 month depressive episode, then for about the last 4 days I was feeling really good. Then today I got this overwhelming anxiety that I can't shake. Depression usually follows. I am right there with you...why can't we be happy and stay that way!? Yr not invisible to us here. :-) have you seen yr pdoc lately? Maybe a tweak in yr meds? I hope you feel better soon. I do care. If you want to pm me to chat feel free.

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I'm sorry but thankful you get it. I really am glad though that you've have a good few days My meds are gonna be increased, but I have to wait a week yet until the GP sorts it for me.

Aww thank you. I'm so glad we can be here to help and support eachother. I'm sorry you have to wait a whole week till yr appt with yr GP. What meds are you taking?

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I'm taking depakote. I've been on a really low dose and they finally agreed to increase it so now I'm just waiting for that to happen.

Ya I know that one. I wish I didn't have to be on so many meds. Yr lucky to just take one. Hopefully increasing the dose will help you.

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I used to be on four and then stopped them all and now starting again! I hope it helps too, time will tell

Wake up feeling good? What's that?
((((((secretwhisper)))))).
Hope you had a better day today. tomorrow.

I understand what you mean. I also sometimes think things are getting better, or will get better soon, then I somehow am back to *hopeless*.
And I know, I can wake up one morning in a great mood, then I'll get a call from my mom complaining to me, then the rest of my day is sad and despondent.
So, know that you aren't alone in what you are going through... I think somehow there must be a way out of this.

I hear you with wanting to wake up and know how the day will end, or, actually how the day will go. I'm pretty confident the day will end with depression.

Hi Secretwhisper: Mostly I'm just depressed... depressed all of the time. But every so often, for no apparent reason, I suddenly feel... well... NORMAL! This may last for a few hours... generally not more than a day. But during that time I have this weird sense of loss; because I can look back over all of the time while I was depressed & realize how much I could have done if I had been well but couldn't because my head was so "sick". It's just odd...