[survivormom]

Ok, I've been dealing with depression for awhile, but now I've been so irritable and angry lately! What is up with this? Are there phases of depression? I've been Dx-ed for close to 20 years. Now, everything bothers me and I'm ready to bite everyone's head off. Some days it's bad, some days, it's REALLY bad!

Anyone been through this?

[skittles]

im always like that especially if im off my meds..which i dont take my meds like im supposed to..... so i know exaclty what ur going through........ everyone calls me mean all the time... but i cant help it.. sometimes i dont even realize im doing it.. pm if u want .....

[Pejorative]

I'm dealing with this :-(

yes i'm going through med change and i feel very aggressive and angry right now as well as sad and having bad thoughts. nothing surprises me any more

jinnyann

[dreamrunner]

I get irritable when Ive been anxious for a period of time....then usually I fall into a deeper depression.

[Adria]

So glad you shared. I feel the same way, most of the time I am over passive, (a door mat). Sometimes I switch, I feel like a lion who has been pinned up in a corner and when I get tired of it I lash out with anger for days at a time. Alot of times I just stay away from everyone as much as possible because I never know what I will do or say or what little thing will set my anger off. Sometimes I don't even leave the house because I know I will have road rage or feel like I hate people I don't even know. My Dr. says it's because I get so depressed that I don't stick up for myself because I don't feel worthy then I get really sick of it.

[survivormom]

Thanks everyone for your understanding and, um, sympathy! I've since been on a couple different meds - and I'm still not stable! Ahh!

But it does help to know I'm not alone....

[Jacquard]

I know it sounds sort of strange, but if I get angry, I see it as a positive sign afterward, because I actually have enough emotional reserves to feel SOMETHING. If you've recently changed your meds and are feeling irritable rather than just depressed, maybe it's a sign you're getting better!

[Soidhonia]

Hello Survivormom. I am sorry that you are having this struggle at this time. Have you talked to your Psych Dr about your moodswings? Sometimes meds need adjusting to keep the mood swings from being so severs. Have you had a physical lately? There could be underlying reasons for the change in mood such as PMS. PMDD, Thyroid, or (perimeonpause) that can also cause fluctuations in mood. Please talk to your Dr about your situation so the Dr can help you at this time. Take care of yourself. I hoep things get better for you soon. Soidhonia

[sorrel]

Hi!
If you saw my post on agitated depression you will see that I have similar problems. I find that the deeper into recovery from my childhood abuse and trauma, the more angry I get! It takes a fair bit of untangling. So I can empathise.

[survivormom]

Hi Soidhonia, Yes, I've been on the phone, email, and in the office of my psych. He's been really good - but I'm learning that the doctors are not God. I've been off and on of several meds - the latest is Lamictal, which did not work at all. It just made me extremely anxious. So, I'm coming off if it.

You've also got a point about the different causes. I did get my thyroid checked and it WAS out of whack. I'm now on meds for that. Getting used to the Synthroid was an experience in itself. But I knew it was the Synthroid. I also have to wonder about "the change" as I am growing older.

Sometimes I don't feel like any doctor or med can help. I just have to tough it out. I'm pretty sure I'm not alone. The past couple weeks have been pretty hard. But at least this time I haven't had any thoughts of "checking out." I'm just struggling mentally and emotionally, and I guess physically too! The only thing I'm having a problem with, that I think would help, is crying. I just don't cry. I've been told by many that if I would just let go and let myself cry, it would probably help tremendously. Maybe one day....

[survivormom]

I feel for you Jillyann. Nothing surprises me anymore either, which has made me numb to the world. I try to get out and go about my daily routine - sometimes that helps. Being around other people helps, too.