[Bark]

I'm so sorry for your losses, herethennow.

It gets better. Then it comes back. Some of it is in your control, some of it not. Knowing someone close to you is burning bridges and holding grudges and ruining their own life without realizing it... and that all your efforts to help them seem pointless....

Comes and goes, my friends, comes and goes. Best you can do is hold on tight and ride it out.

sigh.

[tigerlily84]

Just had a difficult T session. I miss feeling numb.

[TheOriginalMe]

Hormonal grrrrrr a lot better, I wish my skin was as quick to get over it I mean in two months time I'm 50, so why has my skin started behaving like a 15 year old? I wish my joints felt 15 and not 50.

Originally Posted by TheOriginalMe

Hormonal grrrrrr a lot better, I wish my skin was as quick to get over it I mean in two months time I'm 50, so why has my skin started behaving like a 15 year old? I wish my joints felt 15 and not 50.

Are you talking about pimples on your skin at your age? Well, I've been getting them, too at my age. I am a bit older than you. It's unbelievable! On top of that, I have a little bit of sun damage on my face. From years of being in the sun. There was a time when I was much younger that there was no warning about getting too much sun.

[Rose76]

I'm still doing pretty good. It's been awhile now.

I hope a long interval of doing good doesn't portend an awful crash up ahead. I just have to not let myself get too thrown when something troubling does happen . . . as happens sooner or later for everyone.

Being quite busy care-tending my ill friend seems to be keeping me focused in a positive way. I guess I was needing a job, and now I have one.

[glok]

[dandylin]

Tumbling into the darkness

[SeekerOfLife]

Feel like I am slowly being sucked down the drain.

[regretful]

I can't make sense of this anymore. I've never been this miserable for this long. I feel like such a failure and an utter disappointment to my son and my wife. Depression results from these feelings, and these feelings result from depression.

[herethennow]

with every episode i just get tired. being the noncompliant patient. i don't feel like fighting anymore. at least for now.

i'm still grieving. i looked over for my friend's messages. god i feel so confused.

everything has just been such a whirlwind here and while i've been following normal protocol to see pdoc regularly, i don't connect with pdoc. i just don't feel empathy in him. he doesn't seem to believe me either, that i'm just really down. thinking of just pushing back the appt even. god i don't know what i even want.

i'm just tired. i don't want to be in this mess. i hate depression. i hate it when it robs me of my life.

[glok]

[lilypup]

No depression today, thank god!

[Nammu]

Status quo ante

[TheOriginalMe]

Not feeling well, so I curled up on the sofa hoping to sleep. Didn't sleep, just a few weeks ago I could sleep all day if I wanted. I'm not sure I like getting better if I can't have an afternoon nap.

[hope2010]

I am so tired from radiation therapy and sad because I can't help my loves ones, all I can do is rest and wait to get better physically ... sad and high anxiety

Dropping, it's coming

[tigerlily84]

I won't be able to continue seeing the T that I have been going to because he's not on the provider list under my insurance. My work has an SEP program and I get 6 sessions for free, so that's the only reason why I'm seeing him now. He's arguably the best T I have ever been to. And I have two sessions to go. I'm having a hard time seeing the purpose is of dredging up difficult subjects. My problems can't be solved in 6 sessions, that's for sure.

[Roxygirl816]

I'm actually doing OK today. Had a great session with my T, but now I'm sliding back down again.

[Maskon]

Feel like worthless crap. Changed meds, playing the waiting game. Feel utterly alone. Hanging on by a thread.

[nakitakunai]

I feel dead inside.

[ChildlikeEmpress]

I'm doing pretty well today. Maybe because we got out of the house and went grocery shopping, and oddly I love grocery shopping. At least when I have money for it! I got a little uncomfortable in the crowds but did well.

[Steiner of Thule]

Was an okay day. Felt like a lot of conflicts but overall I didn't feel too bad actually. Some anxiety here and there. A little pissed off but trying to keep my chill. Trying to calm myself. People are probably thinking ill of me for my words but I say **** em. That is all there is to it.

[glok]

[dandylin]

New move, new insurance, my old t doesn't take my new insurance and she was willing to do phone or skype sessions. How do you explain all this stuff to someone new?

I had a better than usual day, until now.....