I don't see the point anymore

Hi,
This is the first forum that I have been in and so this is a little strange for me, but anyway I'm a 19 year old from England. Within the past 6 months I lost my best friend and since then I've suffered from thoughts of hurting myself but most importantly of ending my life. This didn't just spring up out of no where I tried to harm myself when I was 15, I just thought I had everything under control. It's got to a point now where my Dr gave my work a note telling them that I couldn't work over Christmas as I am showing symptoms of depression and severe stress. I suffer pretty bad with low self esteem issues and I am starting to get paranoid of everyone around me, are they real friends or fake? I've been let down so much that I don't know if I am truly alone anymore and its scary. I keep getting let down and it makes the thought of harming myself a good one. Can anyone help?
-Lostgirl1995

Hi, Lostgirl. Just wanted to drop by to say that harming yourself is never the answer to solve temporary problems, and in any context, "temporary" doesn't mean a couple of hours/days. Once you get out of that area, a friendly reminder that probably 99% of the world does not know who you are, there's no need to worry about who's going to get you or not. Do you know anyone else you can trust you? Family, other friends, relatives, internet pals (just in case you don't feel comfortable with a therapist yet)? You can also talk to any other them about your self-esteem issues as well because getting confidence from the right person(s) will help boost your mental health.

Wow, your personal story reads just like my own. And we're practically the same age (I'm 20)! About 7 months ago I lost the greatest friend I ever had, for no good reason. He just stopped answering my texts and emails, and no longer wants to even look at me. No reason was given. Just pretends I don't exist. I'll admit it was impossible to recover at first. I had to skip a semester of school and was admitted to a mental health hospital for suicidal ideation. Today, it is still a little painful, but in time, everything will pass and you will finally be able to move on. Don't let something like this tear you down. You have the ability to let go in time, you just need to be patient with yourself. This may seem enormous to you now, but in the future this will only be a footnote. Best

Hi Lostgirl,

See post #74 of this thread. It's got what I think is the best plan for dealing with depression.

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html

- vital

Thanks for your reply, I'm too much of a coward to even harm myself so no need to worry about that. I am having a serious issue with trusting anybody I don't feel I can and it is the worst feeling in the world when you're surrounded by a society where you see friendships and love all around you. So far I've found even discussing body self esteem issues with friends to be a waste of time, my issues are deemed valid because they see me as "skinny" and therefore I should shut up. No idea where to head to next.

Thanks for the message! Erm I think our situations with besties are slightly different my best friend died aged 19 suddenly and she was my world. I think I've always had mental health problems (undiagnosed) as I tried to harm myself in the past it was just amplified with the loss of someone so close and loved by me to a point that joining her sounded like a good idea. I don't know if it would be deemed as inappropriate and I don't mean to make anyone take offence if they see this but I honestly feel like admission to a mental hospital would help me right now, I'm surrounded by people that don't understand. I need help. :s