[glok]

[Hellion]

Kinda crappy...tried getting some feelings out on forums, but didn't really make much difference usually when I really need feedback or something that is when I post things that are too much for people to know of anything to say. Sometimes I wish it was set up so you cannot see how many views you have on a post...this should go for all sites so one does not have to see like 200 views with no or maybe 2 responses wouldn't one feel better without the knowledge so many people looked but had nothing to say.

I know, I know sometimes people don't know what to say, I always see stuff I am not sure how to respond to...but my brain tells me there are so many views and so few responses because no one cares rather than that perhaps its more a case of people looking, not knowing quite what to say so going on to another thread....so I have the more realistic perspective in my mind as well as the 'oh no it must mean everyone hates me and no one cares' at the same time.

meh such is life.

Existential Depression, that is what is up.

[hope2010]

Hello, I am a little up today. A little less pain from post-op and a little more energy.
So today is the "A Little More Everything Day"
The reason I believe in seem a pdoc and a therapist is because I am a living proof that when the pdoc with my help get the right dose of medication its work. But is also true that in my case only work for a while, later comes the down and I don't need to change medication, but I do change the dose by my pdoc. I called the days of shadows, and later all gets better, and later all gets worse again.

Today till now that is about 3:00 pm Central Time, I can't believe how well am doing.
I went to my radiation treatment, I get up after only 7 hours slept, and am not tired yet.

I better enjoy this feeling because "winter's coming".

[tigerlily84]

I haven't slept in days.

[TheOriginalMe]

I'm a bit numb now, but I had a busy day and on the whole I was OK. BUT, there is a nagging discontent that I can't pin down, I feel like I'm running out of time, but for what I don't know.

[Rose76]

Got down yesterday. Even went to bed early. But I guess I was tired. Just rested all day today and enjoyed it. This doesn't seem to be snowballing into real depression. For that I'm real glad.

[vans1974]

I'm in a mixed state

[SeekerOfLife]

The depression is not as bad today. T reminded me to keep making efforts to exercise. It is hard, due to the depression itself and due to poor time management (thats my ADHD kicking in).

[glok]

[aprillynn197]

Feeling like sleeping off the negativity but is cripplingg when I wake

Tomorrow please come and go without me realising, just be done with it.

[odysseyofnoises]

Today was better than yesterday for me. Just feeling not-so-good lately. Only thing I feel is worth living for anymore for me is Doom and especially waiting for the gzdoom multiplayer update on D-touch for android.

It was a fairly slow day at work and kind of a weird one. I got an email from someone at work telling me that I should have notified him when a printer came for him. I just forgot because he's a new guy. I think that he may have just wanted to make a point and may have not been mad, but I took it like he was very angry with me and it hurt. I feel like I get hurt pretty easily. Of course, texting can do that more than a face to face meeting.

For some strange reason I started to feel very low when I was working out with the weights. On top of that, it was very hot. I have mentioned before on here that hot weather depresses me. While working out, I felt like I was going to cry. I also felt hurt a little bit. I guess it was because I was feeling anxious and depressed. I don't know why I felt depressed. But I had to be proud of myself to have made it through the workout and now I'm not hurting one bit!

It helped to have gone to the pool area tonight to relax and swim a little bit. No one was there, which was a big surprise to me on a night like this. But, I'm not complaining!

[Grey Matter]

Family stress is eating at me. My doctor wont refill my zoloft. I am in too much physical pain to do much of anything eh.

[Hellion]

I should sleep, but I don't really feel like it...I could take some trazodone, and try to pass out watching a movie or something, don't really see myself falling asleep laying alone in quiet darkness for some reason. Though I know if I take the trazodone I'll need like 3 cups of strongblack tea or coffee in the morning.

[glok]

[redxovelvet]

Sad. * shrug*

[IllogicalNebula]

Just called in sick to work again. Going to see a doctor today. I have to. I'm not going to keep sitting idle waiting for it to pass again. Something has been wrong with me for years and it's time I find an answer.

[herethennow]

down. down. down.
self loathing at it's peak.
emptiness prevalent.
urges to sui and si are overwhelming.
hate being here.

i can't seem to find a sense of closure over my friend's passing. it's eating away at me.

concentration sucks. when i look at the things i have to do, how there's an essay due next week... all i wanna do is huddle in a corner and cry. i dont feel like going to school anymore. what's even better? exams are around the corner.

what's even even better? i look like the cheerful herethennow who doesn't seem to have a problem in the world. tired of this facade. i just wanna strip it off.

[Roxygirl816]

Trying to stay positive but feeling really down and I don't know why. Guess I'm just feeling depressed for no reason again which is so frustrating cause then there's nothing to try to fix.

[dandylin]

Had an overnight guest last night. Felt good about returning a favor. Also went out to a Nepalese restaurant last night and really enjoyed the meal

Today I am trying to figure out how to find my place in this new town. I want so much to give back in this life

I just wish I had a friend to comfort me right now.

[aprillynn197]

Today is a better day but still a little stressed

[Espresso]

Am I depressed? I don't know. I really don't know. My therapist thinks I am, but I have trouble accepting that assessment since she only sees me for an hour every couple/few weeks. The problem is, I can't assess myself or my mood, so I have no idea what to think.