I have no reason to continue

05:09 PM

I am writing this because I have no real options. Tired of being a loser yet I don't think I can suicide. Nobody can help . . . trust me I know.

BeaFlower · Feb 24, 2015, 04:55 PM

We can help, at least listening

We are here for you. You aren't a loser. Please let us help you.

Fuzzybear · Feb 24, 2015, 04:58 PM

(((((((( IT ))))))))

Frankbtl · Feb 24, 2015, 05:15 PM

Hi Illegal, I'm really sorry you're finding things so hard right now

And going with "Nobody can help . . . trust me I know".............there can be times when no-one or nothing can help in the sense of "making it go away" but that doesn't need to mean that no-one can help make it just a little/even the tiniest bit easier for you until......just that bit to help you know you're not on your own, others understand, that you're heard, that what you're feeling matters...........and that bit can sometimes add up and add up to give you the strength you need to hang on in there, to find/try different ways to make it through, to slowly move past the way you're feeling in time..............
And this you probably know..........but I've got to say it anyway..........but depression can completely blind you to the options out there, the possibilities.........doesn't mean they're not there though.........and with help with the depression............
And the "loser" bit.........well the depression talking there?? Because you're not a loser, believe I've said that "once or twice" before, right?? And you're still NOT convincing me!!!

So keep on talking to us, hey?? We're here for you!!!

Alison

ManOfConstantSorrow · Feb 24, 2015, 05:31 PM

I am sorry to hear you are suffering. I have always thought your posts most interesting and perceptive. I find it hard to believe you are a 'loser', whatever that might be.

FennecFoxThomas · Feb 25, 2015, 08:13 AM

You've inspired me to be more honest.

Rohag · Feb 25, 2015, 10:23 AM

*frustrated*

Don't want you to go.
Don't want you in pain.
Can't help.

((((((( IT )))))))

ArthurDent · Feb 25, 2015, 10:35 AM

IT, my opinion doesn't mean crap, but I'm going to share it anyway. You aren't a looser. I enjoy you. You make me laugh my @ss off, and the gift of humor is priceless. I look forward to the things you post.

I'm sorry you're feeling crappy. I consider you my friend, and wish I could do more than post silly cat pictures to make you know I appreciate you.

ETA: Have you ever thought about being a stand-up comedian? You'd rock at that. You have a gift.

vital · Feb 25, 2015, 10:41 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Illegal Toilet

I am writing this because I have no real options. Tired of being a loser yet I don't think I can suicide. Nobody can help . . . trust me I know.

You know, IT, I honestly don't believe that anyone is doomed to unhappiness by their past or by their genes or by how they were brought up. I'm not being optimistic just to make you feel better. I think I'm really right about that. I think that depression is caused by a specific process that's going on in your head right now. Once you understand what it is and how to stop from doing it, you can get better.

- vital

Feb 25, 2015, 09:20 PM

Thank you all for your replies , I guess I will continue to fight this demon.

Marla500 · Feb 25, 2015, 10:46 PM

I second all the thoughts here. I can relate to how you feel but let's all keep each other going. We do love your sense of humor!!

Mar 03, 2015, 05:28 AM

Feeling so depressed today even typing requires an effort. I can only see things getting worse. I feel I should end my life now really and spare myself any further suffering.

eggplantlife · Mar 03, 2015, 06:21 AM

You matter. I haven't seen your posts before but it looks like you help people out here. Keep reaching out. Giving you a hug. Fight this feeling. Talk back to it. You matter and you exist. Keep turning your negative vision to something you are looking forward to. Can be small. Or say or write something you are grateful for. It's hard to do but keep trying. Or just let the feeling ride out. This too shall pass. You matter!!!!

Mar 03, 2015, 07:25 AM

i'm so sorry you're going through such an awful time.

please, please, please don't end your life. this horrible time in your life is merely a blip in your journey. things do get easier. i myself am living proof that it gets better.
you are so worth this. it's desperately painful, but it is indefinite - just like mental illness itself. the darkness really does not last forever.

xxx

Crazy Hitch · Mar 03, 2015, 07:50 AM

Toilet.

I am sorry you are suffering.

You are one of the best things to ever hit chat.

You have the funniest sense of dry humour I have ever heard that I constantly think I want to flush your chain and wash your dirty mouth out in chat

I just see the name "Toilet" in chat and think oh c rap here we go haha

Look.

Life is not always a bed of sunshine.

I know I shoot sunshine and happiness at the moment but the reality is it's not always like this and have I thought what you are thinking before?

Sure.

Of course.

So how the bloody hell are you reading this on the screen right now if I've been where you are and didn't die?

*insert creepy music and a wicked grin*

Toilet.

Listen.

I know you have just seen your therapist but I think that you need to touch base with her to let you know that you are on a downer.

I don't really think that you need to do this alone toilet.

Assistance in real life is always available to you if you need it.

Sure toilet I mean we will support you in chat and the whole of PC will support you here on the forums but please don't feel like you have to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders when there is help available to you if you need it.

Yes yes Toilet if I was saying this to you in chat right now you would put a smile on my face because do you know what you would say to me right now? "You're fired!"

Come on Toilet.

I mean I am not telling what you feel isn't real.

Sure you feel it and yes it sucks.

But you can work through this Toilet.

I want to continue to see you in chat.

Please go fix your plumbing.

You need to adjust this thinking.

And get support in real life if you need to.

We will continue to support you here too as always.

Now go spray deodarant Toilet

I love you in chat Toilet.

YOU'RE HIRED!