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yesterday i got out two checks and put them in the mail that i had been trying to get to for a few weeks. getting out of the house has been even worse, i'm down to only going out for doctor appts. but i did make it to my support group last friday (i already posted that) and yesterday i finally got out for food shopping (my kitchen has gotten pretty bare so i finally had to get food and beverage out of desparation).

today i got out again, this time on my segway, to pick up my rx. it was a little colder today but being out in the air was nice. i am developing a lot of social anxiety: by the time i got out school was letting out so there were tons of kids around, of course they all want to try the segway so i just kept my head down and tried to avoid everyone. i really wasn't up to personal contact with strangers today.

yesterday i got up very late and still took a long afternoon nap, but i was up a little earlier today so far haven't been back to bed. I've been yawning all through this post though but at least i got out so if i nap again i can feel as if it is because of the excursion rather than purely habit.

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Sounds like you are getting out some for food and appointments, as well as on your segway...lol (just have this visual of you being swarmed by kids saying hey mister can I try.....) anyway that would give me the same feeling as you head down and I would be thinking.. oh god no, not today please keep them away...

My T has told me that social anxiety is common for those of us who stay home alone for so long. You said that you go to your support group, that is a good way to interact with people socialy. I am trying my best to be social. It seems that I have to put forth alot of effort to be social, most of the time when I am out I am in the mood of not wanting to be bothered, probubly because it being out itself is already a challange.

Glad to hear you are getting out more and hope you continue to go out. I have been keeping just enough of the "lazy" food, tv dinners on hand to last just a few days so that I have to go out for more or thaw out meat and cook, so I usually end up having to go out. Just a way to force myself out of the house and really once I am out I feel better about it. and it doesn't seem so bad.

have a good day

Take Care,
Kris

(My intentions are sincere, I apologize if I have said the wrong thing, I do care)

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

thanks kris I like what you said, no worrying about second guessing ok!

i usually keep them from swarming me by avoidence... if i see a bunch heading down the block i go the other way or try to stay on the other side of the street. most kids think it is cool and want a ride but there are a few hecklers as well (yesterday was the first time someone yelled at me "hey what is that, a lawnmower?!"

i'd like to get back to showing it to people but i'm not ready for that yet. when i went for training before i got mine the training was not only about how to ride it safely but also how to demo it to other people. the trainers stressed that we should not feel obligated to show it to others, but if we do they want us to show it off the right way. i was one of the first group to have one and they told us they wanted us to be "ambassedors" to the public with them. Most owners give tons of demos, some keep a written log of all the demos they have given.

I've got photos from a while back when a bunch of NY owners got together to meet for anyone interested, at
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I viewed the photos last winter, that is how I actually knew what you were talking about in your post. It looked really neat. I have never seen one other in the pictures on your website. And one in an article of Details magazine awhile ago. Though I can imagine that it is a nice way to get out and enjoy the outdoors when ole artritis and such keep one from walking a great distance. I have got to take that second guess off my sig. I was having a very insecure day when I put that on there. Have a good day

Take Care,
Kris

(My intentions are sincere, I apologize if I have said the wrong thing, I do care)

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

last night i cleaned my kitchen. i got some of the garbage out (bags were starting to pile up to the extent of blocking the door) and even got it to the curb in time for pickup. didn't mop the floor but cleared all the clutter, empty food boxes and garbage, dirty dishes piled up, etc. it looks livable now.

Today i got out on my seg again. It was a nice day. I rode it to the park and read my book for about an hour before coming home.

hope this is a trend. i am going to try not to push it too hard but i'm also going to try to keep it going.

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A high five for you, Dave!! I'm so happy for you! I'll bet it's really fun riding on that seg! I couldn't stay on it longer than the corner. Can't stand that long... so maybe I'll take my scooter and go out for a ride tomorrow morning. I've been kinda down lately. Even working in the garden has been difficult. (Sigh!) This, too, shall pass. Hopefully it will be soon.

Anyway... I'm really happy that you are accomplishing so much! WOW! I'm impressed!





<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

!!!!!! This is really good stuff, I mean major stuff! Hey, I don't have arthritis, and I haven't vacuumed my house in about a month, and there is major dust on my furniture, and laundry piled up all over my bed! I don't think it's depression in my case though, it's just plain ole' procrastination. I hope your streak continues. Those vehicles are really cool, I guess there are some things that Lamarck was wrong about! My mom's arthritis is getting pretty bad, so it's good to know that there is a way she can get around if it comes to that point. P.s., I'm jealous of your computer talent. I'm a very good plumber, but I would like to have your talent. I'm 49 and I don't want to be doing it when I'm over 55. Have a good weekend Dex, Dave Mc.