Everything seems bleh

and I know it seems bleh cos I have depression but lately its seemed alot worse. There was a time not too long ago where my life was looking up and I was recovering but now its all gone downhill again.
I had a fulltime job, not for long though as it stressed me out, my anxiety got worse and they didn't treat me too well either.
I have a boyfriend, things used to be sooo great, it all seemed like it was working out and going on the right path etc... now i'm not so sure. I think i stress him out being depressed... I can't do anything right lately.
The future is starting to look dim again.. I don't see myself going anywhere and I feel like the ppl close to me are just disappearing. I really wonder is this just the depression talking or are my instincts correct about the things in my life?

i feel the same nicole.. and i know for me its the depression.. ive been taken off my meds cos they made me real physically sick and cant go back on em till it all gets checked out and i really did lose my job and my guy just wont speak to me is out of town too so that makes it harder i just feel so crappy i feel so much worse not that i felt all that better on the meds but they just took the edge off sorry i cant help u by saying that things will be fine but i can tell you to savor the times where uve felt better and realize that it is possible because thats all that can keep me going at times..
hope u get out of this black ditch soon cos it sucks...