[aprillynn197]

Originally Posted by Shriveled Muse

I feel like depression made me stupid and dulled all my skills. I literally can't understand this article that I'm trying to read and I can't perform nearly as well as I used to. But then again, am I just making excuses for my incompetence?

I'm having the same issue. I lost all my artistic inspiration due to depression. All I do now is eat.

[aprillynn197]

Originally Posted by Shriveled Muse

I feel like depression made me stupid and dulled all my skills. I literally can't understand this article that I'm trying to read and I can't perform nearly as well as I used to. But then again, am I just making excuses for my incompetence?

I'm having the same issue. I lost all my artistic inspiration due to depression. All I do now is eat.

[Clara22]

I will have a surgery on Thursday. It is a difficult one. They will remove a bone but I cannot have a hip replacement. I had to fight for the doctors to do a seminar on my case. They did it and that was the recommendation of the seminar. I am mentally stable and calm so far, trying to live in the present moment. Fluoxetine and therapy are working well. The support gotten in this group is important, as well.

[TheLastChapter]

Havent been on in a while. I just get busy or too upset to do anything anymore. Its so hard. My emotions are going crazy. I am super happy that my long distance boyfriend is back home, but it is also hard because I know that I have to still go to school. And deal with a lot of other things. He does make things better, but he came back to a different person. A person who feels like getting dressed in the morning is a huge accomplishment. I love being around him because he instantly knows how to make me feel better. But he also has never been around me while I have had a panic or anxiety attack. I try to explain it all to him, but he just keeps saying, well you never had that when we first got together. Well that was well over two years ago. I have changed and accepted how I am and my illness now. I just dont hide it anymore. I guess what I am saying is that I am doing better than ever I think. Its just when I am low, the low seems lower than ever before. Just gotta keep on moving. And try to get through it all. Christmas break is coming soon. Only two more weeks of school and I will be done.

Got out of the house today, although it was only to help my mom carry groceries from the dollar store. Again, it's cloudy (will I ever see the sun again?) which makes me depressed. Walking and getting fresh air has helped me some, although it was cold. But seeing everything dead and brown and barren, along with the cloudy skies, has seemed to negate all that.

[TheOriginalMe]

I'm blaming myself about the situation at work. I had so much time off, of course they don't value me. I'm angry that they messed with me for 9 weeks, pretending that they would help and now they are going to get rid of me. Although I am angry with them, I know that I made it easy for them to treat me like this.

[Rose76]

I'm awfully down.

[kultking]

Woke up in a terribly down mood and almost called off work again, but I forced myself out of bed and into work. Had a nice little chat with a coworker who brought my spirits up a bit so I'm hoping I'll be ok by the end of the day.

[Rose76]

Last couple of days have been miserable.

[regretful]

Checking in with the persisting depression...

[VMblue]

I thought I was doing better. Why do I hurt so much?

Been feeling awful...I am depressed and having nothing to help me. At least I got to see the sun today, and cuddles from Chloe kitty...but I am still depressed.

[spaceid]

I'm so mad at myself right now. This is going to bother me for awhile. Why can't I just forgive myself for making mistakes.

[TheOriginalMe]

Some of the symptoms I get with depression are hard to understand, like why are bright lights and loud noises physically painful? Normally, I don't feel the cold much, but today it has been painful, just like loud noises and bright lights can make me feel, an intense gripping pain all over my body, a pain that won't let go.

[boomerango]

Originally Posted by TheOriginalMe

Some of the symptoms I get with depression are hard to understand, like why are bright lights and loud noises physically painful? Normally, I don't feel the cold much, but today it has been painful, just like loud noises and bright lights can make me feel, an intense gripping pain all over my body, a pain that won't let go.

Almost sounds like a body migraine? Check with Dr? Could it be an illness besides depression?

[waterknob1234]

Originally Posted by TheOriginalMe

Some of the symptoms I get with depression are hard to understand, like why are bright lights and loud noises physically painful? Normally, I don't feel the cold much, but today it has been painful, just like loud noises and bright lights can make me feel, an intense gripping pain all over my body, a pain that won't let go.

Bright lights and loud noises were horrible when I was having migraines. I still can live better without loud noises.

[waterknob1234]

So seriously busy at work. I am exhausted and arthritis is killing me.

[AbsurdBlackBear]

Feel like my life is a lost cause.

[paperwings13]

Urgh. So mad because my sleep schedule is messed up. Had a bad anxiety attack today too, which didn't help. The medicine always makes me so tired!

[BubonicPlague]

Single forever.

No one to hug, kiss, be held by, or have fun with.

I'm meant to be this way.

Two men who couldn't handle being with me, they just dwell on their own problems!

I'm crying as of now...

It's not fair, it's just not fair!!!

[paperwings13]

Originally Posted by BubonicPlague

Single forever.

No one to hug, kiss, be held by, or have fun with.

I'm meant to be this way.

Two men who couldn't handle being with me, they just dwell on their own problems!

I'm crying as of now...

It's not fair, it's just not fair!!!

it's hard. I've been there.

[lonely-and-sad]

Originally Posted by BubonicPlague

Single forever.

No one to hug, kiss, be held by, or have fun with.

I'm meant to be this way.

Two men who couldn't handle being with me, they just dwell on their own problems!

I'm crying as of now...

It's not fair, it's just not fair!!!

I am like this except I am male. I am attractive enough (I am 91 kg at 8% body fat and I look at least 5 years younger than my real age) but it makes no difference. I can't get a date.

[paperwings13]

Originally Posted by lonely-and-sad

I am like this except I am male. I am attractive enough (I am 91 kg at 8% body fat and I look at least 5 years younger than my real age) but it makes no difference. I can't get a date.

Come to America! Girls go crazy over an Australian accent! Lol.

But seriously, its hard. Hope things get better.

More clouds, more depression. I want to be done with all this. Every day is the same.

[regretful]

Woke up thinking "what did I do to deserve this misery?" ... Depression, frustration, and the feeling of a wasted life.