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Apr 16, 2016, 09:55 PM
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There is a few reason I feel I maybe depressed I mainly feel hopeless that I don't have more friends then I have because I feel like I can't have male friends because they wanna have sex with me which makes me hate the fact that sex exists and that the make men become evil and obsessive towards getting it. I am sick and tired of having to distance myself from people because I am worried that they will come on strong onto me and trying to sleep with me I am tired of all the restrictions I put on myself towards talking to others because men are horny bastards and sex is the only thing humans care about. I am tired of having to believe I can't be with anyone because they will want sex. I hate sex, I hate that it exists I hate men because that's all they care about I have no use or they won't even bother being friends with me because sex will **** it all I am tired. SO FREAKING tired you won't believe I am tired of being messed over of believing all this **** I just want to run away and hide on the moon so I won't have to think about humans I am tired of thinking about boys worrying about boys and weither they care or not or if they only want there **** wet, weither they want me as a girlfriend. I am tired of just worrying in general, if people stopped obsessing for sex for a while and see how beautiful the world truly is I would finally be relieved from this burden. Also, I have to put up with guys asking what I would say if they raped me I had to put up with 20 guys sending **** pics, I feel like a doll being forced into this sexual slavery and obsession society has that it's all I ever think and obsess about boys if they ever seen me as girlfriend material or they just want my bits. I used to feel like I might as well cut my vagina out and throw it to them because they view my vagina more then they view humans. That is why I am so angry with males and I hate them and am disgusted you think a ****ing worthless vagina is more important then how I feel and then fact I died so you can get your **** wet. YOUR DISGUSTING AND I HATE YOU. I also feel like I may have body dysmorphia because I view myself as a slightly taller dwarf 5'1.4" talls and I weigh 63 kgs or 38 pounds and yet I view myself as being in different perpotitions everywhere and I am just odd looking does this sound like body dysmorphia?
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Apr 17, 2016, 01:04 AM
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i dunno much about the dysmorphia stuff... but what i think i know is that you can see many things that arent really there...
i just wanna say as a guy, that i dont obsess over sex like that... and i dont view women as sexual object... im actually really reserved about it... problably too much and if a girl was interested in me she probably would get angry or upset why i wasnt trying to have sex with her... but its not just a thing with guys... or with girls... some guys are dicks, and thats all they think about is sex... some guys are cool though... i do think about sex, it would be nice if i could have someone i could trust but i cant trust anyone so i always stay at a distance... im not ugly either, or fat... everyone tells me that i am attractive, but its whats inside me that keeps everyone at a distance its not easy ya know... but just because it hard doesnt mean its not possible... there is a guy that will treat you like a lady... and be respectful and treat you with dignity.... one that will honor you and love you for who you are.... we just have to try not to kill everyone that tries to touch us hehe... not all guys are bad... the girl i fell in love with was... she ripped my mentality to shreds... but its fine... i should of expected it, but i know that maybe there is one out there that can be patient with me... everyone deserves someone to love... you deserve it too... i know it doesnt feel like it sometimes, like sometimes no one will ever be there... but i just try to imagine that she is there... and maybe one day she will step out of a door or walk into a room and i will see her and run over and tackle her and be like! YOU ARE THE ONE!!! haha probably not, but you know what i mean? its something we struggle with that most people dont even think about... i dunno why...  
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Apr 17, 2016, 04:12 AM
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I think it's very brave to write out these thoughts that you're having. I do feel hatred against men from time to time, and it's about sex, and at the same time it's not.
It seems to me like you have experienced sexual exploitation/assault. Hmm... people recognise the way we think or feel through the way we're moving and what kind of facial expressions we have and stuff. So if you are emotionally hurt and easily exploited, there will always be men recieving your vibes so to say (transference) who have this exploitive attitude towards women. So maybe therapy could help you learn how to recognise when you are slipping in such a kind of a relationship again? |
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Apr 17, 2016, 02:50 PM
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Apr 17, 2016, 05:23 PM
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Apr 18, 2016, 06:07 AM
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Yeah, I haven't been raped exactly my cousin just asked me for sex and i kept saying no but then I said yes because I was scared so thats not really rape and my uncle wanted to sleep with me. I just always wondered what kind of vibe I give guys and I play the victim card to get sympathy from them or maybe they'd save me and fall in love with me but since when is love like in the movies? All being vulnerable has done is make it easier for guys to hit me up for a friends with benefits or just being expolted to be honest I am honest and sick of making myself hurt by trying to make them want me... :/ they never will
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Apr 18, 2016, 12:01 PM
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Hmm... I think it wasn't exactly rape, but still emotional/sexual abuse right? After all they must have been aware of the fact that what they were doing was wrong, if it wasn't for the fact they realised you're vulnerable and easily exploited, then there's still the thing they were related to you.
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Apr 18, 2016, 08:01 PM
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Yes, it makes me think if my own family can expoit me it makes me wonder if other men think I am expoitable.
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Apr 18, 2016, 08:19 PM
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i think it might have to do with how we feel about our selves...
i keep hearing people say that you will only find someone to love you when you love yourself... you have to convince yourself that you are special and important and there is a guy out there that will treat you like a queen... you deserve it...  seems to be plenty of guys that want to play games and take advantage of girls... to be fair there are girls that will do the same... we just have to reserve ourselves until we see the same special thing in another...
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