confessions of little turtle

That's too bad fuzzy. I have had one who wasn't very good but I've been fortunate that my last two have been wonderful. You get to pick people who work for you. Everyone has their strengths. I know I'm not a very good therapist for adults but I'm great with kids. A lot of people don't realize that they can do introduction meetings and sort of interview their therapists.

Little Turtle,

Thank you so much for being here, talking to us. You have given me something to think about. I haven’t tried enough to work on my problems. I’ve wanted to be numb, but that shouldn’t be the goal.

I want to love life. I don’t know how to find my way, but I have started to think about this.

I just want to be me....
in this awful world...
part of me is having a mental illness..
other people do not like that I have a mental illness...
it is now very important for me to embrace that part of me...
I have a mental illness...others want to stay away from me...
they want to change me somehow...
I cant change that...
here I am....I want to connect with those that accept me for what I am..
there is massive stigma out there now...
people just don't understand mental illness..
I don't understand mental illness...
but its there...and I am still here...

(((Little Turtle)))

It’s good to see you! I was a little worried; I’m glad you’re back!

I cant believe how much we SUFFER...and how much other persons
have no idea what we are going through...THEY JUST DONT KNOW...

i am really lost right now...i don't think i understand depression...
i have it...i have had it...i have been treated for it...i have treated others for it..
but i am at a loss ....WHAT IS THE CAUSE...

My great-aunt died from it. My mother was lost within it. I have struggled through it. I’m guessing genetics is one part of the cause. I also know my mother was abused as a child. I lived in chaos in childhood. So, I suspect that I had a predisposition for depression. ❤️ I’m sorry you are hurting.

thanks sugar-----------I agree big time ...genetics are very important...and early abuse is all over the place...

I think there is hope for us in this cruel world...
I was helped a lot by one doctor and one psychologist...
and one minister...also valium helped me a lot..
but I never took more than the prescribed amount...
twice a day...

all of this saved my little butt...
and now I am frightened and scared...
and that fear has nothing to do with my mental illness..
it has to do about the way this world has become..
fasten your seatbelts...

((((((((( little turtle )))))))))

I’m scared too, this world sucks

Love to all who can care

I’m glad you have hope and that you are a professional who genuinely wants to help people

Sadly I have crossed paths with “professionals” who are, frankly, self absorbed and cruel

(Not about anyone on pc)

fuzzy I mainly want help for me...
most professionals/most people are not wanting to get close to us..
STIGMA STIGMA STIGMA
most people are afraid of us or want to take us down below them..

so I am looking for others that understand about mental suffering and abuse..
I am looking for honey not vinegar

(((((((( little turtle )))))))))

Exactly .. I agree. I send love

I see the world as being mostly ugly....people are the biggest problem...
but there is some beauty....real beauty...and sometimes with other people..
but it looks very hard going...

I am really down on the use of drugs to treat all of our problems.....
they help some but I am hearing about all the problems that they create...
the problem I see....we are just treating the symptoms of illness...
WE ARE NOT GETTING TO THE CAUSE OF OUR PROBLEMS...
this is really tough stuff...the cause...what causes...
one big cause is dealing with the reality of life...

I also have to say----if something works for you... whatever it is...
you need to go with what really works best for YOU...

(((((((((( little turtle )))))))))))

I wish I knew the cause of my mental illness...

I just looked at a story by Kat H....it was on the mad in America website...
it was a story of sexual abuse and bpd...it was very moving and powerful...
it told a lot about the way we are being treated by the mental health system..

i am having a hard time trusting anyone...it is so hard to tell what is true..

((((((((( little turtle )))))))))

i never wanted to treat children...and i never did....
i couldn't stand when children were suffering...
but now children are given all these drugs---------antidepressants/antipsychotics/antianxiety/stimulants

i am very worried.. what are we doing to them with these drugs..
i was never given a drug when i first broke down...there were no drugs then..
we don't seem to spend time dealing with problems...we just give a pill...
it has been called--fast moods

I feel so alone....I am angry and scared and sad...there is so much hatred out there in the world...so much abuse....so much greed...I do not like what was done to me as a kid...and I really don't like the way the kids of today are being drugged... for being normal...

I think I have been blaming myself for things that I couldn't control...I have been blaming myself...wow...