Overwhelmed

This is the worst day on record. It would seem that my inability to live life correctly is catching up to me. I've got rent due, with no obvious solution like the last times, and I've exhausted all my friends with my quote "Laziness". Truthfully, I would love for it to be laziness that kept me from work, because then I'd know how to combat it. Currently I don't work because depression crushes me everyday I wake up. I'm unable to move for hours until my body finally craves food enough that I get up.

I'm incredibly stressed out, and seeking help for things that may or may not work out. I can't handle doing this on my own. I've got 24 hours to figure some things out that I should have been thinking about long before this. How does living slip my mind? I don't know how, but I'm screwed now. Oh man. I should have gone to that Therapist this week (I bailed on that commitment, like I do all others). Sorry for wasting everyones time with this post.

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I'm sorry you are in this situation. Since your depression is so severe, I suggest that you contact your T immediately for some guidance. If you are so unable to take care of yourself due to depression, then you might need meds and perhaps hospitalization. I'm sure the rent being paid isn't the only big issue for you.

I'm also sorry that you've burned out your friends, whether they understand depression or not. I hope you can speak to your landlord at least.

It isn't the end of the world, but perhaps the end of living this way? Do your best.

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Oh Forsaken,

Sweetie, I'm so sorry that you are having rough times.

I completely understand how you are feeling. I was that way just a few months back. You slip into that deep hole and just keep falling down and down with no bottom in sight.

I use to stay in bed with the curtains closed, the doors locked and the phones off the hook. I didn't want to talk to anyone or see anyone. Not even my family.

I've been there and know where you are coming from. Don't give up. You have to fight. Fight like you've never fought before.

Call your T. and explain to them that you missed your appt. because the depression is so severe. Perhaps, if you talked to your landlord, they would be understanding?

Are you on any anti-depressants? That helped me more than anything. The doc has me on two different ones and they saved me.

I am glad that you are at least posting. You need someone to talk to. Do you have any churches that might donate to you for your rent? Sometimes they will do that.

If your friends truly are your friends, they will forgive you for what you have done. It isn't you doing it, it's the depression.

Depression can eat you up. Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing. We care about you and what happens to you.

Sending you gently hugs,
Boopers

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How are you doing now?

You're NEVER wasting anyone's time by talking - we're here to listen and help if we can.

Sorry you're having a hard time right now. Take care of yourself.

I am having some of the same problems that you are. I was just about to write a post about it and saw that you are going through almost the same thing. I am not working due to major depression. I haven't worked in almost 2 years, I had a complete breakdown and cut practically everyone out of my life and stopped functioning and doing the things I need to do. I live with my bf and he has just about had it with me. Depression or not, I need to be working. My friends and family kind of got sick of my negativity and whining I guess and distanced themselves from me. There are a few that continued to hang in there with me. I unfortunately don't have answers for you because I can't help my own self. Just letting you know your not alone and I can relate. I hope things get better for you. Hopefully there are some services in your area that can help with things while you are trying to get back on youf feet.

Take Care

Bree Marie.

Thank you everyone for your responses and concern (Not really sure how to respond to many of them, other than to say it helps to hear encouraging things). I'm doing much better for now, but with Monday approaching my mind has already started to create reasons not to go to work. I have to go. It's a dire situation. I'm not going to have a second chance like this last month. It seems that I'm probably only still living in a home because I'm young, and still connected to people. What happens when gaps in friendships start happening, and my parents stop caring? I worry heavily for my future.

Breemarie. I feel so inadequate trying to help you. What makes it harder is that I don't know you personally. I imagine I'm going to have a hard time dealing with the fact that I won't be able to physically help anyone, and can only offer my help in words. Too me, words are not as good as action, and for that I am sorry. I've always thought that if I had someone to support, I could go to work more consitently, knowing that someone else was dependant on me. I don't care enough about myself to be motivated to go. I'm sure you can understand that when you are depressed, it's hard to care about anything.