[SnailLover]

I don't have any ups today. Just tired of my terrible room mates, feeling like I can't be there for my husband on his bad days and an email from a friend of mine with Lupus upset me today. She's trying to find a person that she can give a list of names to to contact if she dies

[TheLastChapter]

I am so tired. I just want to sleep. Classes are draining me. I am slowing falling again. Had a break down last night. Maybe it just rolled over to today.

[Fuzzybear]

[Bark]

Feeling better today. Lots of things to distract me and stress me out, but it looks like restarting the med helped. Guess it wasn't a placebo after all (still could be, but now I'm doubtful). Tiredness is still the same, maybe somewhat worse. And I need to do the dishes among other things, but... meh. Still lacking the motivation and energy. I'd be asleep by now if I had the energy to get up and brush my teeth.

I think I spoke too soon about feeling better from ECT. Back to feeling like crap again. I'm so very tired of feeling this way. When will it end?

Well, I just talked to my ECT psychiatrist and he said that it's not usually until the 6th - 8th treatment that people will start to feel better. Tomorrow's treatment number 4 so I will have to be patient.

[SoupDragon]

Right now I have had enough. I hate feeling like this and don't know how to make it stop.

[tigerlily84]

I return to work tomorrow after 6 weeks off. I've been applying for jobs all day today and yesterday. I will do this. I can. And I have this job, even if I don't like it. I'm going to try to make a list of things I can do or focus on in order to survive at my current job while I am looking for a new one.

So today I finally started the job of cleaning my room. I've actually been meaning to do this for over a month now, but never felt "up to it" I guess - don't know whether to blame it on depression or just plain laziness. But anyway, this morning I took a look around my room and suddenly I decided that I was tired of it being the way it was. I got to work at around 11:30 with the intention of starting small, and ended up doing way more than I thought I would. Of course, I didn't clean the entire place because that would've been too big a job for one day. But now my window seat is clean and straightened up and my bookshelf is arranged and everything looks a lot better. Even doing that little bit has made a big difference. Now I'm feeling tired. Pretty much done for the night.
Tomorrow I tackle my dressers and bedside table.

[Jom Tones]

Elisha Graves Otis knew about ups and downs.

[TheOriginalMe]

Originally Posted by tigerlily84

I go back to work soon and I am freaking out.

Good luck. I've been back a week and I'm still freaking out. I just can't see it lasting, but I've got to do it I have bills to pay. Take it as slowly as you can.

[TheOriginalMe]

I have been weepy and anxious today. Horrible.

[waterknob1234]

I see I am not the only person dealing with pain and heartache from work. I give my best wishes to TheOriginalMe and tigerlily. Somehow all of us working in difficult circumstances, we will make it.

Today was a pretty good day today. I'm on vacation from work this week. Today I took my friend to his Urologist. It did not take very long as it was just a consultation. And then we had lunch and talked awhile. Also he was nice to let me do my laundry at his house.

[regretful]

With the overwhelming feelings of having ruined my life, I continue with this monumental depression...giving the meds a chance; I'm not crying; I'm not having any side-effects, but I'm not feeling any better. I don't see any end to this misery.

My depression is bad today. I honestly don't know how much more of this I can take. Having some sui ideation.

It's been 14 months since my last depression...it's an amazing thing! I cannot believe how I totally cheated myself out of this kind of life by not acting sooner to resolve it.
But I suppose that is part of the depression trap....I was down on myself, didn't feel worth it, hated myself, gave myself permission to wreak more havoc on my life, which only made the depression worse....plus the bipolar II stuff didn't make it any easier!
I thank God every day that I am as "normal" as I am these days.
And to think it took me 30 years to get tired of the depression. I must be crazy LOL.

[hope2010]

I am getting a cold, all I need now is having a cold and I got one ... sighs

Today, I am very anxious, I have Doctor appointment in 2 hours, seeing my Oncologist always made me feel like some horrible news may come alone with the visit ... It is all about Chronic Anxiety and I know that, but I still have the anxiety anyway.

I am so weak that am going to drive to my appointment and see if my doc find out what is making me so sick. I probably got the cold from the hospital. I stayed there for 6 days till last Sunday, taking care of my husband. Yesterday I cried a lot, till the anxiety gave me a little break. Now everything start over again, a new day, a new challenge , one step at the time, I Have to Make it!
Get in the shower, get dress, drive, get to the appointment, Blood test, wait and wait, doc come over, talk, check, prescribe, go to the Pharmacy, come back home ... Seems like something so easy, but for me is like running a marathon today.

[hope2010]

Originally Posted by TheOriginalMe

I have been weepy and anxious today. Horrible.

I am the same, yesterday and today, all I want is to stop!
Stop the anxiety, stop the worries about my financial situation, my health related to post cancer, my husband ( partner) sick too, yesterday night I thought that I will not make it to my appointment today.

I have to get ready and is like - where am I going to find the strength to do all I have to do?

Tomorrow I have to drive on the crazy Highways again to the Hospital, I am just sick and tired, but I have to do it all. I am not giving up!
Hugs to all,

[Bark]

New thread: http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...read-12-a.html

[Rose76]

I'm not doing as well as I was. Care-taking someone who does not live with me is getting to be more and more of a challenge. The amount of time that he can be left alone gets smaller and smaller.