Hello, I'm New yet STRESSED!

I am going through a situation right now that is deeply hurting me on the inside. I am dealing with relationship issues. My bf and i have been together 5 years now but due to him being in the military he hasnt been home in 2 years. He has been to visit and i have been to visit him. Now he's almost home for good once he's released from MedHold. But recently he cant home (Friday) for 2 week. He had family issues to deal with this weekend so i didnt expect to spend time with him. But the next weekend (this weekend) he had plans for a trip with him friends. He will be gone 5 days straight out of town with his friends and i will be here again alone and with out him. I'm soo tired of being alone and he dont understand. I get very emotional and depressed when i cant spend time with him when he's home. Well if anything not mandatory is standing in the way; like this trip. I feel he rather be with his friends then with me; the one who has been living 2 years waiting on his return. I cant cope with this feeling i get from the situation. Last night i went to talk to him about how i feel about this but he just laugh at me and tell me i am asking for too much. He tells me mean things and make me feel like he doesnt care about me. But i know he loves me, i know he wants to be with me but not how i need him to. I want to let him go but it is killing me to even think about doing such a thing, then i want to stay and work this out. I just want the pain to stop. I admit i get a bit out of hand when i PMS (which is now) and i take meds for it but i havent been able to afford my meds and i have no control of my reactions. My actions only makes matters worst. I have seeked help online and will soon contact a psychologist for addt'l help but until then i need some kind of help and support from others who understand how i feel. I feel like i'm alone in this and i am the only one who feels this way. PLEASE HELP!

im sorry you're feeling so alone, i know how hard that is.

Well, real sorry for your suffering.
But it seems to me that your relationship should be questioned seriously. From your account I find no hint that this man is your bf, except you addressing him as such.
Really reconsider all the situation. Of course I know it is like saying "go climb Everest bare handed", but bringing on this confusion could only worsen the pain.

The best of luck

welcome to PC.

It sounds like you've got a lot happening right now. I'm sorry about that. I know you don't want to let him go, but if he's going to be that insensitive and it's leading to more emotional problems for you, then maybe you can sit down with him (when you're both free and in a good mood) and talk to him about how you feel. Sometimes guys don't get everything, because the two sexes are fairly different. Maybe he'll come around and realize he needs to communicate more with you. Maybe you do need to take a break apart to re-evaluate how you really feel about him. It could result in something you don't want, but you're important. If you're not happy, it's not fair for you to stay in the relationship.

I hope things work out for you and I apologize for being so abrupt.

My son came home from the war, came home a different person. I don't know where or what your bf did, but they need time to decompress. Think of it as one day ur in a fire fight, kill or be killed, then home. My son still jumps at lound noises, looks at people in a different way. I'm sorry if it seems like your left out of the loop, try to give him time. Thats what my son asked for.....

Thank you all for your wonderful advice. I have decided to take a step back to re-evaluate the relationship and my happiness. I cant go on in this type of pain. I long to be happy and loved but this relatioship isnt bringing me neither of those.

TUCKER: He wasnt at war; he just wants to play with his friends over spending time with his gf who has been alone doing nothing but counting the days until he return, day in and day out. He is 28 yrs old and all he can think aout is hanging with his friends, taking trips with his friends, visiting his friends...but with me its MAYBE go to a movie and back to my apt and thats it (b/c its a work night and i work early). On the weekend (when i can stay up late) i ask do he want to take a 3 hr ride to the beach and stay the night he tells me he doesnt feel like it...but when his friends ask a week later to go to a beach 16hrs away he jumps on it ans start planning right away...it's not fair. Honestly, sometimes i have to question is he is gay.

life is throwing you some heart felt problems.. but you know,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

t/c

me