Urges

I feel terrible I don't know why everything just hurts so much I just want to curl up in a ball and rock back and forth I keep messing everything up and I can't stop thinking about the big S I have been trying for so long I just don't know how much longer I can hold on I am exhausted and I if it weren't for the other people in my head I would have done it by now but they keep making me do stuff and then they get mad at me and I don't know what to do I am struggling to get out of bed each day and I just I feel really bad and I don't know what to do. Everyone is expecting me to do all this stuff but I can't and I just don't know what to do I can't make it stop.

Give yourself a vacation from the future and the past and ignore everything that is not in front of you right now. Try to see, hear, touch, taste and smell deeply. Seek out sensory experiences. Count your breaths. Feel yourself breathing. Go for a walk. Your senses are on your side. Your senses are trying to heal you.

- vital

My senses tend to be overwhelming I am hypersensitive so sometimes they do more damage than help plus at the moment I can't really feel anything I am trying but failing at that too.

Hey eden,

One of these has GOT to work





Nighty-night. Let us know how it's going. - vital

The guys voice in the first one creeped me out so much like I think I might have nightmares creepy and the second one wasn't creepy but it didn't relax me much really.

I just feel really all over the place and can't focus for long I don't feel right . I'm sorry.

I have had those days of not wanting to get out of bed. Negative voices are hard to deal with. You find yourself arguing with them. Hang in there. Seek out a pleasant distraction, if that is possible.

I have been trying distractions but nothing feels pleasant I feel so sad I literally feel sick to my stomach like it just hurts and I don't know what to do I feel like I am being pulled down and down and down far away from this world nothing feels real here anymore and everything is covered by a haze that I can't get out of like they are I calling me to another world I don't know if I should go with them though they say theirs is better which I can't say I can contradict but I don't think I would feel anymore whole there than here. I am just exhausted I am sorry.

Not even a hug I always knew I was worthless anyway sorry.

You are not worthless. None of us are. We are here for a reason even though we can't see it easily.

Please stop apologizing. There is no reason to.

Well apparently no one else agrees with you tha ks anyway but majority has voted and the result is i am a watse of space.

Lots of hugs for you.

Sorry, but you have to be patient for replies. A lack of replies doesn't mean that people don't care. We do, but we can be slow to reply.

Without exception no human is worthless. That's the rule.

You are a precious, valuable, important, dear, person who who should be treasured. cherished and protected.
But, you're unwell and tired from fighting the dark voices
I don't think that I can make you feel better, but please trust me when I say that I truly believe that no human is worthless or unlovable. That, of course, includes you.

I gave over 24 hours time and there was still nothing

I know it hurts getting so few replies. I get few replies on my posts too.

But, it could be that because this is a forum for depressed people we're pretty lousy at supporting each other.
I've noticed that it can take hours on a new thread for someone to reply when we need answers straight away!
Hang in there. You are important and worthy of attention.

Hello Eden, you are not going to please everyone all the time. You need to look after yourself especially when you are having bad thoughts. Just say no. I have learned to say this over time. You need to get help for these urges. Have you been seeing a therapist or are you on meds?

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I have been seeing a psychologist for 4 years and I am not on meds and I can't be either.

Sounds tough not being on meds

Eden1515, you are not worthless. You must see yourself as a person of great worth. You are very valuable to a lot of people. They care enough to want to help you get out of the black hole you feel you are in. When my best friend died years ago i was so depressed for 4 months all i could do was just sit and stare. One night i had a dream and they came to me. they were all in white and glowed like an angel. they told me not to be depressed anymore. that i had much work to do and then a great sense of peace over came me. I could not open my eyes the room was filled with light. Yes, there are times we feel like we can't go on. But life is more than feelings... like the commercial Nike, just do it. Just get up and go through the motions and then the feelings will follow. Your mind has to tell your body you can do this, you will do this. And once you start you just keep going. We all struggle with the get up and go of things. You got 4 hugs here today. AND you are going to get better. Stop and think of all the things you like, food, clothes, music, art, hobbies, sports.... just think on things you like... and get up and do something special just for yourself, today. And you will feel better. Your self talk in your head, don't give in to it. The reality is you are you, now, and you can overcome this. Think on positive things and let your mind dwell there. If you have a pet, love it up. Or plants, water them, etc. You have many friends here, do not give up. I tried the big S twice, both times i overcame it. You don't want to go there. It is not pretty, trust me. Blessings.

i have been going through the motions for at least 6 years and the feelings only get worse i have tried the big S 7 times and fail at that too. i dont find enjoyment in anything anymore and my pet rabbit died recently so that isnt an option.

You are not worthless and you are not alone.

Threads on any forum can be hit or miss for getting replies. Please don't take the number of responses as any judgement on you.

Check in with us tomorrow and let us know how you are doing.

It just seems as though more often it is a miss.

Sometimes I feel like that, too. But we're all here because we are struggling and I try to be conscious of that.

What is it you like to do? Are you able to get out of the house?

How are you doing?
I thinking of you

i am very tired but i SH'ed this morning so i am a little less spacey. i am kind of paranoid too i keep thinking people are following me and i feel bad it is so hard to get out of bed in the morning and i keep cycling between binge eating or not eating at all and my mind keeps racing and i cant focus properly and i just feel like this dragging and pulling like i am falling and it makes me want to curl up in a ball because i cant make it stop.

I'm so sorry you're in such pain.
Are you taking care of your SH wounds?